The next couple of weeks were pure hell for me. Not only was I not allowed to see the love of my life, but I was grounded. Meaning no phone, no TV, and no going out. I was only allowed to study and read. I didn't know Dad could be this strict. It was really bothering me that he showed so much anger towards Zoey, and he hadn't even got to know him. The only time I was able to talk to my boyfriend, was during school.
I walked into my 2nd period class, and took my seat in the front. The familiar smell of Axe filled my nose as he slid into the seat next to me. I laid my head on his chest and quietly played with his fingers while the teacher began her lesson. He kissed the top of my head and slowly rubbed my side. I missed him so much. I haven't gotten a good night sleep in weeks because I haven't woken up in his arms. I sighed heavily and let go of his hands and started taking notes. 45 minutes later, the class ended. As the bell sounded off, I gathered my things to go to my next class.
Before I could walk out the door, Zoey grabbed my arm. I turned to face him trying to avoid his gaze, knowing it would only make me more upset. He held my chin up the tears immediately fell from my eyes. He sighed and pulled me closer to him, allowing me to cry into his chest. He whispered sweet nothings into my ear and rubbed my back until my cries ended. I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand and sighed, pushing a piece of my hair behind my ear.
"I miss you as much as you miss me baby girl." He sighed, placing his forehead against mine.
"Well let's just skip school for today." I suggested, sniffling. "Go down to the lake and just hang out for the rest of the day."
"Sounds fine to me." He shrugged. "I ain't held you in my arms in a minute."
"I know right." I groaned. "Let's go."
I grabbed his hand and hurried towards the large exit doors. We got into his car and started driving down to the lake. When we got there, he set up the trunk and we laid down and listened to the calming sound of each other breathing and the sounds of the various insects flying about.
"Your dad is tripping man." Zoey sighed. "I ain't done nothing to hurt you, and I ain't never disrespected him until he disrespected me."
"He has no right to be overprotective." I mumbled. "He missed out on my entire childhood, so he can't be super dad all of a sudden."
"True." Zoey nodded. "You need to talk to him, make him realize you ain't that same little girl he bailed out on 12 years ago."
"I haven't talked to him since he told me I couldn't see you in more." I said to him. "And I don't plan on talking to him any time soon."
"Ay baby, I'm tired of us moping around and shit." He sat up. "I ain't seen that cute ass smile of yours in weeks."
"I don't feel like smiling." I groaned and covered my face.
"Does the tickle monster need to make an appearance todayyyyy?" He moved my hands and held them above my head with one hand.
"Don't you dare Zoey." I glared at him.
With his free hand, he started tickling me, causing me to laugh uncontrollably. Tears filled my eyes trying to pull away from him. He stopped and chuckled, leaning down close to my face, brushing his lips over mine. I placed my right arm around him and placed my left hand against his face, pressing my lips against his. His tongue slowly eased it's way into my mouth, rolling over mine, causing me to whimper. Zoey flipped us over, laying me on top of him. His hands ran down my back and firmly began to grip my butt. I moaned into his mouth feeling him move my hips against his.
After a few minutes of that, he flipped us back over, caressing my entire body. He pulled away from my lips and attacked the sweet spots on my neck. I moaned and ran my fingers through his thick head of hair. I gasped, feeling his cold hand slip up under the skirt I sported. His fingers ran over my lower area, causing me to lay my head back and close my eyes, entering a pleasure filled paradise. His fingers slipped in between my "lips", giving me nothing but pleasure. My eyes shot open feeling two of his slender fingers enter me. My face scrunched up feeling nothing but pain as his fingers moved in and out of me.
"Z-Zoey s-stop p--." I tried to say.
"Just be quiet baby, it'll feel better soon." He said to me.
I continued to try and move his hands but he was way stronger than me. Visions of what Jim had done to me flooded my mind. Tears immediately shot out of my eyes and I shrieked, catching Zoey off guard. Seeing how scared I was, he quickly pulled his hand out and wiped it on a towel that was near him. He tried to wrap his arms around me and I scooted away. I felt helpless, just as I had felt when Jim wouldn't stop. He said the exact words Zoey had said when he first began touching me. Even after he had realized what he'd done, Zoey's apologies went in one ear and out the other..
"Baby wait, just listen to me." He begged. "I ain't mean to scare you Savannah I swear. I just got carried away with things.. you gotta believe me baby. You know I would never hurt you in that way."
"... Just take me home." I sniffled, wiping my face.
He sighed and we both got out of the trunk and got back into the car. The entire ride back to my house was silent. I didn't want to talk, let alone be near him. Maybe Dad was right about Zoey.. he just can't control himself and that scares me. What if one day he doesn't stop? I wouldn't be able to handle it.. it would for sure send me into another deep depression. As we pulled into the driveway, I let out a sigh of relief only seeing Regina's car. Zoey tried to kiss my cheek but I held my hand up, grabbing my things and walking towards the door. I turned around and watched him give me a saddened look before driving back down the road.
I walked into the house and saw Regina nervously tapping her dark purple nails against the countertop with the house phone in her hands. When she saw me, she gave me a disappointed look, pointing to the kitchen chair, telling me to sit down. I dropped my book bag and plopped down in the chair, laying my had on the glass table.
"Savannah," She spoke in a low tone. "Your school called. You've missed every class after your first period. You had me worried sick."
"Zoey and I decided to skip." I mumbled. "I totally regret that now.."
"Tell me what happened sweetie.." She sat down across from me, rubbing my hand.
"We went down to the lake and were just talking and stuff, and then we kissed.. and it became more heated.. he just wouldn't stop Regina." I began to cry into my hands.
"Oh sweetheart." She pulled me closer to her. "Teenagers have these raging hormones and they just control themselves. I'm sure Zoey didn't mean any harm, but you have to set boundaries. If you're not ready for anything sexual, don't let your kisses become to intense. Stop things before they go too far. Zoey and I have talked, and we both understood what happened to you back at home, and he promised me that he would never make you feel that way. Sometimes the men in our lives screw up, they can't always be perfect honey. But you know you've got a good man, when he knows when he's wrong and he tries every possible thing to earn your forgiveness. Wait it out and see, if Zoey is truly what he says he is..." She explained to me, rubbing my head.
"Thank you so much Regina." I smiled through my tears. "I knew you'd understand."
"You're welcome Savannah." She smiled back. "I'll make sure your father doesn't find out about any of this."
"You're the best." I kissed her cheek before grabbing my bag and hurrying back up to my room.
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Later that night after finishing my homework, studying, and a long relaxing bath, I was ready to call it a night. As I was pulling my hair into a large bun, I heard my laptop ringing on my bed. Flopping down on my bed, I opened my laptop, answering the Skype. I quickly regretted it seeing Zoey's face pop up. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms, annoyed already.
"What Zoey?" I said, glaring at him.
"Baby don't be like that." He sighed. "I been calling and texting you all night. I know I fucked up, I fucked up real bad. I ain't never had to deal with no type of situation like this. You know, all the shit you been through with your stepdad. It's a lot for me to take in too.. Baby I really do apologize, I know I went too far. I gotta learn how to respect you and how you feel about things. I should've listened to you when you told me to stop.. Not talking to you for these few hours has been killing me babygirl. I can't stand you being mad at me, I miss you. Can you please forgive me baby?"
"I can't forgive you that quickly but, I appreciate you making efforts to let me know how sorry you are." I said to him. "But you gotta do more than that."
"I'll do whatever it takes Savannah." He said seriously. "If it'll earn your true forgiveness, I'll do it."
"Mm, okay." I rubbed the side of my arm. "I'm tired, so, I guess I'll see you at school tomorrow.."
"Alright baby." He nodded. "I love you."
"... I love you too."
I closed my laptop and placed it back on my nightstand. After turning my lamp off and bundling up under the soft covers, I smiled to myself. Watching Zoey practically beg for my forgiveness should be fun...