Unsaid Words (A Larry Stylinson Fanfiction)

Letter 6 - Are You There?

Dear Harry,

Today I had my first group session with the people at the unit. A man named Zayn Malik told me that he was going to be my helper when I had group sessions, at first I was worried but he promised me he isn't like the others. He told me that he wants to help me get to see you; he told me that he understands how I feel being separated from you and wants to help fix this situation. He sat me down for a long time and we spoke about how much you mean to me, and how much missing you hurts. He told me that I should stay strong and do all the right things, and then being able to see you will come around a lot quicker. During the group session we had to write down names of people who will always be there for us, I only managed to write down 'Harry'. Zayn was impressed because he didn't think I would join in, but towards the end I had added family too. We then had to say who the most important person was and why, I wrote:

'Harry – because we've been through so much together, he's always going to have my back and my heart...'

I couldn't read mine aloud, otherwise I would have cried. It made me realise how much I missed you Harry, I know I keep saying it but I do. I want you to be with me in our old flat, which was heaven compared to this place. I want you to know that you're on my mind every day of the week, and that you're the first and last thing I think about every day. You're going to be fine without me for a little while, you've got lots of people who are there for you. Speaking of people like that, how are Gemma and your mum? It's just I haven't got a letter back from you yet, so I don't know what's going on...

Will you ever reply to my letters? They take me a long time to write, it just makes me wonder if you're actually reading them. I don't know, maybe you got your old job back at the bakery and are too busy to reply. I understand, I just miss hearing from you. But with the help of Zayn I think I can see you soon, I hope I can see you soon.

I managed to eat two peas today, I know that's not a lot but it's the first thing I've ate in ages. They're making me special drinks that include all the calories I need, to apparently build me up. But I'm still scared Harry; I want you to be safe. Don't let the voices get you, please?

Louis x