Fools

Part 7

That Next Morning .

I woke up to the warm sun peaking through Joe's windows in his room. I smiled at the thought of everything that had happened last night, realizing that underneath these blankets, I was still completely naked. I turned over to see Joe sleeping next to me. I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair. I knew he'd probably sleep in longer than I would, so I decided to get up quietly and let him sleep. I put on one of his shirts that I found laying on a chair and slipped my underwear back on. I looked once more at the sleeping boy, and smiled before I left the room.

I went to the fridge and downed some orange juice from the carton without thinking of anyone being around.
"Is it good?" I jumped and almost choked on the orange juice in my mouth.
"Bloody hell, Oli you scared me!" He laughed. "I didn't know anyone was up yet."
"Cate, its 11. Of course we're up, well I am anyway."
"Do they usually sleep in this late?" I asked.
"Pretty much, I usually go for runs early in the morning so I'm up usually by 8." I nodded my head and took another sip before putting the juice back. "What'd you and Joe end up doing last night after we went to bed?"
"Oh yeah sure, you guys went to bed. We knew you two set us up. Besides, we just went on a walk, came back and went to sleep." I explained.
"Come on Cate, you expect me to believe you guys just went to sleep when you came back?" No.
"Yeah?" I shrugged and walked over to sit down on the couch.
"Well I don't. So tell me, what happened?" I rolled my eyes at him. I wondered if I should even tell Oli what happened, it's not like they wouldn't ever find out.
"We-we slept together."
"I knew it. I see the way you two look at each other, I've never seen him look at anyone that way before." I smiled, but then it slowly faded away.
"What if it was a mistake?"
"Does it feel like one?" I took a minute before I answered.
"No. Not at all."
"Then why think that way?" Oli asked.
"I just, I'm leaving soon to go back University, and all of this stuff with Joe is happening, I don't want to just leave him hanging when I have to go back." I explained. "But I'm scared to be with him. Not because he's bad guy, because he's totally not, it's just I don't want to put so much pressure on him if we can't see each other or if I'm too caught up in my studies, I don't want to have to choose."
"That's a lot to think about Cate in such a short amount of time."
"That's why I'm thinking now rather than later."
"Makes sense. But hey, if you ever need someone to talk too or just to listen to you, I'm always here." I smiled at Oli, and nodded my head.
"Thank you. You know, you give off this really full of himself vibe, but you're a really great person Oli." He looked down at the ground and smiled. I got up from the couch and kissed him on the cheek. I made my way back to Joe's room, I slipped in quietly just incase he was still asleep.

I walked over to the bed and saw he wasn't there anymore and then I heard the shower on, wondering why I didn't hear it when I walked in. He must've just woke up. I walked into the bathroom and I thought about whether I should talk to him or just get in the shower. I chose the second choice. I removed the shirt and slipped down my underwear. I climbed into the shower and he was turned the other way, I grabbed onto his waist and he jumped a little which made me smile. He turned around and smiled right back at me.

"Hi." I said.
"Hi." I looked up at him and gave him a kiss. I was standing under the showerhead so it felt like we were just standing right in the rain. I'm cheesy as fuck, jesus.
"Thank you for last night." I said to him, he nodded and I smiled.
"Cate, you're so breathtaking beautiful. Every inch of you is perfect," He began. "I don't think I've ever felt this way about anyone." I cut him off with a kiss before he could say anything. I instantly felt bad once he said that. Cause I knew that deep down, no matter how much I want to be with him, I can't. Each time he says things like this to me, I have no idea what to say back, but the only thing that pops into my head is me telling him that I'm in love with him. I want to say "I love you" so bad, but that's another thing that I can't do.
"Joe," I said. "I'm leaving soon." His smiled faded, fuck I ruined it.
"I know. And I don't want you too."
"I don't want too either. I wish I could stay here with you, and just exist with you." He began washing my hair for me, that made me smile.
"One day we'll be able to exist together, just like this." I looked up at him, and I smiled. He placed his soapy hand on my cheek, as I placed my hand ontop of his.
"I'm scared."
"Of what love?" I removed my hand and so did he. He started rinsing my hair out. "Here, turn around."
"Going back to school. Leaving here, leaving you, leaving my brother. I've always been so caught up in my studies that I never really realized that there's a life outside of University."
"That can always change Cate. Your heart can be in two places at once. You could have your heart set on an adventure and still want to succeed. You're passionate about so many things, don't let go of them because of me, or because of anyone." He always knows what the fuck to say to me, I love that. I turned back to face him as he began putting conditioner in my hair.
"I only have a little over a year left of school, it can't be that bad right?"
"Right. And when you're done, you can always come back here with me. And we can start a new chapter in your life."
"Promise?" I asked as if we're 5 years old.
"Promise." He kissed me. There was that feeling, the feeling of peace.