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Chapter 38 • Pt. 5, 2

He exhaled air and sighed again, searching for the words. "It's not about you not being able or being able to pay, it's not about not seeing you as an equal or otherwise either, it's because this a gift, Lisa. I want to fucking spoil you and give you the best because you're used to the best and don't want you to aspire less when you're with me," he explained with so much frustration that he overflowed with it, it was impossible not feeling what he was feeling because his whole body showed it, with clenched fists and tense shoulders. "And I failed! I wanted to take you to a luxurious resort or rent a good cabin for us but after Yuqi's accident I didn't have the money for it and I still tried to not disappoint you but I still did and it's so fucking awful. So can you please let me pay and keep pretending this is not as shitty as it is? Because the only thing keeping this perfect is you!"

Lisa swallowed, bringing a hand to her chest where her heart began to pound... for him. God, he was so dumb. Couldn't he see what was right in front of her eyes? He couldn't see how genuinely happy she was? All because he believed she wanted something luxurious? Why did he believe that? Because she was rich?

She didn't care about where they were! She had the best nights and summer days with him, she was satisfied and happy, why couldn't he take his head out of his ass and see it? He was hurting himself over nothing.

"I'm not pretending it's not shitty, Jungkook. It is not shitty," she told him after a few seconds, with utmost honesty. "You never disappointed me and I never expected-"

"See? You don't expect it from me and I want to- "

"Stop pushing yourself down, Jungkook!" she technically yelled at him, just for him to shut up. "Do you think I want a big hotel? A grew up in one, yeah the mattress is good but the place is lonely. And do you think I want some rich guy buying everything for me? No! I don't want a fucking sugar daddy, Jungkook, I want you. You are all I want, all I need "

Jungkook blinked, stunned by the sudden confession. Was that true?

"Stop stressing out about stupid things, you didn't disappoint me at all. I'm happy here and I will be wherever you are because nothing matters but you. So please, take my fucking money and go pay!"

She was good at changing the mood in seconds, becoming the bossy and sassy person that made him smile, although he already wanted to smile after hearing her say all those beautiful things.

It didn't change the fact that he still felt like a failure and that sooner or later she was going to realize it had been a bad trip, but it was some salt to his bitter feelings of guilt.

Lisa reached over and cupped his cheeks, forcing him to look into her eyes. "Jungkook, I love you, deadass. I don't want anything else. Stop overthinking," she murmured to him in such a sweet voice, with that look that once again exposed everything she felt to him and then she kissed him, culminating in the effect of "everything's gonna be alright ".

He could believe her, he could if he were less stubborn but he wasn't less stubborn. But her thumb stroking his cheek was soothing and her stare was sincere, she wasn't lying, she was sure about her thoughts and... she loved him, despite of everything.

Didn't he really disappoint her?

"We can pay half and half in the next guest house, let me pay all this by myself this time," he murmured against hers lips, arms hugging her waist and loving hers around his neck.

"Sometimes I really want to choke you"

"Oh, did you bring that slash here? That's nasty, Miss Manoban"

"Jungkook don't be cute, I'm mad at you"

(a/n: this is the walmart version of lk white lies fight in st but I DID WHAT I COULD and idk, i think it wasn't like necessary to make it longer but what do you think? was one talk enough to solve it? or more drama is coming?)