Fools

Part 47

that same day, later that night, lilah's pov; 1:24a

"Fuckk, I'm so fucking drunk right now." I said as I was stumbling to walk into my dorm. 
"Me too bitch, me fuckin too." Sydney said. I was trying to unlock my door but kept missing the keyhole, we were dying of laughter. "Oh god, that was golden." She said as we got inside.
"Shut up bitch." I kept laughing. I threw my stuff on the ground and plopped down on my bed, the room was spinning so fast right now, I hope I don't throw up dude. 
"Best fucking party ever!!" She shouted then plopped next to me. 
"Hell yeah, ugh I had so much fun." 
"I like this Lilah, the fun party one." She told me, I rolled my eyes and smiled.
"And what is the regular Lilah?"
"You knoww." She slurred, I gave her a dumb look, she shoved me a little. "The non-fun boring one."
"Oh thanks." We laughed. 
"I'm just kiddingg. But are you thinking what I'm thinking?" She asked and gave me a smirk, I shot her a confused look.
"Uhh, and what would that be?"
"We should like totally make out right now." She puckered her lips at me then laughed, I smiled and pushed her a little.
"Are you serious?" I asked jokingly.
"Fuck yeah, kiss me. Right now." I shrugged and went in for the kiss, it got intense real fast and all I could think about was when Cate told me her and Sydney got super drunk and hooked up one night. I'm not sure if I want it to go that far, especially not now if we ever did. She started lifting up my shirt and I moved her hand away, she pulled away from the kiss. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine, you just said we were making out," I laughed. "I didn't think we were going to do anything else." She wiped her mouth. That was kind of hot though the way she did it, I bit my lip a little before letting it go.
"Yeah you're right, sorry." She laughed. "I get carried away sometimes."
"It's okay." I smiled. "Maybe one day." I joked, she hit me playfully.
"Whatever bitch." She smiled back. "So what are you like saving yourself for Ashton or something?"
"Girl, you know I'm not a virgin right?"
"Well duh, who the fuck is a virgin in their twenties?"
"A lot of people actually."
"Well yeah, but we aren't." We laughed again.
"True. But no?"
"Hmm, I'm not sure I believe thatt but okayy." She got up from the bed and grabbed a water from my mini-fridge and started drinking some.
"Why? Do you think I should?"
"I mean, he just doesn't give me the sex kind of type you know? Actually I heard Drake mentioning that Ashton's a virgin." My jaw dropped.
"Are you fucking serious?" I got up and stood in-front of her.
"Uhh, yeah?"
"Do you know what this means?!" I grabbed her shoulders and shook her, some water spilled on the floor.
"That you just spilled my water everywhere?" I let go.
"No!! That whatever we do would be Ashton's first time." I started pacing around the room.
"Would that be a problem?"
"No of course not. But I mean it would be his first time and he wouldn't know what to expect but what if I'm like total ass at whatever we do?"
"Dude have you never slept with a guy before?"
"I have once, my ex-boyfriend before Cate. But he already knew what he was doing considering he had his dick in other bitches at the same time."
"Ouchies."
"Yeah."
"Well fuck, I don't know. I'm sure it'll feel right and be right when it actually happens. Just don't worry about it until then or watch some videos on YouTube."
"Bitch what the fuck, you're stupidd." We laughed again. "I'm not watching fucking Youtube videos, what the hell."
"Okay, your loss."
"What? Did you?" She shrugged and smirked. "Ew Syd." I smirked back at her.
"So like what's the deal with you guys? Are you guys getting together anytime soon?"
"I mean, I don't really know. I still don't know how I feel or how he feels."
"Oh stop with that, you know you like him." She tossed the water into the trash then went to sit on the couch, I walked over to sit next to her. I sat crisscross and she folded her legs up to sit.
"I do, he's a really good friend." She laughed.
"Girl you know damn well that's not what I mean."
"Shh, I know. I just don't want to rush into anything or get my feelings hurt and he doesn't feel the same so I haven't given it much thought."
"Well I think you should tell him, what's the worst that could happen if he doesn't like you back?"
"Uhh, are you drunk? It'd be the worst thing because it could ruin our friendship and make things awkward."
"Actually I am, but yeah you right." I rolled my eyes.
"Exactly."
"So like are you over Cate completely or?"
"No, I mean not completely no. I still have some feelings for her, but not enough to want to be with her."
"Understandable. Do you think she'll get back together with Joe?"
"Honestly, I hope not just because he did her dirty but I feel like she would." I told her.
"Yeah, I feel the same way about it. I feel like she'll just run back to him as a rebound."
"Yeah."
"But yeah, I hope not either. I just think Cate can do better. And I really did want you guys together because you guys were really cute but it just wasn't supposed to happen that way."
"Yeah, and that's why I don't want to say anything to Ashton because I don't want what happened to Cate and I be something that happens with him. Have you talked to her?"
"Makes sense. But no I haven't, have you?"
"No."
"Geez, I wonder how she's doing then."
"Yeah, do you think she's in the dorm right now?"
"Probably, she's probably slumped. I haven't been there since her and I got into a fight."
"Whoa what? You didn't tell me you guys fought."
"Well we didn't like fight, but we argued."
"About what?"
"Just how she's been and everything. She said she didn't want you to take me away from her so I called her out on her bs. She's been in a mood all the time recently and I just don't have time for it."
"Oh like I'd so do that." I flashed her a dumb look.
"Right? Like it doesn't make any sense. I don't know what her deal is." She rolled her eyes.
"So do you think you guys will be cool again soon?"
"Oh for sure, she's my best friend and I wouldn't just throw that away cause she's not getting her way and has a problem with it."
"Right, right."
"I mean unless she decides to no longer be friends with me, then I'd be like 'see yaa'." She laughed.
"I'm dead." I laughed.
"It's true like I just don't have time for that seriously, it's so annoying."
"Yeah foreal, I feel that. I told her we could still be friends and what not, so I just hope at least that goes okay without shit being weird."
"Hopefully cause I just don't know what to do with her sometimes."
"Yeah, well now that the room has stopped spinning, are you ready to go to bed or were you staying with Ethan?"
"Nah, I'll probably stay here, he's sleeping already. Passed the fuck out once he got home and I don't want to stumble all over campus."
"Okay, well come on then let's go to sleep."
"Can we cuddle?" She flashed me puppy dog eyes, I smiled.
"Alrightt, fine." I said, she got all giddy once I said that. "You're such a child."
"Shut up, I know." She stuck her tongue out at me.

the next morning;

Ugh, my fucking head hurts. I opened my eyes and saw the time said 10:05am on my alarm clock, guess I should get up now. I looked over to see Sydney still sleeping, I got out of bed normally cause she was not waking up either way. I checked my phone and saw I had some messages.

from; ash ((:
'good morning :) do you have any plans today?'
from; caspar (why would he be texting me?)
'hey, sorry this might be a bit weird of me texting you. but i'd really love it if you could give cate a call or a text even, she hasn't been doing well lately and i don't know what terms you guys are on but i'm sure she'd appreciate it. thanks.'

response to ashton;
'good morning! i don't have any plans currently, just class at 3 but other than that i'm free, what'd you have in mind?'
response to caspar; 
'hi, no it's not weird but um yeah, i'll message her.'

I shook Sydney to wake her up.

"Mmm." She groaned.
"Syd wake up."
"Whatt, just 5 more minutes."
"Okay but just can you check your phone really quick?" She sat up slowly but surely and searched around for her phone.
"Here. Why? What's going on?"
"I just wanted to see if Caspar texted you too. Sure enough he did, unlock it." She used her face-id and it pulled up the message from him.

from; caspar the friendly ghost !
'hey syd, whenever you can or have time, do you think you could give cate a text or call? she's not doing so good, and even if you want me to drive up there to come get you to see her, i know she'd like that. just lmk, thanks.'

"What does he mean come to get you?" I asked her after I let her read the message.
"I don't know, do you think she went home?"
"Did she? Why would she?"
"I'm not sure."
"Was she really that bad when you left her? What all was said?"
"Hey don't go and start blaming me here."
"Syd I'm not, I'm just trying to piece everything together. She had to have left the day before yesterday after we both talked to her."
"Yeah, I'm sure she did." She laid back down and got under the covers.
"Are you like not at all worried?" She turned over to look at me.
"Of course I am, but she's just not my priority right now. She's done shit too many times to run when someone tells her the truth."
"Sydney, come on."
"I'm serious Ly. I can't be bothered with that, just don't even text him back from my phone. If you want to go see her go ahead, I'll wait a little bit before I do."
"Yeah but her brother is texting us now and-"
"Lilah, I said what I needed to say about it. You can make your own choice now."

I partly understood where Sydney was coming from but at the same time I couldn't help but think that she was being a bad friend. Cate probably really needs us and she wouldn't want to be there? It's a little off-putting but at the same time I can't really expect less from her because it's Sydney. I decided to text Caspar back, it was 10 and he sent me that text at 7 this morning.

response to caspar from lilah's phone;
'hey actually, i saw your text on syd's phone. i'd love to come see her if you guys will let me.'

He texted back instantly.

c; 'sure, i'm sure she'd like that. when would you want to come?'
l; 'anytime is good for me, i have class at 3 and then i'm off for the day after.'
c; 'okay cool, yeah i can come get you tonight.'
l; 'is this okay with her? does she know you texted us?'
c; 'no, she doesn't know but i don't want to tell her cause she'd tell me that i shouldn't have. but i just know she needs a friend right now.'
l; 'okay yeah, well count me in.'
c; 'is sydney coming? she never responded to my message.'
l; 'no she's not :( she said next time she would.'
c; 'oh :/ okay, well yeah that's fine i guess, i just won't mention it. text me soon when you want me to head your way.'
l; 'okay sounds good, i will.'

Right before I was going to lock my phone, Ashton texted me back.

from; ash ((:
'awesome! if you're free then, would you want to go and grab some lunch before your class? or dinner after your class haha. whichever is good for you.'

l; 'yes! lunch before class would work, i need to talk to you :)'
a; 'oh no, that doesn't sound good :p'
l; 'don't worry, it'll be fine lol. where are we meeting?'
a; 'east cafe? i can be there in 10 minutes.'
l; 'for sure. i'll get myself together and start heading that way.'
a; 'sweet, see you soon.'

I locked my phone finally and turned to look at Sydney who had fallen back asleep. I quickly got myself dressed, I just threw on some shorts and a white tank-top with a black cardigan and my black converse. I did my hair into a side braid and had to fix my makeup because jesus. I gotta stop sleeping with makeup on, I'm gonna start breaking out real bad. I left Syd a note before leaving my dorm and heading to meet Ashton just in-case.

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