Juice laced his fingers with Raine's and leaned forward for a last kiss. With closed eyes he enjoyed the caress of Raine's tongue and the soft pressure of his lips. In the end, their foreheads rested against each other. Juice didn't want to voice his worries, but he knew Raine could read them in his eyes when their glances melted. It wasn't nothing. They both knew this life well enough to know danger was always around.
"I love you," Juice said. Moving his hands upwards, he cupped Raine's face. His thumb brushed his bottom lip that was part of a beautiful smile. "And I'm going to miss you." For a moment he closed his eyes, navigating through his thoughts to see if there were other things he wanted to tell him. Raine gave him room to do so, his hands slowly moving up and down Juice's sides. He opened his eyes again, his cheeks flushing. "And I had a great time tonight. I loved... enjoying you in a way like that." His voice trembled when his shyness was teasing him, but he didn't drop his eyes.
Raine kissed the thumb that was still resting against his lip, running his tongue across it before sucking it into his mouth. "Once I'm home again, it's something else than your thumb I want in my mouth."
Juice's blush deepened when those words peaked the interest of his member, which was waking up very quickly.
Raine leaned closer to him, kissing his earlobe. "And don't you dare to let a club whore anywhere close this guy," he whispered, palming his crotch and squeezing his hand teasingly. "For he belongs to me." He kept moving his fingers across the heated area while nipping at his neck. With a voice that sounded dark with possession, he grumbled: "To me alone."
Juice let out a deep moan. He felt meek; if Raine would unbuckle his belt now he wouldn't object, not even now his brothers were impatiently waiting for him.
Raine chuckled quietly, then he pulled back his hand. His lips dotted kissed up to Juice's lips. Juice was about to surrender himself to a passionate kiss, but Raine pulled back a little and sighed.
"It's damn hard to let you go, but we don't want your brothers to show up at the door now." His hands glided upwards, settling on Juice's chest. "Be careful. And don't worry about me; I will be fine." He lifted the corner of his mouth. "And the only body I will be fantasizing about, is yours." Once more he pressed his lips against Juice's. "I love you." His fingers curled around the fabric of Juice's shirt. "And now leave, before I won't let you."
Juice heard the despair that was hidden behind those words. They weren't ready to part, they had barely been able to deal with Raine's almost dead experience. He gave his boyfriend one more hug, whispered how much he loved him and turned away.
He had to leave. He had no choice.
. . .
His heart felt heavy when he entered the clubhouse. He knew he should worry about the news they were about to tell him, but it felt like Raine had already hijacked his mind. He just couldn't shake off the bad feeling. The only thing helping him, was recalling the intimate moments of today. Their romantic dinner, their love leading to a new experience in his bed, the sweet words Raine had just told him... As long as he focused on these things, a deep warmth filled his chest while his stomach was tingling. Then he believed he was the happiest man on earth, even when it might take weeks before he was reunited with his lover again.
Only when he reached the others who had gathered in front of the bar, he managed to push away all thoughts about Raine and focus on the club.
"Sorry," he muttered, avoiding Chibs' glance. "I went to bed early because I didn't feel well and I couldn't find my keys."
It was a lame excuse – especially because he had fixed locations for all his stuff. But whenever the chaos in his head was consuming him, it sometimes happened that he forgot about them and had no clue where to start looking.
"What's going on?"
"Mary is missing."
"Mary..."
It took a while before he understood they spoke about Opie's mother. Dazed, his eyes went from Opie to his dad; they were the only father and son within the club.
"She would pick up the kids from school," Opie sighed, rubbing his frowned forehead. "But she never showed up."
Juice knew the woman was very serious about the care for her grandchildren; she believed she was the only one being able to teach them something good.
"But why did you wait so long to set things in motion?" he wondered.
"She divorced Pops so long ago," Opie answered. "I didn't think it had anything to do with the club. We've had misunderstandings before, I thought she was on a day trip. But when we asked around in the neighborhood, someone mentioned an unknown black van had been in the street."
A black van...
"You think she's taken by the same people who drove Hap and Tig off the road?"
The men nodded, their faces earnest. Juice could only agree with them. Putting down his bag on the table, he took out his laptop and started it up.
While there were conversations about the usefulness of a lock down in the background, Juice started to look for camera footage in the area of where Mary lived. There were traffic cams three streets ahead, but it felt like searching for a needle in a haystack.
"They will call," Jax sighed eventually.
But when morning came, nobody had called. Juice's eyelids felt heavy. There had been a few black vans that fitted the description and he had followed them as far as he could. It led to two addresses, but these turned out to be dead ends.
Chibs laid a hand on his shoulder, squeezing it. "Ye did wha ye could lad. We have no choice but to wait. Take some rest, and keep yer phone close."
Juice nodded. Exhausted, he returned home and crawled into his bed, inhaling the scent on his blankets and pretending his lover was near.
. . .
Close to noon he woke up. There was a sting in his stomach; as it seemed, their unknown enemy had stroke again. Again, they lacked a lead and they could only guess about the reason this was happening to them. Why the hell would they take the mother and ex wife of a Son? Sitting up straight, he sighed. He wished Raine had been lying next to him so he could snuggle up to his warm body and forget about everything for just one moment. He however was alone and would stay alone for a long time. With a heavy heart he started to dress himself. Right when he wanted to leave his room, he noticed a note on his night stand. Curiously, he picked it up. His lips bent into a smile when he recognized Raine's writing.
As each star comes out to shine
As the wind rustles across the land
As the moonlight sweeps across the room
I'll think of you.
When the sun burns its morning greeting
When the birds chirp and swoop through the sky
When the leaves of the trees dance through the air
I'll think of you.
During the haze of late afternoon sun
During the smooth swirl and flow of the clouds across the sky
During the fade of the bustling day
I'll think of you.
While the twilight shadows begin to fall
While the evening air begins to chill
While the crickets begin their sweet evening chorus
I'll think of you.
Just as the darkest hour of the night falls
Just as the world is hushed and silent
Just as dreamland beckons,
I'll think of you
Every day
Every hour
Every moment
I'll think of you through the miles
and love you.
- R
(There you go, there's secretly a romantic hidden inside me too 😉 )
Juice had sunk down on his bed again. His thumbs were brushing the paper, the ink. He felt overwhelmed by the love that lied in those words and wiped his eyes when he noticed he'd become emotional. His love for this man ran so deep, he just lacked the words. Every time they saw each other, every time they were holding each other, every time they said their goodbyes, his feelings grew stronger. Even now Raine was on his way to the southern border, he'd found words that hit him hard. Taking a deep breath to gain control over his emotions, he lifted the paper and pressed his lips to it, his eyes closed.
"I wish I had the luxury to think about you all day," he whispered. Reluctantly, he put away the note which felt like his most precious belonging right now and headed to the living room, before he would sit for hours on his bed, trapped in memories that would only make him miss his boyfriend more.
"Hey," Mouse greeted him when he sat down next to her on the couch, his breakfast in his lap. "How was yesterday? You enjoyed your dinner?"
Despite everything, he smiled. "Yeah, it was... amazing. Unfortunately our time together was really short; he needed to be back in Oakland very early and I was called to the clubhouse last night. Mary disappeared, she's probably taken by the same people who attacked Hap and Tig."
Shock filled her eyes. "Good Lord, that's awful. And you haven't found a lead?"
Sadly, Juice shook his head. "No, we wait until they make their demands. For the time being I will escort you whenever you go outside."
She nodded slowly and sighed. "Yeah... Hopefully you'll discover soon who's behind all this, and why..." Mouse laid her hand across his and squeezed. "You okay?"
He bent his head. "Raine went to South Cali because they needed back-up. We don't know how long he wil stay there – it might be for over a month."
She sighed. "Just what you needed..." She leaned with her head against his shoulder. "I'm sorry to hear that, sweetheart. I know how much you want to be with him. Was it a nice evening yesterday, even though it was so short?"
"Yeah... It really was. He didn't think a bit of romance was stupid. He even wanted me to light candles and put on a romantic song," he told her. For some reason it had meant a lot to him; it felt like Raine liked every side of him and he never needed to pretend around him.
Mouse laughed quietly. "My bad ass bikers. I thought you would do whole different kind of things after being apart for so long." She gave him a playful wink.
He felt his cheeks get heated. "We also did other things. I umm – I took him in my mouth. For the first time." He bit his lip. It sounded cumbersome, but sucked his dick sounded to blunt for something that had felt so... heavenly.
"Did you like it?"
Her voice sounded calm. She knew it had been a big step for him, that it had been something he'd struggled with.
"Yeah he – he really enjoyed it. And I did too."
She squeezed his hand once more. "Very well. Was he also ready? To please you, I mean?"
"He was on his way... but then Chibs called and I had to leave."
"Fucking Chibs..." She chuckled, shaking her head. "But well, at least you've something to look forward to," she winked. "To once he's back. And hey, you two can do some cam sex." She wiggled her eyebrows.
Before he met Raine, he didn't think there were forms of sex that could make him blush, but he really felt like an experimenting school boy now. His heart started to beat faster instantly.
"Yeah, maybe," he muttered. "He umm – he left me a really sweet poem." He got up, headed to his bedroom and handed Skye the note. He wasn't sure why he wanted to show it to her. Probably because all this still felt like a dream and he just felt really blessed to have such a sweet boyfriend.
Tears filled Skye's eyes when she read the text.
"It's so beautiful, honey," she said quietly, kissing his cheek. "I think it's very special that you two dare to be so vulnerable and sensitive while you live in such a macho world."
Juice smiled, his thumb running across the edge of the paper. He was happy they both had a soft side and dared to show it.
"You have no idea how much I hope your clubs can make this work," she said. "That they can form an alliance or something. It could really strengthen the positions of your clubs." She chuckled. "Just like the old times, when they let royalty of different kingdoms marry." She leaned against him. "I just hope you will be able to marry him one day. Your love deserves to be seen in broad daylight."
Juice bent his head. He had never thought about a marriage, and certainly not with a man, but the thought of it made the butterflies in his stomach flutter. He stared at his hand, imagining a ring around his finger. It was way too early to seriously consider it, but he couldn't deny the way his blood was rushing through his veins right now. He sighed, knowing it was a slight chance that it would really happen one day. "That's just a dream, Mouse," he muttered.
She wrapped her arms around him, giving him a squeezing hug. "Sometimes dreams come true, sweetie."