A Jori Story: After The Platinum Awards

Prequel Chapter

Since these special chapters/one shots are not in chronological order I decided to take a break from the whole Tori and Jade's engagement and Trina's pregnancy story arc and write a few chapters set in the past. This is a series of quick one shots set after several episodes of Victorious that happened way before this fanfiction started, so here Tori and Jade were not together yet.

Prequel of 'A Jori Story: After the Platinum Awards'

/After 'Pilot episode'/

I can't believe it! Jade West was thinking How could that bitch kiss my boyfriend like that in front of the whole class? Was she trying to make me look like a fool? Just because she is so good looking and talented she thinks she can take everything she wants?

School was over but Jade had seen Tori Vega enter the girls bathroom so in that moment she decided to follow her and face her. She found Tori washing her hands. When Tori saw her looking so furious her eyes went wide in fear as she took several steps back until she hit a wall behind her. Jade reached for her pulling her by the shirt with one hand to bring her closer to her face and look her in the eyes.

"What are you trying to do Vega? Just because you impressed a few people with that mediocre performance of yours and got into the school, now you think you can take my boyfriend too?" Jade angrily asked her

"Of course not! Jade please let me go that was just a stage kiss, believe me, I'm sorry, I was just mad at you for pouring coffee on my head the other day, again sorry! Maybe I went a little too far..." Tori was saying with fear in her voice. She was shaking. Jade looked at her in the eyes.

Beautiful chocolate eyes that would make anyone go weak at the knees... What? no! Why I keep thinking of her like this ever since I met this girl? Jade thought before pushing Tori away from her and against the wall again. Tori released a little gasp. Seeing Jade so silent and deep in thought Tori spoke again "Trust me Jade I would nev..." but she was cut off by a slap from Jade. The Goth hit her with the back of her hand and even though she didn't put much strenght into it Tori looked like it hurt her pretty badly while she was rubbing her cheek.

"Try do something like that again and I will smack you way harder than this, trust me Tori Vega!" Jade told her. Tori who was still rubbing her face nodded at her. Jade noticed that Tori had a light bruise on her cheek where she had just slapped her and realized that she had hit her with the hand where she had a thick metal ring on one of her fingers which must have been the reason why Tori looked so hurt. She even saw a tear escaping one of the Latina's eye. Suddenly Jade felt so bad about it that she couldn't restrain herself from saying: "I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hurt you so much forgive me ok?" Jade told her while putting an hand on Tori's hurt cheek to caress her face while wiping her tear with her thumb. Tori was looking at her with eyes if possible even wider than when she was scared of her just few seconds ago. Her face was a mix of shock, surprise but also something else... Something Jade believed was... Appreciation for her gesture.

I'm sorry... No one should dare hurting such a beautiful face Jade was thinking while looking at Tori's facial features from very close. After a bit Tori placed her own hand on Jade's that was still caressing her cheek.

"It's ok... I deserved it, now we're even ok? ... Gosh, your hand is so soft..." Tori was saying closing her eyes.

In that moment Jade realized that she was still caressing the Latina's face while leaning towards her. She immediately froze and yanked her hand away from Tori's face so fast that the Latina's eyes blew open in surprise.

"This never happened ok? I just felt bad for having hurt you so much, but it won't be the last time I hit you if you keep provoking me, got it Vega?" Jade asked her taking several step back and away from her

"Sure, I... understand" Tori replied. Jade nodded at her and then exited the bath without saying another word.

While she was alone Tori touched her cheek again caressing her face like Jade had done few moments earlier.

I hope it won't be the last time you caress me like that either she thought

/After 'Stage Fighting'/

Tori and Jade were laughing after escaping detention ditching the security guard.

"Oh my goodness... Jade I would have never thought it would have been so easy to get out of detention" Tori said through her laughs.

"I know right? That guy was a dumbass" Jade replied laughing herself.

At one point Tori stopped laughing and looked at her serious. Seeing her change expression Jade stopped laughing too.

"You didn't have to do it... You know... Come help me cleaning the black box theater... But you did it anyway, and you helped me to get out of there too. Thank you Jade. You were very kind" Tori told her with a grateful expression

Jade looked at her for a moment.

Why she has to look so cute... Dammit I can't think of her like this I need to stop! Jade thought

"Well I don't want to owe you anything Vega, that was just my way of returning the favor for not telling anyone that I faked the black eye just to get you in troubles. So don't read too much into it" Jade said looking away from her as they were exiting school.

"I wouldn't have pretended anything from you Jade. I didn't tell anyone about it because I want to be your friend. I know there's more to you than what meets the eyes, Jade. Not that what meets the eyes is bad..." Tori said looking at her.

Jade felt herself blushing and quickly replied "I hate to break it up to you Vega, but I'm actually just a bad person who hates everyone. Besides how can you say that there's more to me than that? You don't know me..."

"I can just see it... And what you did today and last week after you hit me, prove that I'm right... Someone who hates everyone wouldn't have done those things"

"Oh yeah? And who would?" Jade asked her crossing her arms

Tori smiled "A good person, that's who. You're a good person Jade" she said. Jade felt herself blushing again but tried to cover it looking down while Tori continued "...and I would really like to know you better if you would just let me be your friend" Tori said hopeful. Jade squeezed her eyes

Tell her that you like her, drive her home... No... I can't.. I have a boyfriend. Vega means nothing to me. She is just another good looking girl at school... also she is trying to be nice to you for who knows what reasons... Maybe just to steal your own boyfriend Jade thought before opening her eyes and saying "Keep on dreaming Vega, I could never be friend with such a goody two shoes like you. Like I said, I was just returning the favor. But if I knew that you wouldn't have pretended anything from me I wouldn't have helped you back there. Now I'm sorry but I have to go... I have a date with Beck and I don't want to be late" Jade said walking towards her car.

Tori looked hurt and disappointed because of her words but Jade didn't dare looking at her more than necessary after rejecting her friendship.

If I start feeling bad for her again, it's the end... I can't let her get inside my head... I don't like her... I may find her attractive but nothing more... I definetely don't like her... Jade was trying to convince herself when Tori called her "Wait, can you give me a ride home at least? Please my sister doesn't kno..." but Jade was already inside her car, slamming her door shut before driving away leaving a sad Tori alone in the parking lot.

Why does she have to be like this? For the first time I thought that we would have been friends but then she just starts acting like a gank again... And to think that she was being so nice to me just few moments ago... How can someone so beautiful be so mean?... Wait what? Did I just thought of her as beautiful? Yeah well she is, there is nothing weird about me thinking that... Why should I think it's weird? but from the way her heart was beating fast in her chest and how her hands were sweating when she was talking with the Goth girl, not to mention how excited she was feeling and at the same time nervous while she was thinking about her, Tori knew what was going on: those were all the signs of her having a crush on someone... And she was having them for Jade.

Dammit, you're so stupid Tori... Why do you want to hurt yourself like this? Do you really want your first crush for a girl to be on one that literally hates your guts and has a boyfriend already? No you will never think of her like that again, you will just reciprocate her hate for you... But can I really do that? Tori kicked an empty can of pepsi she found on the ground in the parking lot before taking her phone to call her sister, Trina, trying to push those thoughts away.

/After 'Jade dumps Beck'/

After making out for several minutes, Jade and Beck were now in his RV, and the boy was pushing the girl on his bed. After they landed on the bed together still kissing, the boy was now touching Jade's body... His right hand going up her thighs, when the girl broke the kiss pushing him away.

"I can't do it..." she said

Beck looked at her with a questioning expression. When she didn't said anything, he shrugged and said "Well... It's ok, if you're not in the mood tonight, we can just..."

"No, what I meant is that I can't let Vega walk back to her place this late at night... After she helped us make peace, she deserves a ride home at least" the Goth explained

"Oh yeah, you're right, we haven't been the best of friends with her didn't we? Wait here, I will take her home, she must be still very close..." Beck said while standing up, but Jade stood up aswell.

"No! I want to take her home..." she said. Seeing Beck looking at her surprised, Jade quickly added "I mean I certainly don't want you two to be in the same car together and alone"

Beck smiled shaking his head "And again with this jealousy of yours... Ok come with us then!"

"No!" Jade said again looking a bit embarassed before she continued "I can take her home myself, just wait for me here. You can order us a pizza or something for when I'll be back" the Goth said.

"Ok, you're the boss... I guess... see you soon then" Beck said while Jade waved at him and exited his RV walking towards her car.

When she was inside and was turning the ignition key Jade thought Why I want so badly to take her home by myself? Why I want to take her home in the first place? Not again... Am I thinking of her like that again?... No it can't be... I'm just returning her the favor once more, this time for helping me and Beck get back together. Yeah that's it... she convinced herself while staring to drive.

Jade soon found Tori on the road. She stopped next to her pulling her window down to talk to her

"Jump in Vega"

Tori looked at her surprised but continued to walk "What? You actually want to give me a ride home this time? I thought you were busy with your boyfriend!"

Jade followed her "I'm trying to be nice for once Vega, come on"

Tori laughed sarcastically "Like Jade West could be nice..." and continued to walk

"Come on, what's wrong with you? I came back to take you home!" Jade said to her. She couldn't understand why Tori looked so angry at her... Ok she had let her walk for a bit but now she had come back for her. But it was still like she was offended for some reason.

"Go kiss your boyfriend and leave me alone Jade" Tori told her.

"Is this what bugs you? Tori are you jealous?" Jade asked her.

Tori stopped walking and looked at her remaining silent for a few seconds before she crossed her arms and said "And why would I be jealous?"

"I don't know... Maybe because I have a boyfriend and you don't"

Tori nervously laughed again "Sure... because that's the only thing I could have been jealous of, right Jade?"

"What do you mean Vega?" Jade asked her.

Tori looked at her for a bit then looked away "Nothing, I'm just mad at you for making me walk home like this after I helped you with Beck"

"I know, I was an ungrateful bitch to you I admit it, that's why I'm back... so you want to hold a grudge on me and keep walking home or will you accept my rare apologies and let me drive you there?" Jade asked her.

Tori smiled briefly before she opened her car's door, getting in. Jade smirked and started driving.

They were silent for a bit until they both said at the same time "Thank you". They looked at each other and laughed for a few seconds. After a bit Tori wiped a few tears from her eyes and said "No, seriously... thanks for coming back for me..."

"It was only fair after what you've done for me. I meant to thank you for fixing things between me and Beck" Jade replied.

"You're welcome Jade... But still I really appreciate you coming back for me..." Tori said putting an hand on Jade's leg. Jade eyes immediately looked towards her hand so Tori pulled it away.

"Sorry... I know you don't like letting other people touch you... Unless it's Beck..." Tori said looking away from her and outside her window. Jade could see the Latina's eyes looking sad in the reflection of the window. But maybe she was just imagining things, she thought as she whispered

"But I never said I don't like when you touch me..." Jade said with a tone of voice so low that she was sure that Tori couldn't have possibly heard her. But a second later Tori turned to look at her saying "What?".

Jade blushed and quickly looked back at the road saying "I was just mentally cursing myself for giving you this ride home, Vega... Now you probably think we are friends or something"

"I don't understand why you don't want us to be friends, Jade... I mean you can't still possibly believe that I want to steal your boyfriend after today. I literally helped you getting back with him!" Tori said. Jade took a big breath. Please Tori forgive me for what I'm about to say

"No, I don't want us to be friends simply because you are an annoying person, I wish I could say it's not personal... but it is, I don't like you. No more no less" Jade dared looking towards Tori but quickly regretted it since seeing her looking so hurt made her feel mortified. She looked way more hurt than when she had slapped her some weeks earlier. But Tori's hurt expression quickly changed into a furious glare "Then why you came back for me? I don't want someone who hates me so much to feel obliged to do anything for me, so just pull over I will do the rest of the road at foot" Tori said with an angry tone of voice.

"Vega... I..."

"I SAID PULL OVER!" Tori screamed at her.

"No, Tori please listen..." Jade said. Hearing Jade calling her by her first name seemed to calm the Latina a little.

"Look, I'm very grateful for what you've done for me and Beck today, but I had to take you home not because I felt obliged but because I wanted to, ok? I really... I really..." Jade stopped.

"Yes?" Tori asked. When Jade didn't continued Tori asked again "You really... what?"

"I really... feel... like I care about you. Ok?" Jade finally said.

Tori felt her heart skipping a beat and her cheeks blushing. She smiled widely as she looked down.

Jade saw her and quickly said "I knew I shouldn't have told you that... Keep in mind that I still don't consider you a friend Vega"

"But you care about me anyway... How do you explain it Jade?" Tori asked her challenging but smiling.

"I... don't know..." Jade said. Tori touched her leg again. "It's ok Jade... I care about you too... And I think of you as my friend. Take as long as you need I'm here for you. I will wait for the day you will be ready for me too..." the Latina was saying.

Jade blushed and turned to look towards her "What do you mean Tori? Beck's my boyfriend, how could you even think that I could be ready to be with you one day?"

"I just meant that I will wait for you as long as you need to be friends with me... Wait... You thought I was saying...?" Tori blushed too while quickly pulling her hand away from Jade's leg again.

Jade felt so embarassed. She knew that she only had one way out from that situation in that moment, without having to admit to actually like Tori. She started laughing loudly.

"I was joking! what were you thinking Vega?" Jade continued to laugh. Tori looked at her disappointed but quickly looked down before she pretended to laugh too "Of course! You scared me a little Jade!" Tori said doing her best to hide her disappointment.

She will never like me that way without knowing it both girls thought pretty much the same thing in that moment. They spent the rest of the travel in silence. When Jade arrived at Tori's house she parked in her driveway.

"Ok here we are Tori" Jade said.

"Thank you Jade" Tori said while leaning towards her with open arms.

Oh no, if I let her do this I won't trust myself now that we are alone... Jade thought

"Woah, what are you doing Vega, kiss me good bye? I said I was joking before!" Jade said pulling away from her reach and trying to look like she was still mocking her.

Tori looked a bit hurt "I just wanted to give you an hug as a friend... But if you don't want it, it's ok I guess, good night then Jade" Tori said while opening her car door.

"Yeah Vega, good nightmares" Jade replied smirking.

"Ha ha" Tori sarcastically laughed before walking back to her house with a disappointed look on her face. Just stop thinking about her Tori, stop...

Jade pretended to be checking her phone to have an excuse to stay parked in Tori's driveway a little longer and look at her until she was inside her house, before driving away.

/

That night in her bed Tori couldn't sleep. She was still thinking of Jade... I wonder if she is also thinking about me right now... Oh please I'm so delusional. She certainly has better things to do now than thinking about me... She is probably still with Beck Tori thought. She started to imagine Jade and Beck in his RV in that moment, together... naked... in his bed... Tori squeezed her eyes trying to erase that image from her mind but she kept picturing Jade naked, screaming in ecstasy under him with her beautiful blue eyes going shut from the pleasure... That thought made Tori feel suddenly so angry and jealous that she had to bury her face in her pillow

It's your fault if they are together again so at who are you angry at? A voice inside her head was saying. "Shut up!" Tori screamed in the pillow. "I thought I was just imagining those feelings for her... that I just wanted to be friends with her... and instead I was right... I like her... I'm even jealous of her... So I definetely want us to be more than that!". She had started to cry by now. Her pillow was wet from her tears... When she was able to regain control of herself Tori sat down on her bed and wiped her tears away, to make a promise: I will never think of her like that again... I could never hurt Beck by trying to steal his girlfriend, and she loves him, not me anyway... In fact she doesn't even like me, so I will just start avoiding any contact with Jade from now on Tori wanted to cry again at that thought but another voice inside her head told her But she said she cares about you...

Tori smiled leaning back on her pillow. No, I don't want her out of my life... Maybe we will never be together like that... But maybe... just maybe, I will get her to like me as a friend at least... Yeah we can still work like that... as friends

Tori closed her eyes ignoring the few tears that were still escaping from them, to remind her that that was not all she wanted.

/After 'The Great ping pong scam'/

Jade was in her room with a dress in her hands. The previous day she had been with her other 'ping pong' team mates (Tori included) at a very expensive restaurant and she had lent that dress to Tori to sing a song with André to pay for Robbie's caviar that he couldn't afford. Jade was checking the dress and the pantyhose she had lent to Tori the previous day. To think that her sexy legs had been in those pantyhose... And that she could still feel Tori's sweet, beautiful scent on the dress... The same scent she always had on her. Jade closed her eyes inhaling it... She could still picture how good Tori looked in that dress Did she look at me when she said 'Tell me that you love me anyway' during her song? No I must have imagined that... But god, the way she kept crossing and uncrossing her impossibly long legs... I wish I could've spread them and make her mine right there and then on that piano... Jade shook her head Ok Jade... You were officially about to think of having sex with another girl... And with Tori Vega, the girl you're supposed to hate... Why I keep thinking of her like this? I found other girls attractive before but usually my attraction for them disappeared in a few days... Why is it different with her? Why every time I think she is out of my mind, she just keeps coming back? I have a boy like Beck by my side and yet I keep thinking of Vega? Jade threw her dress on the ground I hate myself... And I hate her for making me feel like this... she thought looking at the dress angrily.

/After 'Cat's new boyfriend'/

Jade pretended to still be sick for several days after she recovered from the fish disease she had accidentally taken because of Trina, Tori's sister. But the real reason was that she didn't want to see Tori at school. She was mad at the Latina for kissing her ex boyfriend at school while he was dating Cat.

I hate her for doing something like that to Cat... Jade kept telling herself. But she knew the real reason why she was so angry. How could Tori even like such a jerk in the first place? a special girl like her deserves someone far better than that idiot... Damn Vega I can't believe it! you're also making me feel jealous of you now, I hate you always more! But deep down in her heart, Jade knew that wasn't true... Unless the word 'hate' meant something else... something like love...

/After 'Freak the freak out'/

"Vega you slayed today with that song! You really freaked those freaks out!" Jade was telling Tori after her performance at the Karaoke Dokie where she had just humiliated Hayley and Tara, two arrogant girls, with her singing. The Goth was taking her and Cat home with her car. Tori was next to her in the passenger seat while Cat was in the backseat.

Tori's face lit up at the compliment "Aww Jade, thanks babe!" She said but blushing a fraction of second later realizing what she had just said. Jade blushed too and continued to look at the road. No one talked in the car for a couple of seconds before Cat giggled "Tori called you 'babe' Jade! Does that mean you two are finally friends now?"

"No! See why I never give you a compliment Vega? You always have to make everything seem weird" Jade said still blushing. Tori that was completely red on her face by now quickly replied "That's not true! What's so weird about two friends calling each other 'babe'?" the Latina said nervously talking fast.

"That's the point: I never said we're friends and that you can feel free to take such liberties with me, only because I gave you a compliment for once" Jade replied.

"As you wish Jade, sorry" Tori said turning to look at her window to hide her disappointed expression.

"But I thought you were considering Tori your friend Jade. I mean, before at the Dokie you practically jumped on stage, after her song to high five her and tell her how great she was..." Cat interjected but Jade interrupted her feeling another blush coming over her face "I was just happy that she was able to put those two bitches in their place ok?"

Cat made a squeak "Swear!" She exclaimed.

Jade rolled her eyes "How old are you Cat? 6 or 7?"

"What's that supposed to mean? You know I'm 16!" Cat said

Tori spoke again "Nothing Cat, Jade just doesn't care about other people's feelings, you know that" Tori replied to Cat.

"You care too much instead Tori, that's your problem. Not everyone has to be like you" Jade said. 

"Right..." Tori replied still looking outside her window.

They stayed silent for several minutes after that. But then Jade turned to look at Tori. She still looked sad. Jade was looking at her with tenderness like she wanted to tell Tori something.

Cat thought to have just seen the Goth girl silently mouthing 'I'm sorry babe' to Tori while she wasn't looking, before looking back at the road. But she had probably just imagined that, the redhead thought. Just like when she had imagined her brother howling at the moon the previous night. But Cat was not completely sure of having just imagined that. So could it be that she also didn't just imagined Jade trying to apologize to Tori by calling her 'babe' too? Whatever the case she certainly would have never had the courage to ask Jade something about it.

/After 'Wok Star'/

After her play Jade was driving Tori back to her house.

"I loved the way you wrote your play Jade... Really. You're so talented" Tori was telling her smiling.

"Tell me something I don't know Vega... Like that my father really liked my play" Jade said to her

"I don't have to tell you that, he said it himself" Tori replied to her

"Yeah but with a tone of voice and a face that clearly told otherwise" Jade stated sternly

"I don't think so Jade, I think he really liked it. You said that he never looked so happy" Tori said.

"I was joking. But yeah, last time I've seen him really happy I was probably 8" Jade told her.

"Jade..." Tori started but the Goth cut her off "Don't ask me anything else. I don't want to talk about my pops... You think Mrs. Wong will hold a grudge on us now, cause we left her daughter hanging from the ceiling for the entire play?" Jade asked her with a smirk.

Tori laughed "Probably"

Jade smiled "I don't care... I would have never ruined my play just to make her talentless daughter have a dumb part in it... Even if she is the one who payed for it"

Tori laughed again and leaned closer to Jade to kiss her on the cheek. Jade eyes went huge as she grabbed the wheel tightly and blushed furiously as she kept looking at the road.

"What are you doing Vega?" Jade asked her in disbelief but still looking at the road.

"Sorry, I felt so close to you right now... And I just had to do it... We are friends now aren't we Jade?" Tori asked her hopeful

Tell her yes... No tell her that you want more... tell her... in the end Jade just told her "No, Vega... I knew I shouldn't have let you hug me before... Now you even think you can kiss me whenever you want and that we are friends... But actually your presence is just a little more bearable to me... That's all"

Tori chuckled "I can live with that... for now at least" she said. Jade looked at her and saw her smiling. Jade shook her head and continued to drive her back home. When they arrived Tori released her seatbell and asked her "Will you let me hug you to thank you for the ride home this time?" 

"No, enough hugging and kis..." Jade was saying but before she couldf finish Tori wrapped her arms around her neck, hugging Jade and almost pulling her in her seat. Jade blushed again while Tori was hugging her tightly "Tell me to stop and I will" she heard Tori whisper in her ear while she was hugging her. Jade opened her mouth but no words came out from her. Instead she started to hug her back for the second time that day, closing her eyes. Jade loved the feel of Tori's slim body pressed against hers. "Thanks Tori... you know... For helping me with my play... It wouldn't have been possible without you" Jade said starting to caress the Latina's back. She didn't even know what was happening with her... why she had said that and why she was hugging back the girl she wanted so desperately to hate, she only knew that she had to do it... That she wanted to do it... And that it felt so damn right. Tori giggled a little in happiness as goosebumps were forming on her arms' skins because of Jade's kind words and gentle touch "Any time Jade..." she replied to her whispering in her ear again. Tori kept smiling happily in her embrace "Friends?" she asked her after a couple of seconds. Jade opened her eyes quickly and pushed her away.

"You had your second hug for today Vega, can't you just be happy of that? Now go home"

Tori kept smiling at her "Ok... I will just keep waiting for you then... Good night Jade" she said.

"Whatever" Jade told her while she was getting out of her car.

Jade drove away as fast as she could. She wanted to put as many miles from her and Tori as possible. I can't feel like this forever... I can't... I hate her... Right? Yes I... hate... hating her... she concluded releasing a loud groan and drove to Beck's RV to not think about Tori anymore that night. Even though she doubted that Beck would have been able to get Tori out of her mind completely.

/During 'The Wood'/

Jade was in Tori's room alone in that moment. Tori wasn't home yet but all of their other friends were in her living room waiting for her to arrive to watch together 'The Wood' a reality show some Hollywood producers decided to do, based on high school students and that would have starred them. While looking at Tori's room's purple walls, posters of singers and collection of stuffed animals and dolls from when she was a kid, Jade was thinking that her and the Latina couldn't be more different. Jade went to her room with the excuse of having to use the bath. She wanted to know Tori a little better for some reason and later she would have enjoyed to freak her out letting her know that she had been in her room. Jade was half thinking about using her scissors to decapitate the stuffed animals and dolls of the Latina, but something was stopping her.

I would feel too bad for her... These stuff probably represents good memories from when she was a kid and I just can't destroy them. I'm mean but not a total heartless bitch an inner voice that Jade was trying to ignore was telling her. In the end she just convinced herself that she simply didn't want to waste her time by doing that. While keep looking in Tori's room Jade noticed that most of the posters on her walls were of attractive female singers.

That doesn't really mean what you're thinking Jade, and besides there are plenty of male singers' posters around here too Jade thought a little disappointed. In that moment she stepped in Tori's private bathroom to take a look in there too. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. She had a bathtub instead of a shower and various feminine parfumes and shampoos, and also a drawer with a beauty case full of various colors of nail polish. Pink, yellow, white, golden but also darker colors like purple, blue, red and even black. Jade picked the black one to look at it better for a bit Nice... Maybe we don't have completely different tastes afterall she thought before blushing, realizing that she was secretely hoping something else while thinking that. Of course not, I didn't mean that... We don't like each other that's the only thing we have in common. Or maybe she likes me but just as a friend... Well I don't like her anyway. Jade tried to convince herself while opening another drawer. Her eyes blew open when she noticed that it was full of Tori's panties. She immediately closed it blushing. But then her curiosity got the best of her. We are both girls so why should I feel so embarassed? Or... Turned on... Jade thought shaking her head but opening the drawer again and continuing to look inside. Before she could stop herself her hands were in the drawer and she was looking and touching many of Tori's underwears. Most of them were the classic 'good girl's underwears' pretty chaste and a lot covering but then Jade found a few that were more revealing which started to turn her on. She even found a pair of black silky and very skimpy panties. Jade's eyes went wide again with lust Jesus Christ I would pay gold to see her in these... I wonder if she has a matching bra to wear with them... Shit I can't believe I just thought that  the Goth was thinking and was about to put them back in the drawer when she thoughr Fuck it... I went this far already... I might aswell finish to be a pervert at this point she thought before diving her nose in Tori's panties taking in her scent. They had a lavender scent on them, clearly that of clean laundry which Jade liked but for a moment she wished that they had more the scent of Tori's womanhood's on them. In fact, maybe she was just imagining it, but Jade could swear that she was able to feel at least an hint of the scent of the Latina's most private area on them. She smiled at that thought before carefully putting Tori's panties back in her drawer. She went out of her bath to sit on Tori's bed to reflect on what she had just done.

What the fuck is happening to me... I thought my attraction for girls was under control... That I didn't like them much anyway... But what I just did and the fact that I don't regret it at all just proves me otherwise. Do I also feel something for Vega? Something more than just physical attraction?... Nah... This is just a phase... No more no less... I like women's bodies and their... Clothing. That's why I did that. I like to fantasize because of my teenage's hormones but it's not like I will ever act on those thought of mine. I don't want to have sex with a woman in real life... Right? Shit I wish I could say yes, but I can't convince myself... I don't know... Maybe it's something more than a phase... Because then why I keep thinking of Tori in those underwear and feel so turned on? Why I wanted to feel her scent on them so badly? Jade kept thinking for other several minutes before she just decided to stand up taking one big breath to calm herself down before getting downstairs and act like her usual self.

Whatever I'm feeling I will just push those thoughts away... Actually having a thing for girls makes me even more badass in a way. And since I have a boyfriend I'm safe with him. I know I will never cheat on him, not with a boy and certainly not with a girl. I'm straight... Mostly... I just happen to get turned on from other girls sometimes... Jade convinced herself before returning in Tori's living room while the Latina had just arrived.

/After 'The Wood' /

After bringing Festus to his house I knew I had to get away from Tori as fast as possible. Hearing her singing in Spanish with me was too much... And after what I did in her house when I opened that drawer full of her underwears... Jade was thinking in her house. In her room, on the bed... Without pants. She was touching herself sliding an hand in her underwears, panting while thinking about Tori Vega. That was the first time she had ever done something like that. The first time she was masturbating to a girl and Tori of all the girls. Jade always had an eye for women, she had caught herself staring at some girls at school more than once, but that was the first time she knew for sure she was gay. Well maybe bi. What she knew while she was sliding two fingers inside of her doing her best not to cry out 'Tori' too loudly, was that she definetely had the hots for another girl. And it was Tori... What was she supposed to do about it? Jade was trying to think after she had a particularly intense orgasm. Nothing came up to her mind. All she knew was that she couldn't stand this confusion and all because of Tori Vega, who would have probably laughed at her if she knew that Jade West, the girl who was pretending to hate her on a daily basis, had actually started to masturbate while thinking about her.

I'll just deal with this sexual tension by being even more of a bitch to her... That's it. Jade concluded in the end. 

/After 'Begging on your knees'/

Jade could barely contain her happiness that night while driving back to her house, after Hollywood Arts annual concert 'The Full Moon Jam'. Tori had just burned her boyfriend Ryder Daniels with a new song called 'Begging on your knees' dumping him and humiliating him in front of the whole school. In fact the guy thought he could've used her just to get a good grade, but Tori didn't fall for it. But Jade knew that her happiness was caused from something else in that moment... Tori and Ryder broke up. And they had only been together for about a couple of weeks so chances were that they had not even slept together yet. Why Jade cared so much about that? She didn't know. Or better she didn't want to think about it. She was just happy that Tori was single again. As soon as she had heard from the Latina that she was dating someone she could remember her blood starting to boil with rage and her immediate reply to the Latina's announcement was that she didn't trust that Ryder guy. Turns out she was right. But in that moment she knew deep down to have said that just out of jealousy. She didn't like him simply because he was dating Tori. Because she wanted her to be single... And as much as she wanted to believe that it wasn't true, it was. Like it was true that that night after Tori's song, she had lied to Beck about not feeling good just to go back home earlier than usual and replay as many times as she wanted the video of Tori's performance that Sinjin had filmed and posted on the school's TheSlap home page. Jade was telling herself that she had just loved the song, but that was only partially true. She had also loved the singer. But she wasn't willing to admit it, not even to herself. Not yet. Even though some part of her desperately wanted to...

/Before 'Iparty with Victorious'/

That day Jade came back home furious from school. She had told Beck that she wanted some space to be alone that day and now was slamming her door shut while entering her house. Her mother heard the noise and came to check on her

"Jade what's wrong now?" she told her.

"What, mother? you have decided to start caring about me all of a sudden, today? Just leave me alone like you usually do!" Jade told her running to her basement headed to her room. Her mother was yelling something at her but Jade wasn't listening. She went to her room and threw her backpack in one corner. She immediately went to her bathroom and started undressing before stepping in her shower to start the hot water. She released a loud groan of pain at the feeling of the hot water burning her skin but didn't step away. She wanted to feel herself hurting so she would have had a good reason to cry like she wanted to do from the start of that morning. When she learned that Tori had a new boyfriend... Jade was thinking that after what had happened with that asshole, Ryder, she would have waited a lot more before getting together with someone else... But no, she was already with another dumb boy, called Steven. Jade tried to turn the water even hotter as she was crying freely now in pain both physical and emotional. Angry and sad tears almost desperate were escaping her eyes. Her pale skin felt hot and was turning an angry red already as she had turned the hot water to the max. She tried not to picture Tori and that Steven guy together... He will never really know how lucky he is... that motherfucker only wants one thing from her... I can see it in his eyes when he looks at her... Just a jerk who wants to get laid with a pretty and sweet girl he doesn't deserve... Maybe I can scare him away from her... Yes that's just what I will do Jade thought with an evil grin on her face, but then she returned sad and shook her head No I can't do something like that to her... What if she really likes the guy? Jade sobbed at that thought I can't make her boyfriend break up with her when she helped me get back with mine... that would be too evil, even for my standards... Also what would I accomplish by doing that? I have my own boyfriend and Tori just wants to be friends with me Jade cried more while sitting down on her shower and hugging her knees. I won't say or do anything... That's what I will do: nothing... Look uninterested and distant like always... Get over my senseless feelings for her and let her be with that idiot... Who knows maybe he will make her happy like she deserves... One thing is for sure: he will never make her half as happy as I would have done... Wait... What? I just thought about me and Tori dating? Fuck, what is wrong with me?!? I have a boyfriend! And I'm definitely not a lesbian... I think... I might be bi but I've got that side of me under control... I just have to stop... No, I NEED to stop thinking about Tori Vega right now!

/After 'Iparty with Victorious'/

Dear diary...

It me Tori! I know I stopped writing on you when I was little... But I guess I needed to talk to someone about this, and since I can't really talk about it with anyone I decided that writing my thoughts might help me. Tonight at Kenan Thompson's house party I met the Icarly's whole crew and Kenan himself! I even sang together with them! I had so much fun. Even though I should probably be upset I guess, cause I also broke up with my boyfriend tonight... In fact turns out Steven was nothing but a liar. The Icarly guys showed me his true colors: he was a cheating idiot. He was in a relationship with Carly when he started dating me. Or he was with me when he started dating her... Point is he was dating both of us without neither of us knowing and he was thinking to get away with it. I'm just happy I was able to realize what kind of a guy he really was before it was too late. Cause... I was thinking about doing it for the very first time (yes I'm talking about 'that') with Steven, after we would have had our 100 days kiss, since he was insisting so much about it lately... But I wanted my first time to be with someone special. And sometimes I felt that Steven simply wasn't that someone. Well turns out I was right, apparently. He was just a cheating idiot. I'm not even sad for dumping him. I'm actually happy that Carly and the others saved me from making a huge mistake. And also, I'm happy that I got to sing together for the first time with my best friend, Jade West... Well I wish we were best friends but she is still mean to me more times than not. But not tonight. I've never seen her smiling at me so much before! Her smile was so beautiful omg I would pay to see it every day!! She even let me jump on her shoulders and carried me like that for a little! It's almost like Jade also wanted us to be friends tonight... Like she was in a very good mood. Like something about me was making her smile. But what? I was the same old Tori she usually can't stand. Maybe she was happy because I wasn't with Steven when we sang? No... Why would she care about that? But gosh I sure hope she does at least a little... I want to be friends with her true... But a small part of me still hopes that we could be something more one day. She is like my forbidden dream. I know thinking about her like that is wrong, since she is with Beck, so it's not good for me to be crushing on her. But damn I just can't stop, she is like a drug for me... but like the sweetest of drugs! Yeah, diary, maybe I'm listening too much Ne-Yo lately... but seriously Jade is someone special, a person that I want to know better... Did I really just think of Jade as someone special? Like THAT special someone??? Oh god... I'm so confused. All I know is that I can't stop thinking about her like that every now and then. Not even Steven and Ryder were able to make me get over her. Does this mean that what I'm feeling for her is something more than a little crush?  Oh gosh what if I'm in love with her? Like REAL love?? In that case it will be impossible for me to get over my feelings. And in that case, should I tell her? Cause some days I feel like being just friends with her will never be enough for me. Maybe she also likes me back... No, that would be too good to be true... She was just in a good mood today for who knows what reason and certainly not because of the fact that Steven wasn't with me. Tomorrow she will probably be her usual self again. She doesn't like me. Not in that way. Not in any way. Not even as a friend. She considers me what? A rival? A schoolmate? A friend of friends at best? Yeah that's all. She cares about me though. She said it once... What does that mean exactly? How can she care about me if she is always so mean to me? Maybe she just feels bad sometimes for always treating me like garbage. Anyway I need to go to sleep now... Enough Jade thoughts for tonight. Jeez didn't expect to write this much! Anyway, idk when or if I will ever write on you again my dear diary, but anyway thanks for letting me talk (write)  ;)

your Tori

/After 'Beck falls for Tori'/

That night Tori was on her bed watching some funny videos of animals on youtube before going to sleep. She was chuckling seeing a bear getting scared of a chihuahua when she received a text. She checked it and read:

Hey, you still up? How are u? - Unknown number

Tori looked at the screen with a questioning look before she replied

Who's this? - T

Someone who pushed you to do something you were too scared to do by yourself, today. Literally pushed you – Unknown number

Tori rolled her eyes

Of course... Hi Jade... I thought you were actually hoping to kill me by pushing me down that platform – T

Do you really believe I would have pushed you if there was any risk of you getting hurt Vega? I could never live without you in my life – J

Tori felt her heart beating fast in excitment

Aww really?! - T she quickly typed

Say yes... Say yes, please beautiful...Tori was thinking looking up at her ceiling and pressing her phone to her chest, crossing her fingers without even realizing to have just mentally called Jade 'beautiful'

Yeah, before you came to school, I only had Sinjin and Robbie to make fun of XD – J

Tori read the text with a disappointed look on her face and had to restrain herself feom throwing it against her room's door. Instead she angrily replied: 

Just leave me alone once and for all! - T

Come on Vega I'm only kidding. I just gave you my number aren't you happy about it? - J

I would've been happy, if you weren't making fun of me like you always do... Btw who gave you my number? - T

Cat... - J

Oh, of course - T

Are you mad at me? - J

I'm always mad at you cause you're always mad at me for no reason – T

I meant for pushing you off that platform today (and I'm not always mad at you, sometimes I just like to tease you, it's not my problem if you can't take a joke) – J

I can take jokes very well, problem is, everything you say to me is either a joke or something mean or both! :/ (No btw I'm not mad at you, not for that at least. I finally made that stunt, thanks to you) – T

You're just a child who can't take a joke and who is afraid of doing safe stunts Vega, just admit it!  ;) – J

Whatever you say Jade, I'm turning off my phone now, so keep texting whatever you want I won't read it, I'm going to bed and since I'm a polite person I wish you a good night, even though you will probably reply something mean like 'whatever' or 'good nightmares'... I don't care... Bye, and good night – T

Tori typed fast before turning her phone off and put it on her bedside table to go to sleep.

In her own room a sad Jade who was feeling guilty and mad at herself, replied:

Good night Tori... sleep well – J

Tori didn't know because Jade didn't want her or anyone else to know, but Jade had been the one who suggested Cat to make an outfit for Beck and to convince him to do the first stunt for Tori when she saw how afraid the Latina was of doing it herself.

/After 'Tori gets stuck'/

Tori returned to school that day after several days spent at home recovering from a major blood loss, she had when she had donated too much blood at the hospital so that her friend, Robbie, could have had a surgery. Her and the boy happened to have the same rare blood type, but after several incidents at the hospital, she was forced to donate blood for him three times during the same day, resulting in her passing out on stage during a play at school. After picking some books from her 'Make it Shine' locker Tori turned around and quickly jumped in surprise seeing Jade waiting behind her. Jade smiled at her reaction but her expression didn't look as satisfied as usual for having scared her.

"What do you want West?" Tori asked her.

"Is that the way of greeting a friend Vega?" Jade replied to her

"So we are friends now? I thought you said we weren't" Tori told her

Jade didn't reply quickly... like she had just realized to have made a mistake but then she answered her "I said I don't consider you a friend but you said that you were considering me as such so..." but Tori cut her off

"Well not anymore... I'm tired of this little game of ours... I can't keep caring about someone who can't even stand me" Tori said while trying to storm away. But Jade blocked her way leaning with an arm against some nearby locker.

"Out of my way West!" Tori told her glaring at the Goth. Jade raised an eyebrow at her "So you keep calling me West now? Aww I feel so bad" Jade mocked her

"I don't care if you feel bad or not... Since we are not friends and you call me 'Vega' all the time, I decided I will just call you West from now on, let me go!" Tori said while trying to walk past her but Jade kept blocking her the way stepping in front of her again.

"Look I just wanted to know how you are feeling. I know we had our differences because of the lead role we both wanted in that play, but..."

"No, you mean the lead role I got while you just kept being jealous, trying to sabotage me instead of being happy for me like a good friend would! Oh right, we are not friends, right Ja... West?" Tori said trying once again to go away from her, but this time the Goth grabbed the Latina by the arm.

"I'm sorry ok? For everything... And I will probably just keep being mean to you in the future but I want you to know that I was genuinely worried for you last week when the others told me you weren't feeling well for all the blood you had to donate for Robbie's surgery that day. I didn't think you had to give your blood other two times after I... heard they lost the first pint of your blood..." Jade said. She looked genuinely sorry for her so Tori relaxed and stopped glaring at her. "Luckily I was able to recover pretty soon... But yeah I felt very weak these days after donating so much blood" the Latina said. Jade groaned "Why did you block my number? I tried calling and texting you many times these days but couldn't reach you! I felt so guilty... I had to know how you were feeling from André and Cat... I didn't want to ask Trina, cause the less I talk to her the better, but I was even thinking about coming over to your house to check on you. The only reason I didn't do it, is because I was afraid that you were too mad at me to see me... but still I was so worried about you Tori!". Tori looked at her in awe after Jade stopped talking. What the Goth girl had just said really surprised Tori and she couldn't believe that she had just talked so much to her. The Latina didn't know what to say for a moment "I... I was indeed mad at you after our fight for that role... That's why I blocked your number. I didn't want anything to do with you anymore... But... I didn't think you cared so much about how I was feeling..." she finally said.

Jade rolled her eyes "Of course I care about you... I may not like you but I care for you"

Tori looked confused "But... why?"

Jade looked annoyed "I just do ok? Anyway I see that you're feeling better now, you have your natural color again... good" she said trying to change argument

"Yeah I am... thank you... Jade" Tori smiled at her.

Jade smiled too noticing that Tori was calling her by her first name again. In that moment the bell rang.

"Well I will head to my class now... See you at lunch" Tori said.

"So... will you unblock my number or what? Not that I care too much but... You know, it could come in handy for school projects and stuff..." Jade asked her before Tori could go. Tori stopped in her steps and turned to look at her again. Jade had crossed arms and was trying to act like she didn't care but Tori could see the worry in her expression as her puppy dog eyes were betraying her and practically begging Tori to unblock her number. Tori smiled "Maybe..." she said winking at the Goth girl before walking away. Jade smiled relieved while watching her. She couldn't help but stare at Tori's ass while she was walking to her class. She immediately squeezed her eyes shut God stop it Jade... People will notice

/After 'Prom Wrecker'/

While in her room Jade was furious at Tori for having humiliated her at the Prom that night and after she had booked the prom on the same night of her art project. Yeah Jade had tried to ruin her prom the whole night as a payback, but she was still pissed at the Latina Like you could  be really pissed at her her subconscious was telling her. Jade groaned in frustration as she sat on her bed. After a few moments though she smiled At least Vega didn't ask anyone to go to the prom with her... I really doubt that she forgot about it like she said... Maybe she didn't ask anyone cause she couldn't go with who she wanted... Jade smirked. For a moment she imagined her and Tori dancing and passionately kissing in front of everyone. The thought was making her heart speed up excited but then she shook her head No... That will never happen... Me and Tori are both straight... Yeah I'm straight. Kinda... Well ok I might like girls... Does that mean I'm what? A lesbian? Am I lying to myself by being with Beck then? No I like to be with him... I know I like boys too... So, am I bisexual? Probably... No definetely... but Tori certainly isn't... She is probably after some guy who is already taken... What if it's Beck? No, she can't like Beck over me... WTF? I'm worried that Vega might like Beck more than me and not that she might have a crush on my boyfriend? I must have serious issues... Or maybe not... My only issue is liking her so much and not being able to tell her... Why I don't even want to admit it? Why I have to keep on hating her when I like her so much instead? I was even happy to drink from that soda can she had just licked... She thought that I would have find it disgusting. Like I could ever find something about her to be disgusting... She is like perfection at her finest... Can't believe that I tasted her saliva... And it tasted so good... We had like an indirect kiss today... wish she could have tasted mine aswell... And also that we could have both tasted something more of each other... WTF Jade, again? Control your fucking hormones... You can't think like that of her all the time, like you want to be with her. You already have a boyfriend that you love... But do I? Do I still really love Beck? Maybe... But maybe not, cause all we do lately is either fighting or being distant Jade stood up, tired of having those thoughts... She couldn't see Beck since he was visiting some relatives of his in Canada with his family for a few days, and she didn't know how to get Tori off her minds, so she decided to take a few sleeping pills to go to sleep as fast as possible and just stop thinking completely.

I just hope that Vega will not be in my dreams too... Especially not in THAT kind of dreams or my obsession for her will just keep getting worst

Jade thought. But unfortunately (or luckily?) for her she would have dreamed about a certain Latina for most of that night...

/During 'Jade gets crushed'/

Tori couldn't believe that her best friend André Harris had developed a crush on Jade while working on a song with her. Well she could believe it actually because Who wouldn't love such a gorgeous Goth goddess? She was secretely thinking, but she couldn't believe that André could feel that way about her despite being one of Beck's closest friends, while she was doing her best to push her feelings for Jade away, not to hurt her Canadian friend. But are you really pushing your feelings for Jade away because of Beck, Tori? Or because you are afraid she wouldn't feel the same about you, since she might not even be into girls? Maybe you are on the wrong side of this... Maybe it's wrong for a girl to like other girls, like you do... "Shut up!" Tori told her inner voice There is nothing wrong about that... The only thing wrong here is having feelings for a person who is already taken and that doesn't feel the same about you... Tori kept thinking with a sad expression while looking herself in the mirror dressed like Jade. She had even done her hair to look like her. She started smiling looking at herself and thinking that she looked beautiful because she looked like Jade... All dressed in black, dark make up and with a long black wig with green stripes on her head. But she would have used her look and her personality to show André all the worst traits about Jade's persona... Cause she had to make the boy get over his crush for her. I'm doing this for Beck of course... Not for myself... Not because I don't want another person to have a crush for my girl... Tori blushed Did I just thought of Jade as my girl? Oh my god that can't be. I meant my friend... Right? Tori shook her head while finishing getting ready.

Unfortunately her plan didn't work, but luckily André was soon able to get over his crush for Jade by himself, proving that unlike Tori's one, his crush for her was nothing serious.

/During 'a Christmas Tori'/

That day Tori was making sure that Jade didn't have her scissor with her after she entered her house so she was touching her body searching for them, while trying to hide her blush and excitment.

Oh my God she is so soft! I'm touching her! I'm actually touching Jade West's body! And she is letting me do it! But just to let me check her for weapons... Well I can definetely see two big and beautiful weapons over here... Oh my god Tori stop! What are you thinking? Jade is your friend! But oh boy she got some amazing boobs... And why she is smirking at me like that? Oh damn maybe she caught me glancing at her tits! I hope not! - Tori was thinking

Hmmm someone is having fun feeling me up over here... You know we could do this naked right Tori? -Jade was thinking. Come on Vega, forget the scissors and touch me a little higher... Or lower "Don't be shy!" Jade said in that moment smiling at Tori who was looking at her with wide eyes confused. Jade just smiled at her in a seductive way. She wanted to keep pretending to not like Tori, but in that moment her touch made her hormones go crazy and she just couldn't hold back from saying that.

What was that? Why she said that? Does that mean that she likes me touching her? Maybe she actually wanted me to...? Nah, it's impossible she is just making fun of me like usual Tori thought finding in that same moment the scissors the Goth was hiding in the waistband of her skirt.

/After 'the Breakfast bunch'/

After detention with all their other friends that saturday Beck was now taking his girlfriend Jade to a date with his car. But he was noticing that she looked silent and deep in thoughts like something was bothering her. What he couldn't imagine was that Jade was thinking of Tori:

Vega what are you doing to me... Making me Jade West, the most emotionless girl in the school, so turned on... I don't remember to have felt like this in a long time... I feel like a 12 years old who is having her first crush... Why I keep thinking of you all the time Tori freaking Vega? Why you had to look so sexy today?... What makes you even sexier is that you don't even try to look sexy yet you talk, dress and act hot as fuck... Gosh... I think I would sell my soul to have you Tori, even for just one night... to experiment with you that girl on girl sex that always fascinated me... To undress you and make you feel so good... like no one of those stupid boys you dated ever could... To kiss every inch of your long legs and going up...

"Glad to see you're happy despite your silence... What are you thinking of Jade?" Beck asked her at some point.

Jade realized that she was smiling while thinking about Tori and quickly stopped "Oh... Just that I would like to stab that Dickers in the throat for giving me so many other saturdays of detention" Jade lied. She was actually happy about it since Dickers also gave Tori many other saturdays of detention, so they would have spent other time together. Jade smiled again.

"Apparently it makes you feel very happy, baby" Beck said chuckling.

Jade blushed a bit "Don't call me baby"

"I thought you secretely liked it" Beck continued

"Not right now..."

"Why? Something's wrong Jade?" Beck asked her

Because I don't feel like your 'baby' anymore  Jade was thinking and realizing what she had just thought she got angry

"Look I'm just in a shitty mood. I'm pissed and tired after detention ok?" Jade lied

"It wasn't that bad, Tori was even able to get us tacos!" Beck said

Jade blushed again before she said "Of course you had to mention her, can you stop thinking of Vega all the time Beckett?" But Jade wanted to tell that to herself, actually.

"What are you talking about Jade? You know, your jealousy is starting to get on my nerves, Tori is just a friend!" Beck explained

"Not for me..." Jade said, but continued to think ...Because I want her to be more to me than that... I want her to be mine...

Jade's eyes went wide as she realized she was thinking that, when Beck said:

"But why Jade? She is a nice person and helped you many times, and you know that" Beck said.

Jade started to feel nervous "You know what, just take me home, I'm not in the mood for a date right now..."

"Jade, come on..."

"Don't argue with me when I'm pissed Oliver... Take me home now. I will call you tomorrow... Maybe" Jade told him.

Beck released a frustrated groan as she changed direction with his car "Alright then..." He simply said. But he didn't look happy at all.

/After 'the Gorilla Club'/

"What the fuck did you do you piece of shit? You sent my friend to the hospital! Why you had to hit her that hard? You are four time her size asshole!" Jade was screaming at the guy dressed in the Gorilla costume while Tori was sent in the hospital with an ambulance with multiple fractures after having being tackled from that man. Jade stayed behind with an excuse while all their other friends followed Tori at the hospital.

"What's the matter hotstuff I thought you were cheering for me" the Gorilla asked her.

"I just wanted you to block her, to stop her from winning the game, not trying to break her spine after she had already won, you imbecile! That wasn't even fair idiot!" Jade kept yelling at him.

"Whatever bitch, she knew the risks I'm not sorry" he said laughing.

Jade furiously stared at him "Not yet but you will be sorry very soon!" she said taking her scissors and stabbing the man in his right leg piercing his costume. He screamed loudly and fell down on the ground. Jade jumped on him and pointed her scissors very close to his genitals "Are you sorry now? Huh? Are you sorry for hurting my friend, you son of a bitch?". The Gorilla nodded at her, Jade could see his eyes terrified through his mask but in that moment two security men blocked her lifting her up and disarming her before taking her out of the club.

"Get off me, get your fucking hands off me!" she was yelling at them but they only let her go when they were out of the club. One of them threw her pair of scissors at her feet and said "Go home now young lady! And don't you ever come back or we will call the police!". Jade grabbed her scissors from the ground and before going away she flipped off both of the security guards. She heard one of them saying "Very mature" but she didn't care. She run to her car and immediately started driving to the hospital. She punched her wheel in frustration a couple of times I should have never dared her to face that Gorilla... Why I keep being so evil to her? Am I stupid? I can't lose her... I just can't... God I hope she is ok and that her parents won't be too mad at her for being at that club... and I hope she will recover in time for that movie's audition she had...... Dammit dammit dammit... I'm sorry Tori Jade was thinking punching her wheel again and feeling a tear running down her cheek. She quickly wiped it while continuing to drive, headed to the hospital.

/During 'The Worst couple'/

As Beck decided not to open the Vega's house's door and reach for Jade outside, and Tori and all of their friends heard her drive away, the Latina realized that between Beck and Jade it was probably really over this time... This time they had both decided to break up after weeks of fighting and not getting along anymore. Beck was now sitting with Tori and their other friends at the table where they were playing poker that night and Cat was counting the cards (skipping the number '3'). Of course her sister Trina didn't waste time as she was now with her head on Beck's shoulder while hugging his arm. Tori instead kept looking at the front door with sad eyes. She knew that Jade was probably feeling so broken right now. She imagined Jade sobbing and crying like that time she came to her house to ask her help to fix her and Beck. Only this time she was alone on her way home, driving. I just hope she will manage to drive back home safely and that she has someone to talk to at her house Tori was thinking.

/

Later on that night their friends left for their houses and Trina went to bed. Tori went to her room and took her phone instead. After some moments of hesitation she quickly scrolled for Jade's number and called her. She seemed to not be picking up, and Tori was about to hang up when she heard:

"Vega"

Tori's face lit up at the sound of her voice "Jade! I'm sorry, were you asleep?"

"I'm not an old lady, so to answer your question no I wasn't sleeping yet..."

"I'm glad to hear that... I mean I'm glad that I didn't wake you up... How are you feeling? I'm so sorry about Be..."

"I don't need your pity Vega. I'm fine. Beck decided to let me go, and I won't feel bad about him... Ever again... This had to happen I guess... We were not working anymore and by keep being together we were just delaying the inevitable"

But despite what the Goth was saying, Tori could hear the sadness in her low tone of voice, like she had just being crying.

"Ok then Jade... I was just worried about you because I care for you as a friend... but if you don't want to talk..." Tori started to say but Jade interjected

"No, Tori, look... I'm sorry if I'm always a bitch to you ok?... I really appreciate you checking on me... You are the only one who did it. No one else of our so called friends tried to call me" Jade said

Tori smiled "Well you didn't exactly encouraged them to call you, before at my house, after you said you didn't consider any of us as your friends..."

"You still called me though... thank you Tori"

Tori smile grow wider "Of course Jade... So how are you holding up?"

"I'm having the time of my life, the goddamn time of my life. Afterall I only just broke up with my long time boyfriend..."

"Sarcasm won't make you feel any better Jade, just talk to me, it's ok if you are sad... I know that things like this hurt... I've been through it myself" Tori told her

"No you don't know anything about this Vega... You have never been in a relationship for such a long time... Beck was not only my boyfriend... He was also my best friend... We have been together for almost two and a half years, while you just dated a few idiots for a couple of months at best" Jade said

"Just because I never had a long term relationship, it doesn't mean I can't understand how hurt and heartbroken you are feeling right now, but if you think talking to me is pointless I can just hang up..." Tori replied with an hurt tone of voice.

"No! Again I'm sorry Tori... I'm just... I feel like shit ok?... That's how I feel"

"I'm so sorry Jade... But... You and Beck always had fights like this... Maybe... you will be able to make up this time too, like usual" Tori told her just to make Jade feel better, while trying not to feel too guilty for secretely hoping that that wouldn't be the case this time and that Jade and Beck wouldn't have gotten back together, so that the Goth girl would've been single.

"I don't know... This time felt different... This time he decided to let me go... And I didn't do anything about it"

"Do you still want to be with him?" Tori asked her nervously.

"I... don't know... From a long time now, I didn't know if I loved him anymore... I think I was just scared to lose him as a friend by losing him as my boyfriend... I don't know if one day I might want to be with him again or not... Shit I just don't know" Jade said starting to sob.

"Aww Jade, you want me to come over to your house?" Tori asked her concerned.

"You don't even know where I live and you don't have a license. Also it's late... Don't worry Vega I will be fine, really..."

"Are you sure Jade?"

"I'm sure Tori, thanks again for checking on me... Good night, see you at school"

"Night Jade... Remember that I'm here for you if you need to talk ok?"

"I know... Bye" Jade told her before hanging up.

After talking to Jade, Tori logged on TheSlap. She decided to check Jade's profile after a bit and she saw that her status was saying 'Single'. Tori knew that her or Beck must have changed it on one of their profiles and changing the status on one automatically changed the status of the other aswell. She didn't know who between the two had updated their status, but seeing that 'Single' on Jade profile was the confirmation that her breaking up with Beck was definitive this time. That realization suddenly made her feel bad for her Goth friend... But hopeful at the same time. Tori shook her head Jade doesn't need a new relationship right now... She needs a friend... Maybe some time alone to think... I need to put my feelings for her aside... I can be her friend... But nothing else... I thought I had convinced myself of that by now Tori thought a bit sad.

In the meantime at Jade's house.

The Goth had still wet eyes and no make up as she was checking her profile on TheSlap with her PC on her bed. She immediately saw her new status 'Single'.

Beck didn't waste time apparently... Of course... He needed every girl at school to know that he is available again asap

Jade thought while furiously standing up and leaning her head against one of her room's walls. Her nails trying to scratch her room's green wallpaper. She squeezed her eyes trying not to start crying again but she wasn't able to keep her tears at bay. She looked over the shelf with the pictures of her with her parents and her with Beck. She took the one she had taken with Beck and angrily threw it against her room's door hearing the glass of the frame cracking. Then she took the other picture of her with her parents and looked at it with contempt "I should have been able to rely on you during these moments... Instead you're never here and don't give a fuck about me anymore" she said looking at her parents with hate and then punching the photo destroying the glass of the frame and letting it fall down at her feet as she felt a sharp pain on her knuckles. She had a few bruises and scratches on them with some small traces of blood but nothing serious so she just went to bed without even bothering putting some bandages on her hand or at least putting it under the water to feel a little relief from the pain she was feeling. She just didn't care. She would have chosen physical pain over the emotional one any day. She just wished to have hurt herself more. She didn't even bother changing in her pajama that night, she only removed her shoes before turning off the lights of her room and going to bed. She started hugging herself in bed trying to push her tears back in her eyes. I wish Tori was here... I need one of her hugs so badly right now... She thought before falling asleep.

/After 'Car, Rain and Fire'/

Vega looked so sexy all wet today... with those wet hair... and wet jeans around that tight round ass of hers... I could almost see through her wet pink shirt aswell, too bad she was wearing a bra underneath it...Tori always turns me on so much... Like that time we went to the beach together with the others and I saw her for the first time in a bikini... I still don't know how I was able to not stare at her too much that time, but I wish I did, so that right now I could remember even better how hot Tori looked in a swimsuits... almost naked... Jade was thinking that night in her room after getting back from her trip with Tori and Cat in San Diego. Gosh... Tori Vega I like you so freaking much... In that moment Jade realized what she was doing... Her hand inside her pajamas pants... She immediately yanked it away Shit I was really about to do that? This attraction I have for her has gone too far...It's just that... A physical attraction... Nothing else... I don't like her personality... Her caring and tender personality... No her annoying bubbly personality... That's what I meant... She means nothing to me... I may like her body, but not her as a person... I don't like her... I won't even think of her while... Shit. We're not even friends... She proved that to me, tonight when she didn't even bother asking me if I wanted to have a sleepover with her and Cat at her house, and after I took them both all the way to San Diego in Cat's dumb brother's convertible car even though it was raining. Well maybe she would have invited me if she thought I liked to be with her... with them I mean... Oh who am I kidding... With her... With Tori... I like to be with Tori... Fuck... Fucking Vega... Jade groaned That's exactly what I would like to do right now Jade looked towards her hand that was roaming again near her womanhood, and slapped it with her other hand I said enought thinking about Tori like that... So where do you think you're going with that hand Jade? 

In the meantime at Tori's house

After finishing their project for school, and watching the news about Mona Patterson, Tori and Cat were now talking on the couch. Cat was telling something to Tori but she wasn't listening...

Maybe I should have invited Jade to stay with us tonight... She would have probably refused anyway, but still... I could have tried asking her... I hope she didn't feel left out... Poor Jade, all alone at her house... Now that she is not with Beck anymore she only has me and Cat as her friends, since she isn't that close to André and Robbie... And we didn't even think about inviting her to stay with us...God I feel so terrible maybe I should call her... She was so adorable with her hair wet before...

"Hellooo Toriiii?" Cat told her at some point waving an hand in front of her face.

"Wha... hmmm... Cat, sorry what were you saying?" Tori quickly asked her

Cat pouted "You're thinking that I'm a bad person for leaving those candles near Mona's house aren't you? Since now her house is burnt because of me"

"Oh no, Cat it's ok... You didn't do it on purpose... You actually wanted to do something nice for her... I was just thinking about Jade..." Tori replied to her blushing

"Jade? Why?" Cat asked her curious. She seemed to notice Tori's blush and smiled.

"Oh well... I was thinking that after she gave us a ride to San Diego... The least we could've done was inviting her to have a sleepover with us..." Tori said

Cat's smiley face turned into another pouty one "Oh yeah... I also didn't think about it, maybe another time we can ask her if she wants to spend some time with us what do you think?" the redhead said.

Tori smiled a bit unsure and nodded at her.

/During 'Tori and Jade's playdate'/

After their 'date' Jade was now taking Tori to her house. It was way past midnight and they were loudly singing again the song they has just sang at Nozu at those two boys who were trying to hit on them.

...Take a Hint

Take a Hiiiint!

As they ended the song they were laughing and smiling at each other in Jade's car.

"Well I guess Sikowitz was right... we definetely learned to get along today... I would even go as far as to say that we got closer, don't you think Jade?" Tori asked the Goth. Her eyes were shining with happiness.

"Yeah... I think I almost tolerate you now" Jade replied smiling.

Tori chuckled and playfully punched her in the arm "Come on say the truth Jade! You said I'm pretty, we sang together and we're friends now, so you must like me! Yay! Jade West likes me!" the Latina said happy clapping her hands excited.

Jade blushed "Correction: we sang together just to reject two idiots, we are not really friends, and I just tolerate you... We just learned how to get along today so that we can pretend to be husband and wife in a play..." the Goth replied

Tori's happiness seemed to fade a little before she said "But you can't deny that you were the first to tell me that I look good Jade, admit it, you think I'm pretty!"

Jade blushed more but tried to hide it by not looking at Tori and continuing to drive without saying anything. At some point she said "I said some people may think that"

"And are you one of those people, Jade?" Tori asked her challenging.

"No" Jade just replied... But what she was thinking in that moment was No... I think way more than that... I think you're simply breathtaking beautiful Tori... and sexy... and hot... And I dream about me and you making love almost every night now... Jade felt angry at herself for thinking that and angry at Tori for having made her have that thought. "Stop bothering me ok? I still don't like you, you're so annoying with all these stupid questions...".

Tori looked down, pouting disappointed. Jade glanced over to her and like usual seeing Tori so sad, made Jade feel bad "Oh please stop..." she told her.

Tori looked over to her "What? What am I doing now to bother you so much?" she asked her with an angry tone of voice.

"Stop looking so sad and hurt.. You know me from an year now and you still didn't get used to my grumpy attitude? I'm like this with everyone... So you should stop feeling bad when I'm a gank to you. Just because I'm like this doesn't mean you're my least favorite person in the world... In fact you're not even my least favorite person in this car... I despise myself way more than how much I can't stand you" Jade said.

Tori looked at her in disbelief and concern "What are you talking about Jade, you're an incredible person, so talented and beautiful..." Tori blushed as Jade turned to look at her surprised "You are! Ok? And I'm not afraid to say it, unlike you..." Tori continued

Jade smiled as she looked over the road again "I just don't like my life and how messed up I feel lately. I just keep thinking about the same person every day and night" the Goth explained.

"Beck?" Tori asked her

Jade made a sarcastic laugh. No... You she thought before replying lying "Yeah... Having to see her everyday at school is a lot painful to me even if I pretend that I'm good all the time"

"Her?" Tori asked Jade raising her eyebrows

"What?"

"You said 'having to see her everyday'" Tori continued.

Jade blushed again Shit... "I meant 'him' obviously... I was talking about Beck, duh" she lied again. Fuck I hope she buys it Jade continued to think.

In that moment Tori put an hand on her shoulder. Jade felt a shiver running down her spine at that simple touch, and just for a second closed her eyes as Tori started caressing her shoulder Yes Tori... Please don't stop... Jade was thinking but Tori stopped caressing her after just a few seconds. "Do you remember what I told you when you and Beck broke up right? If you need someone to talk to, I will always be here for you Jade... Even if you don't like me and you don't think of me as a friend" Tori said.

Jade gulped and nodded. "He is even in our same play... I wish I didn't have to be forced to be so close to... him" Jade continued pretending to be talking about Beck... But she was actually thinking about Tori. The Latina smiled at her and continued "Well at least he is just supposed to be just our son in the play. I'm supposed to be your husband... I know you don't like me much but at least in this way you won't have to be forced to pretend to be together with him and be too close to him"

Jade nervously laughed again... "Yeah sure Vega..." If you only knew...

Tori looked at her a bit confused from her reaction but decided not to say anything else. In that moment Jade arrived at Tori's house and parked in her driveway.

"Here we are sweetie" Jade said pretending to be already in the part of Nancy (the character of their play).

Tori smiled at her "Thanks, honey" she said using a manly voice pretending to be in the part of Walter. She extended her arms at her. Jade raised a questioning eyebrow at Tori as the Latina said "Come on, you know what I want, give Tori a squeeze!" Jade rolled her eyes and hugged her.

This feels so good was the same thought Tori and Jade were having while in each other's embrace. After Tori pulled out of Jade's car and the Goth drove away, Tori took a few seconds to think before entering her house. We will definetely be great in our play... Can't believe we sang together and even held hands today... Gosh we held hands! I loved it! She can keep saying we are not friends all she wants but I know we are by now! Whether she is willing to admit it to herself or not... Only problem is... I'm happy with that? Is that all I want? Tori shook her head entering home Of course that's all I want... I'm not going to ruin our friendship now by keep thinking of that stupid crush I had for her... She is also still thinking about Beck, remember?

/During 'Driving Tori crazy'/

Shit I can't believe Vega was so scared of me that she actually jumped out of my car and prefered to go to school at foot Jade was thinking while driving to Hollywood Arts.

That's probably for the best... Considering what I wanted to do... Jade offered Tori a ride to school that day to spend some alone time with her. Of course she wanted to have fun scaring her a little with a shovel on her backseat and humming a creepy song during the travel, but the real reason she had taken her to 'Shadow Creek Woods' was that it was an isolated place, where no one could have seen them. In fact Jade had actually decided to understand her attraction for Tori better that day, by actually making a move on her and see how she would have reacted. She would have tried to kiss her and see what would have happened from there. But she wouldn't have thought that Tori would have been so afraid of her to the point of jumping out of her car while she was driving. Jade thought Next time when that happened but she knew that she would have probably had no other occasion to do it and was both relieved and disappointed. She was relieved because she knew that she was probably going to make a fool out of herself by trying to do that, discovering that the Latina didn't feel the same about her and also revealing Tori that she not only liked girls but also her. But at the same time she was disappointed Even if she didn't feel the same about me, I would have still kissed those perfect lips at least once in my life... Have a taste of Tori Vega... I will probably never have that opportunity again... Stupid Vega why she had to be so easily scared? Well maybe because you had to be so creepy like usual Jade...

"Fuck" Jade said to herself while speeding up.

In the meantime

Tori was walking to school under Shadow Creek's hot sun. She was already sweating... 

I can't believe that Jade was actually thinking about doing who knows what to me with that shovel... She probably wanted to bury me somewhere here... Ok probably not, she might be creepy sometimes, but she is a good person, and definetely not a murderer... but she was clearly enjoying scaring me... And to think that I was thinking that we were getting closer and that she wanted to be nice for once by giving me a ride to school... Why I always have to be so naive? I can't trust that girl... She is just so moody... Who knows what's really going on in that contorted mind of hers... And yet I still like her

Tori sighed 

/During 'Tori goes Platinum'/

While she was getting ready to perform for the opening number of the Platinum Awards, Tori couldn't stop smiling widely. She was excited to perform for millions of people for the first time in her life and singing her new song 'Make it in America', but that was not the reason of her happiness in that moment (not entirely). She had finally figured out what she was really feeling from a long time.

I Tori Vega am in love with another girl... I love Jade West... I don't want to be with anyone else but her... I'm tired of pretending to just want to be friends with her. I saw the beautiful person I always knew she was today, when she said it wasn't fair for her to perform instead of me... She gave up an opportunity of a life time to do something nice for me, and only for me, the girl she is supposed to hate. No one ever did something so sweet for me... I don't care about anything else right now... I don't care if she still can't stand me... I want to know better that beautiful person who was so sweet to me just few minutes ago... I want to see her being so sweet to me again. I will get her to like me somehow... I have to... Even if I don't know how yet... I love her... I never felt like this with anyone else. Not with Daniel, not with Ryder, not with Steven... I can't believe I was about to give up on her... I even thought about kissing Beck and be with him for a moment the other day, even just to make her jealous and make her pay for always being so mean to me. But in the end I couldn't... I couldn't do something like that to a friend... But now I realize that I wasn't thinking of Jade just as a friend... But as the love of my life... And I also couldn't do something like that to myself... I couldn't be with someone else when my heart belongs to Jade... I might have realized that awhile back... Ryder and Steven were two traitors, but I don't regret my relationships with them, cause looking back now at the time I was with them I'm able to understand that what I feel for Jade is something way bigger. I never loved them like I love her... Same goes for Daniel. I may have liked dating those boys sometimes, but not like I love to be in Jade's presence. With them I wasn't feeling anything even close to what I'm feeling for her right now. I didn't know what feeling truly happy and in love meant with them. But now I know... And I know that I don't want to be with anyone else but my true love... Jade West... I don't know if I will ever have the courage to tell her that I love her... But take a good look at me on stage tonight, dear Jade... Cause this performance is not only thanks to you... But it's also for you my love

That's what Tori thought still smiling before taking one big breath as she was announced and was about to start singing her new song 'Make it in America'

In the meantime

As Jade took her seat next to Beck in the crowd, she saw the boy looking at her surprised but smiling. Jade gave him a forced smile in return but said nothing as she sat down and looked at the stage. Tori's opening number was just beginning. As soon as Jade heard the music and  saw Tori on stage starting to sing her song, she crossed her arms and pretended to look annoyed to see her, like usual. Except this time she couldn't. She kept smiling... She even thought about looking down during her entire performance to not think about her... But she couldn't do that either. The sound of the Latina's beautiful voice was calling her, and Jade couldn't ignore her. She wanted to see her... And she loved the sight. A beautiful, sexy mesmerizing girl with a wonderful voice was giving one of the best performance on stage she had ever seen with a brand new song that Jade was loving.

...I want to show some skin! Cause baby I need the ocean...

She was singing. I want to be your ocean Tori... If you only knew Jade was thinking while smiling at her. The previous day, when Jade had seen Beck trying to kiss Tori from her laptop camera Jade thought that it was over... That everything was lost for her... That Beck and Tori would have lived happily ever after together and that she would have lost the only two people she ever loved in her whole life. Forever. Afterall they seemed perfect for each other, and her and Beck had broke up from two months now, so why Tori shouldn't have wanted to be with him?... Because she couldn't do that to a friend... That's why Jade thought smiling wider. I've always thought that she was a nice person but I had never really fully realized just how much... How much of a beautiful person Tori really is... Until now... How can our friendship mean so much to her when I always told her that I don't even consider her as my friend? But somehow Tori still cares about me and is loyal to me to the point of rejecting Beck for me... How many girls would have done something like that for me? Maybe not even Cat... But Tori did... Cause Tori is special... Tori is a person that you can only meet once in your life... And only if you're lucky... Tori is a person you can't let go... I knew I couldn't perform on that stage instead of her after that. And I also know I can't deny my feelings for her any longer... I love her body, her voice, her personality, her everything... She might never reciprocate my feelings and might only see me as a friend... But there's no doubt that I'm feeling something bigger for her... Something that I'm sure it's... love... I love Tori Vega... I think I always knew that deep down in my heart ever since I met her... My secret thoughts about her speak by themselves afterall... yet I chose to ignore them and I kept being mean to her because I was afraid to admit that I was feeling something more than physical attraction for another girl... I'm sorry Tori if I was always so unfair to you while you just kept being so good to me... You definetely deserve someone better than me... That's why I will just keep my feelings to myself... Maybe... If I will be able to... But I'm done denying them... I know what I'm feeling: I love you Tori Vega

Jade was barely able to hold her tears of both joy and sadness as she had finally admitted her true feelings for Tori even though she knew that it wouldn't have changed much anyway since, she might have never been able to reveal them to her, while in that moment Tori was finishing her song.

...Make it in America!...

She said one more time before the crowd erupted in a standing ovation. A smiling and emotional Tori approached the edge of the stage and started hugging with an happy face all of her friends. Jade was clapping happily and decided that she wouldn't have cared of what anyone would have thought... She had to show Tori how much she had appreciated her performance. Maybe Tori would have never been with her like she wanted... But she still wanted to be close to her. So she approached the edge of the stage and as Tori was kneeling to hug her friends in the crowd, Jade got closer to her to let her know that she was also there to give her congratulations and hug her. Tori's face couldn't look happier when she saw her "Oh my god Jade...!" was all she was able to say while the crowd was still cheering and tears of joy were escaping her eyes while she was extending her arms to hug Jade. The Goth smiled widely at her and hugged her back "You were amazing Tori... Good job!" Jade told her while hugging her. But there was so much more she wanted to tell her... If she only knew that the Latina singer wanted to tell her so much more aswell... But it was only a matter of time. They didn't know it yet but they would've spent their lives together.

THE END