The Next Day:
I was spending the day with Joe today to see if our feelings for each other are true. I'm not quite sure if mine are true or I just think I need to be with someone to be happy. But another thing also about my feelings for Joe, is that I go back to University soon, and last I checked, Joe doesn't go to my school. I never work well with long distance relationships. Well- It's not really long distance. Ugh I have no idea what I am saying right now, I'm just so nervous about today and whatever else may happen with Joe and I.
I paced back and forth around Caspar's room waiting for Joe to pop in and say it's time to go. A million thoughts raced through my mind all at once and I couldn't keep up with it all, I felt like I was going to barf. And it's weird to say I'm so nervous to be with Joe today because ever since I've been here, I've only ever been with him or Caspar. So it's not like anything is really new. But why do I feel this way?
"Cate, are you ready?" Joe opened the door and asked. I took a deep breath and recollected myself before nodding my head. It's only Joe Cate. Only Joe.
"So what's our adventure for today Joseph Sugg?" I asked once we got outside to the car. I tried to make sure I made myself seem less nervous and awkward than I am right now or usually am on a daily basis anyways.
"That's new. You've never used my real name before. Did Zoe put you up to something?"
"What are you on about Joe?" I laughed. "Nothing new, no plan, just me." He opened the door to let me in, gave me a weird look then shut the door. I smiled to myself as he walked around to his side of the car.
"Are you sure you're not telling me something?" He asks way too many questions, I could tell in his mind that he was the one that wanted to tell me something but he's throwing it out there for me to be the one to say it. Confusing right?
"Just start the car and drive dork." And with that, he shot me a smirk then we drove off. "You still never told me where we're going loser." I said at a stoplight.
"What's with all the insulting nicknames today Cate?" He bumped me and I slightly laughed. "But we're going to get coffee first. I can't exactly tell you what else we're doing. Mostly because I haven't figured it completely out yet but you get the point." I rolled my eyes and smiled, leave it up to Joe to ask someone to spend the day with him and he has nothing except coffee planned. "Okay fine, I can always help plan something for us. It's green, go."
At The Coffee Shop:
"Any ideas?" Joe asked then sipped his coffee.
"Only you would know what's around here. Think about it Joe, I'm literally always in a University with snobby girls, sloppy boys and work from my head to knees."
"Alright, alright. Leave it to me to plan everything." I thought it was quite funny how he was the one who asked me to spend the day with him, yet nothing is planned. But I guess it's alright, being with him no matter what we're doing is always fun because it's Joe. "Have you ever been to Ben?"
"You're talking about the Big Ben aren't you?" I giggled as his use of puns and how he tried to make them funny.
"Yes actually I am, see what I did there?" He winked at me then shot me the hand gun motion, he's adorable when he tells his jokes.
"Yes Joe, I saw." I rolled my eyes and smiled at him, he smiled back then reached for my hand. I watched as his hand inched closer to mine, realizing in .5 seconds that I was about to let him hold my hand. I couldn't be anymore confused than I already was. First because I have no clue what these feelings mean, nor do I know if they are even there. And second, am I really letting him hold my hand?? Bloody hell Cate, get your shit together. I interlocked my fingers with his and just went with the flow. Fuck it, this is happening.
"Okay so, let me ask you one more time since I saw you have gotten distracted by my hand falling into place with yours." Gosh he's so cute, fucking kill me.
"Joe, shut up. I didn't get distracted." I rolled my eyes. "But no I've never been to Ben." I nudged him so he'd eventually catch onto the pun I just threw out there.
"Ahhh, I see what you did there. But watch it, puns are my thing."
"Oh yeah? Well you have to be good at them first." I winked and went back out to the car, I looked through the window and saw Joe sitting at our table with his jaw dropped. I smiled at the boy who I knew I could easily tease and he'd come right back. A smile appeared on his face once he saw my smile and I liked that about him. He smiles because I smile.
Big Ben:
"You've really never seen this before?" Joe turned and asked me.
"In the pictures yes." He laughed. "Is it that much of a surprise? I told you, I don't get out much often." I shoved him playfully then snapped a picture off my phone.
"None of your friends ever invite you places? I mean, you live in London. How have you never been here to the Big Ben?"
"University is kind of a big deal for me and my group of friends, we take being successful more serious than having fun." He turned to me and once again his jaw dropped.
"Shoot Cate, that's no fun."
"Isn't that what I just said?"
"Well yeah, but come on. Live a little for once. When you get back to University, promise me you'll go out at least twice a week with your friends. And if not with them, by yourself. Go adventure Cate, because at the end of the day, the world is yours." I looked up at him as he was facing forward looking all everything around us, but he caught my attention. The wind blew through my hair and I tucked a piece behind my ear and a tiny smile appeared on my face. He knew exactly what to say to me in any given situation even if it was about how boring I am.
"Make the most of it?" I asked.
He looked down at me and smiled. "Make the most of it."
After we saw some more of the famous sights I was apparently missing out on, we went out for lunch.
"So what do you think of today so far?" Joe asked, I looked up from my phone and smiled.
"A bit random, like the things we're doing, but I'm having fun. Thank you."
"No problem, I want you to see as much as you possibly can before your break ends."
"I completely forgot about how I'm leaving so soon."
"I guess you forget about your worries when you're having fun." He smiled, looked down then back up at me. "You nervous to go back?"
"No. It's not like I'm completely going somewhere new, but I'll definitely have to get back into the function of picking up my routine again." I explained, he nodded his head as I talked and still payed attention to me, I liked that he listens.
"Yeah, I understand. It's been a while since I've ever even pictured myself going to a University. Youtube is just kinda my thing, it's my job. So going to a University for something other than that, just isn't me." Joe told me. I've always admired how dedicated he is to his channel, and then I remember that I haven't started Youtube like I said I would.
"Yeah that's a pretty big deal. I couldn't ever just be attached to one thing when I work, I like to be doing many different things as my work practice." He smiled, which made me smile. Ugh god, why does he do that so much?? It's that cheeky fucking smile that gets me. Every single time.
"Any other things you'd like to see today?" I couldn't tell if he meant the sights or him because I'd gladly take him.
"What's that? A big ferris wheel?" We both turned our heads and looked out of the restaurant window to this big ferris wheel going around and around.
"Oh that? That's the London Eye. You can literally see anything and everything from it. Wanna go?" I turned my head back to face him, I nodded my head and smiled really big.
Top of the London Eye:
"Bloody hell, we're really high up." I said and scooted closer to Joe, I could see he was smiling in the corner of my eye.
"Have you never been on a ferris wheel before?" I looked up and gave him an 'are you fucking stupid' look. "Right, nevermind." We both laughed and I scooted a little bit more closer to Joe where I could lay my head on his shoulder. "But yeah, we are pretty high up." He said softly. He wrapped his arm around me and let me adjust more comfortably. I looked up at him, as the wind blew through our hair and I smiled at him. He looked down at me and tucked some hair behind my ear, and he leaned in. This is happening?? Am I going to let it?? I leaned in and I let him plant his lips onto mine. Yes I am. It was very cold outside but his lips were warm, I loved that. We both pulled away and the ferris wheel started going down slowly, I layed back onto him and thought in my head so much about what just happened. I can't even comprehend what I just felt in that exact moment.
Later that night at home:
"Thank you for today Joe, I had a lot of fun." I said as we stood outside of Caspar's bedroom door.
"No problem. If it wasn't for you, I would've stayed at the house probably planning pranks for Caspar." We both laughed and then smiled afterwards. "I like hanging out with you Cate, and I'm going to miss you once you leave again."
"I don't have to leave just yet." He smiled. "But I'll miss you too Joe." We both walked into a hug and he held me tight, but not too tight. We pulled away and this time I was the one who leaned in first for the kiss. We kissed once more and I swear I smiled during it.
"Goodnight Cate."
"Goodnight Joe." He started walking away and I smiled watching him leave. I opened the door to Caspar's room, threw my bag down and fell back onto the bed. I wrapped myself in blankets and saw Caspar was sleeping next to me.
"You're falling for him aren't you?" Caspar asked softly, I thought he was asleep so he kind of scared me but not where he would notice it. I thought about the question he just asked me, then I smiled to myself.
"Yeah." I answered.
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Oh my actual fuck, it's been almost a year since I have updated this book yikes. But I'm back for sure this time, so enjoy this chapter! :) -destiny.
