Her Lost Identity

Her Lost Identity [2] ~ Look who's back in town...

Chapter 2

I woke up to the lovely sight of Jessica's feet in my face. Sense the sarcasm. In reaction to her feet being in my face, I violently pushed them away, causing her to groan in her sleep. I couldn't help but laugh at her as she squirmed, she must have really been panicked. My eyes drifted around my room, looking at the blurry vision of my pretty pink and white majestic walls. I rubbed my eyes to see that the walls were much clearer than I had seen it just before. I observed my messy room, there were pizza boxes laying on the floor and cans of cola everywhere. The night before, me and Jess had a mini rave to Paramore and got hyper on cola. What a night to remember.

I slumped on to the floor noisily causing Jessica to flinch, but she still managed to stay asleep. On all fours, I pushed myself up so that I was standing up straight. Whoa, I felt like cat woman. I drifted around the room, picking up the pizza boxes and cola cans whilst I was at it. I hated my room being messy, it remind me of my old... Never mind. I shook the thoughts away as I continued to clean up my messy room, making sure there wasn't a thing out of place. Once I had finished, I woke up Jess and we got dressed to go to the mall, there were sales on that I didn't want to miss. I threw on my shoes and with that, I made my way over to Kevin's door.

"Kev, are you ready to drop us?" I yelled from behind his door. He hadn't replied. "The sales are starting soon." Still, no reply. "Kevin!" I shouted, why wasn't he answering me? I barged to door open to see Kevin fixing up his brown spiky hair. I just rolled my eyes. "You obviously heard my calling, you could have answered."

"Ah, sorry Cass," he apologised. "I don't think I can take you to the mall today."

"Why?" I whined, not helping myself but frown. "You said you were gonna!"

"I know, I'm sorry," he apologised again, giving me a sincere look. "I told you I'd take you but I'm meeting Rachel today, it was kinda last minute."

"Oh, okay then. Use a condom," I turned around on my heel and headed for the door. I was pretty mad that I was missing out on going to the mall but I wasn't going to throw a fit over it.

I had explained to Jessica that we weren't to go to the mall today because Kevin needed to go out, she wasn't at all happy about that.

"You're such an idiot! Now I'm never going to get that Louie Vuitton jacket!" she cursed me, throwing her bag on my bed. "You could have told him no, Kevin's easy like that. He'll do anything for you."

"Jess, calm the fuck down. We'll just wait for the next one. You can be so annoying. I'm Jessica, and everything's me, me, and me! Nobody else matters, it's all me!" I mocked, maybe a little too nastily.

"What ever happened to you?" she asked, looking rather pissed off. She opened her mouth to say something else to me, but nothing came out. She had backed down. She walked over to my bed and picked up her bag that she had thrown there and got out her phone, mashing the keyboard violently.

I felt bad for letting out to Jess like that. I wasn't too sure whether she deserved it or not but what I do know is that that's not like me at all. I would never step up if it meant upsetting someone. I was like that at school sometimes, but never to my best friend, definitely not Jessica. I'd known her for four years straight, she'd always stuck by me. I know that she might not be the world's best friend but she's the only true friend I have here in California, everyone else is for trends and reputation.

The question that Jessica had asked me went through my head over and over, spinning tables and everything else inside there. What had happened to me? I had changed, not a bit but a lot. I wasn't the same, not even the teeniest bit. The old me would have never been that nasty, or even close to it. I liked the old me, so what had changed? I immediately snapped out of my thoughts as I heard someone creak open the door.

"Cassie, come downstairs, there's someone here to see you," Kirsten informed me, not looking particularly happy. I nodded slowly as confusedness filled my mind. Who was here to see me? Yeah people from school came to see me often but not without notice. I followed Kirsten down the cream antique designed stairs and made my way in to the dining room.

I observed the room, looking to see if there was any difference from the last time I had seen. The cream walls were still cream, the paint work was still chic. The neatly done wooden flooring was still looking neatly done. I looked at Kirsten, and then my eyes trailed to Jack. Their eyes were like daggers in to mine. I stood there, still unaware at where they were heading with this. My eyes led to the figure that sat at the dining room table, looking at me up and down. Why hadn't I seen him before? Why had it taken so long? I looked back over to Kirsten and Jack and made a 'what's going on?!' gesture, and then it hit me. There before my baby blue eyes sat the boy that I never thought I'd see again. Nathan. His brown spiky hair, the same as it had always been. His clothes were the same, he wore a hoodie that said 'Don't fight the truth' on the front. As far as I can remember, he always wore hoodies with cheesy lines spread across them. I rubbed my eyes in disbelief. Could this be?

"Honey, Nathan would like to speak to you about something important," Jack told me. I shook my head, still in disbelief. How could he be here? How did he know I was here?

"Well ain't you happy to see me," he spoke. The boy I hadn't seen for four years decided to pull out a bag of sarcasm on me. He stood up and walked towards me, I hadn't even realised that he had moved from where he stood until he was right before me because I was lost in thoughts. My brain was being destroyed by my confusedness. "Lilian, speak."

"It's Cassie, why are you here?" I asked sharply, and then regretting it as it seemed I was being rude and not happy to see him when in fact, I was ecstatic. I just couldn't find it in me to express that.

"It's your mum, she's ill," he admitted, giving me an apologetic look. "She wants to see you."

"How ill are we talking?" I asked, just to be sure. I felt like someone had punched my heart in. I felt the same feeling I felt in that room, with the gray walls and gray floor and the lonely white door with the golden doorknob.

"She's got cancer," he let out with a sigh. I couldn't help but notice that his voice was deeper than I had remembered. Then I snapped back to reality.

"What?" I asked and had still not fully processed what he'd told me. "She has what?"

"Cancer," he told me sharply. "She has cancer and she wants you to go and stay with her back home in Ohio before..."

"She dies?" I finished for him. My face expression still hadn't changed; it was as plain as a brick.

"Look, Lily," he said, folding his arms and raising his eyebrows at me. "I know you might not like your mum for what she did but I know you, Lily. I know you more than anyone. You love her, you always have. You'll stick by her whatever the occasion. She needs you."

"What about Vincent?" I questioned, looking down at my painted toenails. "Is he still there?"

"No, he passed away a year ago," Nathan informed me.

"I'll go with you," I told him, looking over to Kirsten and Jack who appeared to be stressed out.

"Let me get this straight, Cassie's name is Lilian, Kirsten and Jack are not her real parents and her mums got cancer," a voice from behind me said. I turned around to see Jess looking down, absorbing the information. For once in her life, she didn't sound at all airy. She looked up at me and frowned. "You were planning on telling me this, when? Or were you even going to? I thought I was your best friend, or were you lying about that too?"

"Jess, wait!" I exclaimed, not able to fit anything else in, she was already gone out of the door. Stupid, stupid me.

A/N: So what did ya think? :D Tell me, what did you think of Nathan? Was Jess overexaggerating? Were there mistakes? Tell me!