In order to escape from how hard its to put up with the fact that no matter how hard we try we would never be perfect for that person that's imperfect for us we have to believe we are perfect for someone who sees all our imperfections and loves us all round.
Lia's POV.
"Lia i love you"
I can't seem to understand why the hell he would just throw the word "love" all around like it means nothing. Urgh sanè!.
"Hey jack"
I said and i still couldn't get the thought of sanè's confession out of my head.
"Babe I've missed you"
Jack went on and i just kept thinking back to the moment this all happened.
"Jack i need to talk to you"
I replied thinking of how i would tell jack about sanè.
" don't tell me you want to end things because of that douchè."
Jack replied sounding both angry and worried.
"No! He confessed to me already so-"
I said as Jack cut me off.
"He did what ?!"
Jack said.
"Jack i came back because you promised things will change. You haven't forgotten have you?"
I replied reminding jack the only reason we are together is beacuse i figured he broke it off with me earlier because becca threatened to drug me at the party and he had to save me.
I was grateful and at the same time skeptical about the truth. Why couldnt he tell me then? Will becca really go to that length to prove her hatred for me? Did jack really care like he says he does?
"And That's why I'm trying to protect you from him"
He replied.
"I don't need protection just assurance that you would not get in into another brawl with sanè "
I said.
"Alright i promise princess"
Jack replied as he kissed me.
I can't really say if i still love him or if i still care but everything just seems like one big mess i can't seem to control and the more i try the messier it gets. All i had to do was make sanè the least of my worries and think about how the rest of my year will play out.
"You think you can be happy with jack??"
Becca went on purposely trying to get under my skin.
"Becca I certainly don't control how things play out so just let me be"
I replied.
"Sanè was right you're definitely being brain washed."
She said and i couldn't help but wonder when sanè started making conversations or having little chit chats with the enemy.
Sanè and becca??? Why the fuck am i not surprised. She does like takingmy leftovers but sad news is sanè isn't my leftover. I haven't even had him yet and this dumb girllll urrghhhh. I have a boyfriend i shouldn't be thinking this way. But sanè did have some explanation to do. I need to know why the fuck he is conversing with the enemy and plays the good guy.
It was already mid day and the school was on a lunch break and that was the perfect time to look for sanè and have some grown up conversation. I sighted sanè at the lunch table with that jezebel's daughter and i lost my cool.
"Sanè i need to talk to you right now!"
I said before realizing i raised my voice at him.
"And who do you think you're to yell at him"
Becca said and on God it took all the fibre in my body to stop my self from wacking her across the face.
" sanè I'm referring to you"
I replied trying to make sure he heard me in the first place.
"Your man is approaching my table"
Sanè said as he stood up from the table and started to walk away from me.
At first i wondered what gave him the balls to walk away from me. He has no right to do that. I mean he does!!! he actually does but why does it infuriate me so much!!!
"Lia what's happening"
Jack said and from that point it was all lost.
"Nothing i was just showing becca here how messy it would be if she messed with me again"
I replied obviously lying.
" You should put your girl on a leash"
Becca said as she tried to grab ny hair.
" stay away from her will you"
Jack said as he grabbed my hand and took me with him.
And i couldn't help but stare back at sanè as i walked with jack. Sanè why do you have such an effect on me. I thought this was a dumb crush and that it will eventually go if i keep staying with jack but it seems really hard to go on with that narrative.
School was over and i made my way to Mel's car as i waited for her to drive me home.
"Babe get in let me drive you home"
Jack pulled up in front of Mel's car.
"I'm fine jack go on"
I replied as i waved for him to go on.
"This time I'm not taking no for an answer"
Jack said as he opened his car door for me to go in.
"Fine but let me text mel that i would be riding with you"
I replied as i brought my phone out to text mel and realized i had received a text from sanè.
*text meassage*
We can talk at my house if you want
1435 cramson avenue.
"Can we go now"
Jack said taking me out of my thought.
"Yeah yeah let's go"
I said.
Yeah i have to go to his house. It's the perfect place to talk and get rid of any bad blood and also to clear uo the confession. I can't believe I'm doing this but it feels so right. It does and i get the feeling I'm getting into a ditch.
"Hey you seemed off the entire ride. You good?"
Jack asked.
"Yeah I'm good. Thanks for the ride"
He said as i got down and cued for him to go on.
"Let ne watch you go in"
He said and i wasnt going to let him ruin my plans.
"Just go on jack. I have to prep before going in you know"
I replied and we both laughed.
"See you tomorrow. I love you"
He said and it hit me i couldn't say it because i didn't feel that way. I thought i did but i don't.
I nodded and watched him drove off.
After he drove off i got into my car and drove to the address he sent to me.
On my way i couldn't help but think about what i would say or what i was planning to say in all.
"It wasn't hard to find was it?"
Sane asked and i couldn't hide my excitement.
"No it wasn't "
I replied as i made my way close to him to hug him when he pulled away.
"What are you doing"
He said as he looked at me.
"You are confusing you know. First you hate me then you love me and now what you don't anymore"
I replied feeling stupid for even coming here in the first place.
"Lia you can't do this"
He replied as he clenched his fists.
"What If i told you i love you"
I replied as i looked directly into his eyes.
He looked as me for a while beforehe finally replied
"Lia you mean the whole world to me but you're making things so hard for us"
He replied.
"I don't want to say the wrong thing because if i do there's no coming back.
I said i love you and i meant it. I didn't know when i did But i eventually realized i did. Lia it's to late for me because you're with someone new and sincerely and i can't help but think noone can love you like i do and if i keep telling you all of my feelings would you even believe me?"
He replied
And all i could do was stare into his soul.
"Sanè we can make this work"
I replied trying to make him know i love him too but what could i do. He was right things we already so complicated.
"Lia just tell me you feel the same way and everything wouls work out"
He said but i couldnt bring myself to admit what has bee eating me up for a while now.
"No this was a mistake I'm leaving"
I said as i tried to make my way out of his house.
"Lia i thought you liked me too. Why is it so hard for you to admit it. Do you like jack that much? Do you really love him"
He asked and i couldn't hold back.
"No! I think i love you too much it's driving me crazy. I tried to deny it and hide it as much as i could but it just kept on driving me nuts. Sanè i fucking love you but it seems so unbelievable because i don't even really know you and things are off."
I replied and things went silent for a while.
"That's all you had to say lia"
He replied as he pulled me in for a kiss.