Unsaid Words (A Larry Stylinson Fanfiction)

Part 29 - visiting Harry.

Louis' POV

I lay in bed with my arms crossed over my chest, today was the day I could get out of this place and go see Harry. I'd missed him so much, it had been weird not having him around. I felt angry that he hadn't wrote back or came to see me, but I knew he'd make it up to me. He'd have a good reason to keep me hanging, I hope. I rolled onto my side and stared at the clock, 3:45am. I sighed and turned back, I just wanted it to hit seven so I could get some breakfast and load my bags up into the car. Then I could go and visit my boyfriend, finally. I pulled the duvet closer up to my chest and closed my eyes, drifting off slowly.

My eyes shot open and I jumped up, I looked at the clock. 6:58am, perfect. I jumped out of bed and ran over to my wardrobe, I pulled the doors open and looked around for something nice to wear. I didn't want to show up at Harry's house looking like a slob, I decided on a pair of black skinny jeans and a band tee. A style that I knew Harry liked as it was similar to his. I slid out of my bed shorts and shimmied into my jeans, the only problem with skinny jeans was getting them on and off. Once they were on they looked great, I pulled my top over my head and adjusted it so it sat right before making my way over to the mirror. I cringed at my bed head, I desperately needed a hair cut but because I wasn't allowed to go to my usual hairdresser I refused. I grabbed my gel and swept my hair up and out of my face, gelling it so that it stayed in place. After heading to the bathroom and freshening up more I walked back to my mirror and smiled, I felt more human. I checked the time and smiled, 7:15am, breakfast time. I walked out of my room, closing the door behind me. I saw our new guy Kieran and walked over to him,

"Hey mate, how you doing?" I asked as we made our way to the canteen,

"Awful Lou, I'm trying to fight off the voices telling me not to eat but it isn't working. I just want to run as far away from the canteen as I can, they wont go away." I placed my arm around his shoulder and gave him a quick hug,

"Listen to me Kieran, it will be hard at first, I know. I've been through the exact same thing, but I promise you it will get easier. There'll come a day where you just ignore the voices in your head, they wont mean anything to you and you'll be able to walk into the canteen with your head held high ready to collect your breakfast." He forced a smile,

"I hope it gets easier, I feel useless Lou. My arms are in a real state and the pain in my stomach from not eating shouldn't feel as good as it does." I shook my head and walked him into the canteen,

"Your scars will fade, they'll be a reminder that you're a strong person. The pain in your stomach will suddenly get really annoying and you'll want to do your best to get rid of it, just try your best okay? I know I leave today but if you ever need me, call me and I will come and visit you. I know how much it hurts feeling like you don't have anybody, but you've got me. I'm here for you whenever because I know exactly how you feel and I've been through it all, but hey, it does get better. I'm having my final meal here and then I'm leaving to go see my boyfriend, I've fought so hard for this. Just keep trying." I smiled at him and walked up to the 'dinner ladies'.

"Morning Lou, porridge?" I nodded and she handed the bowl to me on a tray,

"Thanks Teresa, I think I'll have orange juice today." She handed me a tall glass of orange juice and I placed it on my tray, I began to walk away however she called me back.

"I've seen you grow so much since you first came here Louis, first of all you wouldn't eat anything, heck you wouldn't even enter the canteen. Now look at you, you have a usual and you're trying new things. I'm so proud of you Louis, you've achieved a lot since you started. I hope you live a great life." I smiled and thanked her, blowing her a little kiss as I walked away. I sat down at the third table on the right, my usual, and began tucking into my porridge. I soon felt a presence in front of me and looked up to find Kieran, he had his head in his hands and was watching my every move. I took a spoonful of porridge and he shook his head, he began trembling and I knew exactly what was happening to him. I scooted round to him and put my arm around his shoulder once again,