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Chapter 33

I blinked a few times as he walked out, to figure out what the hell had just happened. I felt as if everything I'd done that morning was over before even I could realize it; first talking to Briana, and then talking to Liam. But talking to him was another thing.

"Stupid idiot," I muttered to myself as I shook my head, walking over to the hanger to put a jacket on, and pull on a pair of flats. If he thinks I'm gonna leave it at that he really is a stupid idiot, I thought to myself.

"Stupid, moronic, preposterous, mentally incompetent idiot," I kept talking under my breath as I walked out of the apartment, to see him standing in front of the lift. "Liam?" I said loudly, not even caring that I might have been disturbing the neighbors. It was around lunch time anyway, everyone should've been awake by then.

"Liam," I repeated just as loudly, when I saw him clicking the button next to the lift multiple times. "Liam, what the fuck are you doing?"

"Leaving," He said in a flat tone, and I rolled my eyes, starting to walk after him as the door of the lift finally opened.

"You always leave!" I almost shouted, starting to sprint when I was halfway across the hallway. Fortunately, I got there just in time to block the door from closing. He let out a frustrated sigh and turned away from me as I entered it myself – aware that I was basically in underwear and that I'd left my apartment unlocked – but that didn't stop me from leaving. Nothing was going to stop me until I was done talking to him; and I really mean done.

"Sally," Liam sighed as he walked to the other side of the elevator, leaning against one of the walls, his eyes closed. "Just make this easy for both of us and let me leave."

The small space shook as I pressed one of the buttons, and caused Liam to wince, a little startled. "I think that was the wrong button," He said, but I decided to ignore his jokes. It was now or never.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I placed my hands on my hips; at least I didn't need to worry about the lift opening. "What is with you and fucking leaving all the time?"

He opened his mouth to speak, but oh no, I was having none of his excuses. "You never let me speak! This is the first time you've ever let me say a proper word to you, and it was only because you wanted to know what happened to me!" I said loudly, to which he just blinked. "You just jump to conclusions all the time and then you just, you just fucking leave before I can even say anything!"

"And what, did you want me to wait?" He pushed himself off the wall, beginning to talk before I could continue. "'Cause I'm fucking sick of waiting, Sally, I have my limits."

He let out another, shakier sigh and ran his hands through his hair, taking his beanie off in the process. Oddly, I was willing to listen to what he had to say. "When-when we talked that night in the motel, I thought I would be able to give you as much time as you need, because it's you, and I'd walk through fire for you, but I just, I- I have my limits. I can't sit around and wait for you to be okay."

"Then why did you keep telling me that you love me?" It almost hurt to say the actual word. "Do you even realize what that means, to love someone? You don't just walk away from someone you supposedly love because they're wasting your precious fucking time!"

I was a little bit surprised when he laughed at that, though. "Don't you see what I'm trying to do?" He asked, a bitter smile still on his face. "I'm trying to spare myself! I'm trying to fucking spare myself because I've got this horrible feeling that I'd get hurt in the end anyway! And there's no fucking way you could hurt me if I didn't love you!"

"What about me?" I started shouting, "What about me? What about my feelings, what about me getting hurt? Do you think this is all a joke to me? You are literally the first person I've let into my life since that piece of shit ruined me, do you even realize how huge of a step this is for me? Do you know how much time it took me to convince myself that you're not just another bastard that's in to break my heart? Do you?"