Harry's Slave (HARRY STYLES FF)

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Harry's Slave
Chapter 52
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Harry's P.O.V
Four weeks later.

                                      I grab a cigarette from my pocket and lit it. Slowly I put it in my mouth and suck on it. Then huff out of the smoke. That's pretty much been my life so far in these dreadful four weeks. But I haven't touched Carson nor Noah. I haven't talked to them much either. I've just been seeing different girls and sleeping with them. I guess you can say I'm desperate, or perhaps lonely. 

Everything from the past is blurry. It's the alcohol, I've been forgetting things and a lot of stress has eased off my shoulders. I've slept with at least ten girls, and I can't even remember their names. I've just been trying to forget Scarlett, but I can't. I can't..


I can still smell her scent, and I can still hear her loud obnoxious laugh, and that's one of my favorite things about her. Her laugh could make you smile and laugh even though you would have no idea whats funny. You just laugh.

But I really need to forget about her, and my past. But it's hard. And there is this piece of me that doesn't want to forget. I don't want to forget the good memories I had with Scarlett. I didn't want to forget, and my mind wasn't going to let that happen. No matter how many drinks I've had or how many girls I sleep with. I was never going to forget. And that's what's going to haunt me for the rest of my life.



But then there's is this other side of me that's want to forget. That never wants to feel love ever again,because all it does is hurt you in the end. And I'm sick of getting hurt. I'm sick of being in love. 

But never the less I miss Scarlett, and I was never going to fall out of love with her. I was always going to be in love with her. 

And the thing that scares me the most, is that she'll forget me. She'll forget all the memories of us together. She'll forget how I look, then slowly she'll forget her feelings towards me. Perhaps maybe I'm scared that she'll forget me in the end. And she'll move on and forget every trace of me. 

And that's what scared me the most.

Or maybe it wasn't. Maybe what scared me the most  is my love for Scarlett. I would do anything for her, and I don't know why. 

I love her with every ounce of love in my body. 

And maybe

Just maybe.

That's what I'm scared of the most.

Love.

Scarlett's P.O.V

Weeks,days, seconds has gone by. My life is much simpler. Much easier. I wake up and feel no stress. I got a job too in the past couple of weeks. I work at a coffee shop, I know I know. Everyone works at a coffee shop. But It was the only job available for me, besides working at McDonald's. And I most definitely didn't want to work there. 

Today's my only day off and I'm going with Jake someplace. He didn't tell me where though, he just told me to be ready by 6:00PM. So basically I have a couple hours to do basically nothing, which I needed. Life is speeding past me too fast for me to catch up. Breaking it with Harry really did hurt, but It had to be better for both of us.. Right?



The first week without Harry I was absolutely depressed and emotional. I wanted Harry with me, But I forced myself not to want him anymore. I'm not sure If that's the good way of getting the love of your life out of your life. But oh well.



Until six p.m, I was probably going to ask Ellie and Allie if they wanted to go someplace. Maybe the mall or the movies. So, I quickly grab my phone and get on a three way call with them. They glady accept the invitation to the mall. I end the call and get dressed.