petal poetry

guilt

22:11 05/10/2017

i feel guilty for the way i think
at this point i'd rather just quit
i'm aware of my conscious mistakes
some times you choose the wrong thing anyway

happiness flew out the window
visited someone who needs it more
for i can be sad another day
won't change anything anyway

i'm aware of the things i choose
but i don't want to hurt anyone with the things i do
but this time i just don't want to stay
i'll still come back sick anyway

i'm sorry for starting it again
i know i could've been silent
you just want me to be okay
but i know i'll never be fine anyway

i know that you care
but sometimes your fears are scary
so i'll still do what i say
i know i'd feel guilty anyway

so excuse me for being so dumb
pretending i know the problems of the world
but i could be smart on any other day
so today i'll stay sad as i am anyway

22:18 05/10/2017