Viridity

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After Aizawa had finally left, you wordlessly cleaned up the empty cups of tea and walked away to your room.

Maybe you were in the wrong, but you didn't care.

It didn't matter if your father had given his permission to let you stay in the dorms, the fact still remained that he had uttered those words... That your quirk was not fit for being a hero.

You didn't even know why you felt so awful about that, but deep down you were aware that it was the result of years of feeling less than your siblings.

You worked hard; so damn hard just so you could prove to your father that you weren't just the disappointment of this family.

But to hear that he never even considered you fit for being a hero... really did throw all your progress out the window. And so, even if he had gave his permission to let you stay, you still didn't feel like you had earned it.

Aizawa's words were nice, they were kind. But they didn't come from your father. It's one thing to be praised by your teacher, but they can't replace the feeling of being praised by your parents.

You knew you were weak. But you were working on it. You were willing to learn whatever skill necessary to tackle the lack of offense with your quirk. You have already gotten a pretty good grip of the gun, to the point that Snipe had even decided to let you take the test for getting your firearm's license.

Especially in Japan, it was a pretty big thing because not many people could possess guns, so the fact that your teacher thought that you were good enough to actually take that difficult test was enough proof that you were getting stronger.

So why was it that everytime you were close to thinking that maybe, just maybe... you were actually good at something, like you actually were worth something, your confidence always took a huge blow?

First, it was Shigaraki, then Endeavor at the Sports Festival, then Endeavor again at the internships, then Shigaraki with his stalking habits.... And now, your own father.

It's just one thing after the other that let you know that you're different from your classmates. That you don't belong there. That maybe, you would be better off doing something less daring.

You had been so conflicted over the course of the day that you couldn't help but ignore your family in the process. And they weren't dumb either, they had quickly caught on that you weren't acting normally.

Something was bothering you and they had a good idea of what it might be.

And so, after dinner your father sat you all down at the dining table, all of you staring at the older male. Once you all had settled down, he cleared his throat and began.

"Ever since... your mother passed away, I have done my best to raise you all in her stead." He started, "but everytime something happened, even if it was as small as a [Brother Name] solving a case, I couldn't help but think about how it would have been if your mother had been there. When [Name] first got in UA, when she won third place at the Sports Festival, when she got interned by the Number 5th hero in Japan..."

He had a bitter smile on his face as he spoke, "I always thought how it would have been to have your mother around. But with every good thing... came the bad–" He looked up to meet your gaze, "And with every painful thing you three went through, I doubted myself more and more. I wondered, if things would have been different if your mother had been here. Would she have done something to solve this?"

"Actually... I'm sure if she were alive, none of these problems would have arose in the first place. If [Name] hadn't met Shigaraki that day, then perhaps I wouldn't have been so afraid all this time. Even now... I don't think I made the right choice by letting you go, [Name]. I don't even want to consider what might happen if the villains attack and they end up being successful, one day." You wanted to understand his point of view, and for a moment, you did understand where he was coming from. But you couldn't understand why your heart couldn't listen to that.