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Chapter 40 • Pt. 1

And she hated herself for being like that, she hated acting the way she despised the most.

It wasn't that funny when she was facing once again the truth that the opportunity to come to South Korea to study was given just because her parents wanted to hide their inopportune daughter who happened to be all over Siam Center in bikini ads. 

They were embarrassed of her so much they pushed her away and at the moment, Lisa was happy because she got what she wanted but it was so hurtful at the end of the day.

And now her mother was silent, of course she was.

She didn't know what to say, probably because it was the first time the truth about their relationship was slapping her in the face to force her to realize how bad it was.

But Lisa had to do it, for herself and perhaps both of them.

"And it doesn't have to be like that!" Lisa then exclaimed, sniffing, because despite everything, the situation was horrible and it hurt her almost as much as her mother was being hurt right now and she really didn't want it to continue like this. "It wouldn't hurt you to show a little bit of support or at least be decent and accept that yes, it's not the daughter you wanted, but it's the only daughter you have, mother"

Preeda finally muttered through clenched teeth to control a possible cry: "I'm just trying to protect you."

"I can protect myself!" Lisa pointed out annoyed, less wanting to cry because that woman had a special power to make her angry. What the hell did that have to do with everything that she had just tell her? What did she want to protect her from? From a life outside the pretty world of flowers and money? Lisa already lived in such a world!

And why the hell was she wasting her time? Apparently her mother wasn't going to understand her, she wasn't going to lower her high wall of arrogance and maybe she was never going to accept that she was a photographer or dated Jungkook. Was it even a surprise?

And why go on living like this?

Lisa realized that it was not worth it and if she had achieved so much herself, she could achieve more by leaving behind all the benefits that tied her to this life because at least now she had a someone supporting her...

Or she hoped so.

"Listen," she decided to end this because it was just useless. "You can choose"

Her mother arched a curious brow, discreetly picking up a handkerchief to wipe away a stubborn tear that had slipped down her cheek.

"You can choose if you accept just this part of me, my relationship, or you simply stop all communication with me"

Preeda's eyes, brown and big like her daughter's, widened in disbelief of what she had just heard. Her face conveyed a clear question that she failed to vocalize, stuttering nonsensical sounds.

"Yes, I'm being serious and notice how serious I am because I'm risking all I have, which is sadly under your power," Lisa clarified, reaching for her cardigan and backpack. "I don't want to keep a relationship with you if it's going to be all about manipulation, lies, hiding things and blackmailing. It's your choice then to make it better and remember that if I can love you in spite of how different we are, in spite of how bad we've been to each other, I like to think you love me enough to make the right decision," she added and looked at her for a few seconds with her eyes shining with honesty.

Preeda said nothing, her gaze lowered and her fingers clenching her cloth handkerchief in clear signs of conflict, so Lisa nodded and walked to the door. "Now I'll go to work and you have tonight or tomorrow or whenever to call me and let me know your decision"