#DFF14
"Wow! For the very first time. Ngayon ko lang yata nakita si Zendrea na may eyebags!" I shoot deathly glares to her. Damn! This is Frost fault! Kung hindi siya nagsabi ng kung anu-ano? Malamang. I can completely have my sleep.
"Don't provoke me to kill you,Avery! Urgh!" Said and rested my head on the table. Gaadh! This stressful days,plus Frost and Troy. Ako na ang queen of problems.
"I smell something fishy! May kaamoy-amoy talaga dito." Napabangon ako ng wala sa oras.
"Hah! Don't tell me,umutot ka?" Nandidiring sabi ko sa kaniya.
"What? Seryoso ka ba diyan? Hey,where is your common sense dear? Poor you,problemadong-problemado ka yata." I sighed.
"Yes,I do have lots of problem. And yes,I'm going to be crazy. Nakakabaliw na problema,ang meron ako!" I yelled and out of frustration. Sinabunutan ko na 'yung sarili kong buhok!
Hindi ko na alam,alam niyo bang hating-hati ang oras ko sa dalawang 'yun. Gosh! Si Frost? Ayaw na ayaw na umaalis ako sa tabi niya! Hindi ko na kinakaya. I'm a damn cheater! But to be honest? Sobra na yata akong kinakain ng konsensya ko. Like for example. Last week. May yeah,so called date kami ni Troy,pero itong si Frost,tumawag sa kalagitnaan ng date namin and guess what? He did a random story! Kesyo raw,sobrang sakit ng tummy niya. At dahil nataranta ako? I make an excuse to Troy and I found out, na hindi naman pala masakit ang tiyan niya! Gaadh! Can you believe that? Sobrang naasar talaga ako by that time kay Frost!
He don't even need to make a random story. I'm doing my best,pero hindi ko pa talaga kaya. I can't. I can't broke up with Troy,right now. With no valid reason. Humahanap pa ako ng right time. But,Frost didn't listen to my excuses. After nu'n? Hindi na niya ako pinansin! So I did. Hindi ko rin siya pinansin.
I don't believe that I involve myself,in this damn situation. Between those guys. Asar!
"She can't attend the shoot today manager. Yes po,she's sick. Oh sure. Bye manager"
I arched my brow. Ano bang pinagsasabi ni Kelly?
"Kelly!? What is the meaning of that?" Damn! Importanteng araw 'to. Guess ko sa isang show! At sa shoot ng movie.And I need to go there.
"Look,Zen. Hindi mo ba nararamadaman? For petes sake! Nilalagnat ka na kaya!" Kinapa ko 'yung sarili ko. Hindi ko na alam.
"Zen? Nasabi ko naman na lahat kay manager and she agreed na magpahinga ka muna. So please lang,iuuwi na kita sa condo mo. You need a rest." I sighed.
Kelly drive me home,siguro kasi nahihilo narin ako at sobrang sama na ng pakiramdam ko. I didn't bother my phone,Frost is calling. I don't want to talk to him nor to feel his presence. Ayoko. Gusto ko munang panandaliang iwan ang problema ko.
"Are you sure na ayaw mong samahan kita rito?" I nodded my head.
"Sure?" Urgh.
"Kelly? How many times,did I needed to nod my head? Umalis ka na nga!" Tinawanan niya ako.
"Bwisit! May sakit ka na pero nakukuha mo paring magsungit? Ito na,aalis na. Kapag hindi mo na kaya,just call me? Right?"
"Yeah,yeah" told her while gesturing my hand. Na okay na,umalis na siya.
But,truth was. Hindi ko kaya,ayoko lang magpa-asikaso kay Kelly. She's busy with her own life. At ayokong mang-abala pa,lalo na may sakit lang ako. This is an disavantage for person,like me,that is independent. Walang mag-aasikaso sa'yo when you were sick. Not unlike to those dependent person,I don't want to disturb my big bro. I know,he's in palawan. Busy with his business. Dad and mom? They're not here.
Troy? Ayoko ng dagdagan pa ang mga kasalanan ko sa kaniya. Everytime I see Troy,isinasampal at ipinamumukha lang sa'kin ang mga ginagawa ko. Besides,kasasabi ko lang kanina. Ayoko muna silang banggiting dalawa nor think about them. I need a peace of mind. Please.
I rested my head on the couch and hug my knees. Ngayon nalang ulit ako tinamaan ng sakit.
I felt my phone's vibrating and it's flashing,Frost name. Him again.
I ignore it. Ayoko siyang kausapin,so I decided to off my phone.
He's making me a very bad person,hindi ko alam bakit parang sa kaniya nalang umiikot ang mundo ko. And it's very alarming. I shouldn't let him control me. But when he's around,I can't stop myself. Do what he wanted to do. Still,in the end of the day? He'll win. And I'm the loser. See?
I frowned. Who the hell was that. Someone is outside. Gusto ko sanang silipin sa intercom,but I can't. Para bang gusto ko ng matulog. Bumibigat na ang mga mata ko.
"Shit! You're sick!" I hear what he say. I dunno. My vision becomes blurry,at parang nabingi narin ako and I fell asleep.
....
I woke up because I smell something. And shit! My head ache,damn much. Sinapo ko ang noo ko. Gadh! Ang sama parin ng pakiramdam ko. How can I go to work,in this kind of feeling.
I was about to get out of my bed,when I saw him. What the hell is he doing here?
"Frost!?" Kinusot-kusot ko ang mata ko. To make sure na hindi ako nagha-halucinate lang. And viola,he's real. He's here,inside my room.
Na out balance ako ng wala sa oras. And he went over to help me. Napa-upo na kasi ako sa floor.
"Shit! Do I need to bring you to the hospital? No,I'll call my private doctor. You really need t----" I held his hand.
"No,you didn't need to do that. I'm fine,Frost. I need rest. Just a rest. Don't worry,I'll be okay." I hear him sighed.
Nilagay niya sa noo ko ang likod ng kamay niya. Gadh! Bakit ba ako kinikilig! Ako na ang maharot na may sakit!
"Fuck! Why isn't your temperature is normal? Damn. Lalo lang yatang tumaas!" I dunno what I am doing,I hugged Frost.
Siguro dala narin ng sakit ko. "I miss you,Frost." I said almost a whisper.
He kiss the top of my head. And said that words that made my heart,wild."I miss you more,Zendrea."
I feel his hand on my back. "I'm sorry for what I've did last time,Zendrea. I just want you mine,alone." Hindi ko alam kung papaano pa akong nakakangiti sa lagay na 'to. I don't know what kind of spell you cast on me,Frost Fajardo. Kaasar ka!
"It's okay." I close my eyes and hugged him,tight.
Was I'm bad,if I want Frost and not Troy? Frost can do impossible things,I dunno. Nagagawa niya 'yung mga inakala kong hindi magagawa ni Troy. I'm not comparing Troy to Frost,but. Okay,I was really comparing him to Frost. Hindi ko alam kung bakit,maybe may kulang rin si Troy.
At mas lalong malaki ang pagkukulang ko. I eat my own words. Na hindi ako mahuhulog kay Frost. But what can I do? I can't resist him.
"You should rest,queen. Don't worry,I'm just here,beside you." Inayos niya ako ng higa sa kama ko,saka ako tinabihan and I rested my head on his chest. Ang bango-bango ni Frost,nakakainis! Here I am,sick. Pero nakukuha pang lumandi.
"Zendrea.." I looked up to take a glance on him.
"Hm?"
"I'm giving you time. I won't bother you anymore,for the meantime." Naguluhan ako sa sinabi niya. What did he mean,by that? Na aalis siya? Na hindi muna kami mag-uusap?
Yeah. Kasasabi ko lang,na ayaw ko siyang makita,makausap o maramdaman ang presensya niya! But damn. Hindi ko pala kaya. Nasasabi ko lang kasi,wala siya. Pero kapag nandiyan siya,parang ayaw ko ng mahiwalay sa tabi niya. Was I'm getting too dependent to him?
"Frost,no. I'll do a way. Just please. Don't." He looked away.
"I know,I told you to date me, secretly. But I want you whole,Zendrea." Nagbuntong hininga ako.
"Tomorrow,Frost. Tomorrow." Biglang umaliwalas ang mukha niya.
"Really?" He ask.
I nodded my head and said "Yes."
Wala na 'tong urungan.
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