Billie eilish imagines 🔥

Depression ✔️

⚠️ depression description suicidal language and self harm ⚠️

Lately skyler has been having a hard time, she's fallen into a deep hole of depression, she can't even get out of bed in the morning

We could go and get a snack from downstairs and she would be just exhausted

But I'm here for her and I always will be, I encourage her every day and tell her how much she means to me just to keep her spirits up

We try every day to do more and more, well I get her to At least, it's heart breaking to see every day but all I can do is be there for her

I feel her shift slightly as I shush her back to sleep

As much as people say it's bad to let people with depression sleep so long I just let her do what she needs and she has a little more energy if she does

What I've learnt is just to let her wake up herself or else things can get worse

She lost her chance to be left alone for more then twenty minutes when I caught her sitting in the bathroom staring at a handful of pills

But it's not harsh though, if she wants space I'll give it to her, I'll either be across the room or just check on her and she knows this and tells me when she needs space because I don't want her to feel like I'm suffocating her I just want her to know I'm keeping her safe

Suddenly she turned over and buried her head in my back as I felt her kiss my neck lightly

"Morning pretty girl" I smiled

"Billie" she started and I got worried

"What's wrong Angel?" I asked with concern

"I want to tell you before you find out yourself and just know I'm so sorry and I already regret it all" she told me with a slight shake in her voice

"I'm right here baby, it's ok" I reassured her

"I cut" she whispered

"Ok, it's okay baby, it's gonna be ok" I told her and held onto her tighter

"I'm so proud of you for telling me ok? So proud I understand that it's hard" I told her as she sniffled into my neck

"Am i allowed to see?" I asked cautiously and she nodded and sat up as I followed

She pulled up her sleeve as I saw about five cuts that had began to scan over and where pretty long but not to deep

"I felt like I was in a trance, and it's all I could think about I guess, and then I did it a few times and I realised what I was doing and Stopped myself, I still had the blade in my hand and my whole body wanted to do it and I was fighting so hard not to as I flushed it down the toilet" she explained as I preppered kisses up her arms

"It's ok, i am so proud of you for telling me, for stopping yourself and realising it was wrong ok?" I told her as she nodded

"I'm so sorry, I tried to hard to reach my two month mile stone, I was a week away" she told me and I pulled her sleeve down gently

"It's ok princess, you don't have to be sorry, it was a mistake and we learn from them ok, I understand how hard it it to stop, hell it took me two years, relapse is bound to happen but it's going to be ok" I explained to her

"Are you not disappointed?" She asked scared

"Disappointed? Never angel. Does it break my heart? Yes. However I am going to be here every step of the way, right here" I told her and she nodded

"I love you, your the one thing that keeps me going" she told me

"I love you too, your the one thing that matters to me most" I replied with