Marrying Mr. Stupid

Chapter 11 -Newly

Nakakailang sulyap pa ako sa sarili habang inaayusan ako. This should be a happy day for every woman, but not with me. Ito na ata ang pinakasuklam-suklam na araw sa buhay ko.

Napalingon naman ako sa pinto ng may kumatok roon. I saw my mom looking sophisticated and all with her long lacy gown. Hindi ko nagawang ngumiti at mukhang naiintindihan naman nito iyon.

"You look great honey." I tried to stop myself from rolling my eyes. "Kurt will fall head over heels with you so don't worry." I clenched my fist hard. Wala akong balak na painlove-in ang mokong na 'yon.

If only decency will not be applicable, I should've have wore rug instead of this gown.

Maganda ka nga hindi ka naman masaya. Oo na alam kong walang koneksyon. I just want everything to be finished tapos babalik na ako sa normal kong buhay.

"Are you sure about this Ma? Sigurado kayong gusto niyo akong itali sa taong hindi ko naman mahal?"

"Money is greater than love Margo. Money gives power. And with Kurt, you will have the power to ascend from other people. You will need that in the future." Hindi ko mapigilang mapailing.

"You're too much." I said through gritted teeth.

"I'm not. Once you get old, you will understand why I did this. Hindi mo kasi alam ang lahat Margo."

"I may not, but why don't you let me find answers to those 'lahat' that I might face."

"Drop the topic. I don't have time to hear your nonsense."

Napatayo na ako at minuwestra munang lumabas ang nag-aayos sa akin. Agad naman itong sumunod.

"You've been through this Ma. Ang swerte mo lang kasi mahal ka ni Daddy. Ang swerte mo lang kasi hindi ikaw yung nasa sitwasyon ko. Ang swerte niyo po dahil hindi ako ikaw." Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi ko para pigilan ko ang nagbabadya kong luha.

Humarap naman ito sa akin. And for the first time in my life I saw another side of my mother. She gently patted my head. "Do you think I'll agree to this kung alam kong hindi tama Margo?" she sighed. "I know Kurt will take care of you better than anyone else. You may not see it now pero darating ang araw na masasabi mong tama rin ako."

"H...how?"

She smiled. For the first time, she smiled. "Ikaw lang ang makakaalam."

Magsasalita pa sana ako nang bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa non si Daddy. He look younger and manlier. Ngumiti ito agad lumapit sa amin.

"Am I interrupting you ladies?" My Dad encircled his arm around my mom's waist. Ngumiti naman ako at pinilit ipakitang ayos ako kahit ang totoo'y hindi.

"We are discussing matters Roland." Tumingin naman ito sa akin. "No need for you to know." Napasimangot naman si Daddy. And what Daddy does made me smile. He cuddled mom and even though my mother looks irritated I can see how brightly she looks at my father.

How I wished to experience a love like them.

Nang matapos sila ay saka lamang ata nila ako muling napansin. Agad akong inakbayan ni Daddy and kissed me on the forehead.

"My baby girl is a woman now. I will smack that man if he'll ever hurt you." Mahina bulong ni Daddy na ikinangiti.

Days passed really fast. Hindi ko lubos maisip na ikakasal na kami ngayong araw. Talo ko pa ang may taning na ayaw dumating ang araw na ito. Nakatingin lamang ako sa labas ng bintana habang nag-uusap sila mommy at daddy.

Malayo pa lang ay tanaw ko na ang St. Joseph Church kung saan ako ikakasal. May kalakihan ang simbahan at kung susumahin ang capacity ay halos daang tao ang kaya nitong iaccomodate which is by far opposite to the number of invited people in our wedding.