The Virgin and the Playgirl (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 53

Mike and I were just sitting on the lover chair for quite a while and enjoying the great view of Seoul. It's kind of weird kasi hindi ko masyado na feel ang awkwardness, or maybe I'm just really enjoying his company. Masaya siya kausap at may laman.

"A penny for your thoughts?" He said smiling habang akmang bumubunot sa bulsa niya.

I smiled back at him. "I don't know.. But I just feel better now. These past few weeks are just.." Huminga muna ako ng malalim. "Just heavy. It isn't really an easy task to let go of people you care so much about."

Hindi ko din alam kung bakit nakwento ko sa kanya to, but there's something in him that I feel he can be trusted. Then I added, "Parang gusto ko tuloy bumalik sa past hoping na hindi ko nalang sila nakilala so I wouldn't feel this pain."

He looked away after kong magsalita. "I don't know you, but a piece of unsolicited advice? You cannot rewrite or scratch the history, I'm pretty sure it's there for a reason. Like what other people used to say, including myself." He slightly chuckled. "You can always turn to a new page and start from there. Sometimes you have to realize that world is too beautiful to waste your time being angry and sad when you could be enjoying what life has to offer."

There and then, realization came up. He's totally right, ang daming magagandang nangyayari sa buhay ko na mas dapat kong pag tuonan ng pansin. Nangyari na eh, alam ko naman may reason kung bakit nawala ang mga taong pinakaiingatan ko. Maybe they were there to help you grow or realize things to be ready for what the future may hold.

Sabi nga ni Dr. Steve Maraboli:

"The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward."

After namin mag heart to heart talk ng stranger na to, I stood up and about to say na gusto ko na umuwi. But he just looked at me. "Would you like to go to Yeouido Park tomorrow? You know, han river." He asked with a smile.

I'd like to say yes pero may itinerary pa kasi kami ni Ate tomorrow. "Sorry, I'm with my sister kasi and I think may lakad kami bukas."

Then he stood up and looked at me deeply. "No worries. It's nice to meet you, Giselle. Nag enjoy ako, thank you. If ever we see each other in Manila or anywhere around this beautiful world, I'd be very happy."

I've had one of the most meaningful talk with a stranger, too bad I have to go. Gumaan ang pakiramdam ko and not to mention, he put a smile on my face. Sana ganun nalang lahat ng taong nakikilala mo, hindi yung nag ta-take advantage.

AFTER ng masayang vacation namin ni Ate and Kuya na halos shopping at food trip lang ang ginawa ay bumalik ako sa trabaho na motivated. It's been a while since the last time na naramdaman ko yung ganito.

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Lumalim ang gabi at naisipan kong isurprise si Winona para ibigay ang pasalubong niya. The last time we talk ay halos mag away na kami, gusto ko din mag sorry for trying to ignore her after. While driving ay bigla akong nakaramdam ng kaba, ewan ko ba.

Pagkababa ko ng sasakyan after kong mag park ay naglakad ako papuntang coffeeshop dala dala ang pasalubong. Habang naglalakad ay unti unting tumambad sakin ang lalaking prentang naka upo sa motorsiklo niya na di ma ipinta ang kasihayan. Humakbang ako ng konti para maklaro ko, and there I saw Roger with of course, no other than Winona.

Hindi na ako lumingon at bumalik ng kotse, why would I? It's not like nagseselos ako. Si Roger lang naman yan. So prinisenta ko sarili ko breaking their so called happy conversation. "Hi." I said with a killer smile, yung tipong ma iinlove pati si Roger, pish!

Napatigil naman sila at lumingon sa akin. "Sorry kung naka distorbo ako, hatid ko lang tong pasalubong ko para sayo." Sabi ko kay Winona at inabot ang dalang pasalubong.

Ngumiti naman siya at parang nagulat din. "Salamat Giselle, nag abala ka pa. Kelan ka nga pala dumating?" Tanong niya at naka tingin padin sakin.

"Kahapon. Sige, alis na ako. Magkikita pa kasi kami ni Gabrielle. Good evening, Roger." Sabi ko at tumango kay Roger. Tumingin ako ulit kay Winona at ngumiti. Lumingon na ako at naglakad papuntang kotse, pero di ko inakala na hinabol pa pala ako ni Winona.

"Giselle!"

Lumingon ako ulit at nag smile. Ewan ko ba pero para kasing ayoko na imind ang nakita ko and just move forward and be happy. Kung dati siguro mag seselos ako at baka nasipa ko na pagmumukha ng Roger na yun. But tonight was different, I feel accepting about everything. Too bad na ba yun? Na nakikita mo yung taong mahal mo dati na masaya na ngayon. I don't want to be the hindrance anymore to see other people happy, it's time that they deserve it. tss! Ano na ba tong pinagsasabi ko.

"Thank you talaga dito Giselle. Sya nga pala, birthday kasi ni Roger ngayon. Nag iinvite kumain." Dugtong pa niya.

"No worries. Sige, I'll go ahead. Please greet Roger a happy birthday for me." I smiled while opening my car door.

"Wait, Giselle." Nakaupo na ako ngayon sa sasakyan ko at isasara ko na sana ang door pero pinigilan niya. "I miss you."

Nagulat naman ako sa sinabi niya. Pero baka nga namiss niya ako, matagal tagal nadin kami hindi nag uusap or nagkita. Ngumiti ulit ako sa kanya.

"I feel the same." At umalis na ako.