Billie eilish imagines 🔥

No drugs

So I'll cut to the chase, when I was 16 I had a serious medication problem I was addicted to taking them, so much that I OD three times and it didn't phase me I would lie, steal and manipulate just to get some pills in my system

And no it wasn't like cocaine or weed etc it was pain killers etc

When you take them so much they stop taking away the actual pain, but I didn't care

I relied on them to live and function, without them I was weak

It got so bad my parents finally sent me to an addiction camp and I was helped to stop my addiction, I was there for all of 2 years but atleast it worked

I have new coping methods instead of downing a bottle of pills

When I was in there I met this girl, she was called Billie. She had the same case as me but way less worse because her parents wanted to get her help early when mine really didn't give a shit until social services where involved

We helped eachother and she got out a year before me but we still kept in touch, and then when I got out we dated and still are

And here I am with my beautiful girlfriend of 2 years and 2 months now and I wouldn't have it another way

We understand eachother and if one of us is having a bad day and has cravings we help each other

And I'm glad I can say I haven't touched a drug or medication or pill in almost 3 years

I don't take medication for anything, not even for headaches

Hell we don't even fucking have any in our house we both just never brought it so we didn't temt ourselves

And you can say all you like 'oh it's been two nearly three years you can have it in your house' it's not that easy. Most people can take up to 2 years to have one whole day of not thinking about taking them, and it can take people 7 years to take medication responsibly and only when needed

And of course billie wasn't as bad as me but that only because her parents did something about it early when they noticed things going missing out of the cupboards, while me our cupboards where empty because as soon as my parents got something it was gone

We still have the urge to take them so we both silently agreed for the time being we wouldn't have anything like that

And even if we did we would start of with cone kids medication or something

We laid in bed hugging silently as we had both just woke up

"Morning" I Muttered into her back as she was facing away from me

"Did I wake you, I didn't realise you where up" she replied and I shook me head

"Your Fine" I replied and shrugged

"How are you feeling?" She asked and I hummed

"I'm good baby, how are you?" I replied and pulled her closer to me without discussion

"Feeling a Little shitty, fucking cravings bro" she says a little annoyed

Yea, after Billie got out and we started dating she did relapse but i caught on quickly and convinced her parents to let me try and help before they sent her away knowing it could've hurt her more

So we got through it, I taught her more coping methods and what foods and drink to avoid

Coffee and caffeine being a big one, it's classed as a drug but it's not the pills we are looking for it's just makes us crave it more, which never helps