Save Me

His mistake...Regrets...

Eduardo POV(Flashback):
I was hitting a girl that called Liza a slut.

She deserves it.

Her friend and herself deserve the worse since they are fake.

"Parker, stop!please!" Liz yelled as she ran towards me.

What wrong with her didn't Sally told her what this shit is doing to her image! She tried to pull me away from the girl. I grab her arms with a smile on my face.

"No, Your one body to yell at me! We don't know each other! Okay? We never are friends. 

We  don't make eye contact!" I yelled at her.

I didn't know why maybe because she was the reason that I was bullied by others.

Maybe she wasn't there when I need her the most or she doesn't see the world as I do.

She started to cry in pain.

I was going to comfort her but sally's sweet voice prevent me.

She was there when I needed someone the most. I don't know what am I doing.

Hope came to Liz that things are going to get better. Why is she talking to her? She chose her over me.

So, I chose Sally that loves me but I don't know my feeling towards her. She helps to fight those bullies that used to control me but now they obey my orders. I love to feel this kind of power.

(Time skip)
It has been days since I told Liz to ignore and forget me. At first, I was okay with it but this pain in my chest got me feeling a deep sadness. I tried to get her attention but she ignores me.

I guess she following the commands. I should be happy but am not. 

Sally told me that Liz is calling her a slut whore and a fake person. 

The anger got the best of me and I beat the crap out of her.

Sally help me with this. I hope she learns her lesson but she didn't according to sally, Angel keeps talking. 

She isn't The angel that I once knew since that day that I hurt hope's friend. 

She becomes the Angel of darkness. 

I heard that she even cuts herself to forget sally and my Punch and words. I don't what to believe anymore. She got to see the real world not what her mother told her to see. Her parents care about her grades but not her feelings.

At the end of middle school, Liz transferred to a different school but Sally made sure she suffered. When she left, I woke up from this dream that sally made for me to escape reality. I realized that sally was using me. I never loved her but  I see her as a friend, not as a girlfriend...My feelings for Liz were and have been there from Start.

I was stupid...I ran to her but she wasn't there...

(Skip time)
In my second year of high school, I found out that she coming to this school. She changes a lot since middle school. She now wears black clothes but she looks the same.

She skips a grade since she is smart like that. However, She still ignores me and She looks at me with so much hate.

I was determined to be by her side no matter what...I think...
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(During Angel's party)
However, Someone else won her heart.
It hurt my heart to see her in his arms.
He has shown love since the beginning.

While I hurt her badly that the scars on her arms prove it.

When she yelled "Eduardo parker. I will never be yours. I can't choose who has my heart!! You can't!!! I will never love you and never yours. You made my life impossible to breathe. You said to never look at you. NEVER EVER. I did what I was been told. You said you will leave me alone! You didn't. Years have passed but you didn't keep your promises but I will keep mine!!! I don't know who you're!! You have never been in my life! Who are you??" 

My heart stopped for a moment. How do girls that were rejected a deal with this pain? Did she feel this way when I push her out of my life? If she did, I hurt her badly. I want to get rid of this pain in mu chest.

That night, I cried to sleep since crying was like cleaning my soul.

So, it will be cleared of hate and pain from this fucking society. 

Am done with this world's expectations because I followed My mother and society's rules, and I lost her.

She is lost in her world. While I am lost in my world. Am going to change for her.

Now, Am going to smile without a catch. 

No more lies, pain, and no more controlling other people's actions. She was right no one can choose who they love but I will win her heart. I won't be the jerk that I'm now.

Sitting here in the darkroom isn't who I will be.

I need to stay strong for her.

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