petal poetry

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21:06 06/02/2019

what's the date
i can't seem to stop forgetting
i can't hear my brain
what am i saying

my bare hands
on your neck
you're so cold
where are your clothes

the clock moves
so slowly
now on the other side of the room
i think that's normal

are they screaming
i can't hear
it's all muffled
muffllelddd

visuals might save me
since i must deprive myself of understanding
you're a liar
you should be quiet

a-and yo-yo-you should try
but i don't want to make a riot
so i better stay quiet
shut up stay silent

be loud in theory
so they sense mystery
such a masterpiece
better display me

don't enter my house
it's full of dragons
i don't feel safe
so don't try to save me

i wish i could fall asleep
without shaking
i wish you'd ask me
face to face

i'm so scared of you
you're too close
but your mind is so
distant

you suck
leave the house
do something
what do you feel

i'm sorry for using you
as a distraction
i'm out of it
and you were available

please don't mention all of your observations
i need some time
to run a self intervention
for the sake of some prevention

and i'm not worth the inconvenience
so don't change your ways
and compromise
for me

you only love me when you're alone
i should find myself a home
better than this one
lord this is-

everything is too fast
now my music hurts my ears
and is fast forward
i'm too busy all of the time

don't let the music stop
i'm not done
and the bells aren't nice
to listen to

it's just me being pissed off
at myself
for constantly fucking
missing you

21:16 06/02/2019