Demi's POV
It's been a couple days since I had to take Anna to the doctor. She was acting really weird that night and the morning after. I kept pressing her to talk because I've learned that if you don't pressure her into talking when somethings wrong she will hold it all inside until she just breaks and does something bad. She wont even tell me when somethings wrong but you can always tell by the way she acts. Well at least I can. I don't think other people notice the slight changes in her personality when she's holding something back. I finally got her to break down and tell me what was going on. She got really pissed at me for pressuring her, but now every things fine and she's been doing amazing with her recovery. She basically told me that she felt like she disappointed me for not telling me that she was in pain and that she only didn't tell me because she was embarrassed. She also said she was still embarrassed about going to the doctor for it because she felt like a slut. Honestly I never thought I would hear the word 'slut' come out of her mouth because she seems so innocent, but it did. After she said it, it was really cute because she got all nervous and threw her hand over her mouth and kept apologizing for saying it because she thought I would get mad at her for using a word like that. I laughed at her and let her know that I could care less if she said it and she could curse or whatever if she really wanted to, because I don't give a fuck. Now that I got all of that out of her she's been back to normal. Actually she's better than normal. She doesn't seem like she's scared to tell me anything anymore and I feel like I can tell her anything too if I need to. For some reason that one conversation ended any awkwardness that was still between us.
Nick has been staying over a lot lately. We've been getting really close and I think he's ready to take things to the next level because he keeps pushing himself on me, but I'm not ready. Something just doesn't feel right about it. Anyway, tonight I have a concert here in LA and then in the morning we go to film our interview for Ellen. Right now Jill is working on my makeup while I'm laughing at Anna who's practically bouncing off the walls in excitement from getting to see one of my concerts. She told me she's never been to a concert before. Sometimes I forget that she's never had much before I adopted her. Thankfully she wasn't in foster care for long, but her biological family struggled with money still. Now that she's kind of gotten over her anger from the accident she's told me more about her life before all of this happened. I can tell that she misses them so much even if she wasn't treated the best by them. Her mom had to support all 3 of the kids and her grandma who started living with them when her grandpa got sick. She didn't get child support from their father who was in prison and her only job was running a dance studio which she only did so her two daughters could do what they love. She seems like she was an amazing lady. Anna said her mom never bought herself anything and saved every extra penny they had to go on a family vacation once a year. That's when the accident happened. When they were on their vacation that their mom worked so hard to pay for. It's so sad, but I'm so glad Anna's finally opening up and trusting me completely. Jill finished my makeup and I changed into my outfit for soundcheck while Anna was on Twitter on her phone humming some of my songs. She's in for a surprise tonight!
I walked on stage for soundcheck to the few hundred screaming Lovatics. I sung Catch Me, Really Don't Care, and a cover of Stay. After those songs Natalie came out for the Q&A part of soundcheck. "Everybody welcome my friend Natalie! She's single and ready to mingle," I said and Natalie playfully slapped my arm. I looked out to see everyone was holding up signs that said #LesbianForNatalie and I completely lost it. I was laughing so hard I could barely catch my breath. Once I finally calmed down Natalie was glaring at me. "Okay, first question!" I said nervously, afraid of the revenge Natalie was planning. Hey, it isn't my fault everyone held up signs! I may or may not have tweeted with that hashtag last night, but it still isn't my fault!
"First question is would you rather die being murdered by Natalie, or being murdered by Natalie?"
"Oooooo, someones a little feisty!" I said poking Natalie who bit at my finger.
"Okay, back to the questions. If you could collab with any artist, who would it be?"
"Kelly Clarkson of course," I said, but then I heard people chanting different names in the audience and it made me think of a bunch more people who I would collab with. "And Ed Sheeren, Beyonce, Christina Perri, oh God theres so many," I added.
"What's your favorite song off of Demi?"
"I really like Nightingale right now. It just holds so much meaning to me,"
"Okay, last one. What's your favorite dance move?" I laughed and then did a 'dance move' from Spongebob.
"I have one last song for you guys. I hope you don't mind, but I have a special guest here to sing it with me. She has done a beautiful cover of this song so I figured I'd let her sing it with me. Everyone welcome the one, the only, Anna Brown!" I said as Anna was pushed onstage and stood there shocked. "Hey, Anna," I said and I waved at her. She was standing on the edge of the stage not really knowing what was going on.
"Uh, hi demi?" she said questionably as she waved back to me awkwardly.
"Can you come sing this song with me?" I asked
"Uh I guess," she said as she walked over to me. I wrapped my arm around her tiny frame realizing that this is her first time on stage without her wig. That explains why she's being so shy. She still isn't very confident without her wig. Her hair is growing back now that she's been done with chemo, but it is really short, thin, and whispy still. It's like she has peach fuzz on her head. I think it's adorable, but she hates it. I feel like this is the perfect song for her to sing right now. Mike, my guitarist started strumming the opening chords to Believe in Me.
"I'm losing myself
Trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak
I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, I just wanna believe in me" I sang.
"La la la la la la la la" We both sang
"The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile
I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through" Anna sang and I could see her getting really emotional. I'm so proud of her and how far she's come in such a short amount of time.
"Not gonna be afraid
I'm going to wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
So you see, now, now I believe in me
Now I believe in me" We both finished. I could tell Anna meant it when she sang the last chorus with me. It made me even prouder. Her confidence level just skyrocketed just from singing that song. I think she's finally starting to see herself how I see her. When the song finished I pulled Anna into probably the tightest hug ever. She was crying, but they weren't tears from sadness this time.
"I'm SO proud of you baby girl," I said into her ear. She clung onto me even tighter knowing exactly why I was proud of her then she pulled away from the hug. With tears in her eyes and her face red from crying she said, "I'm never going to be able to thank you enough Demi. You've done so much for me and I would've never expected my life to turn out like this. I never expected to be happy or feel beautiful, but you made that happen. Thank you so much for everything. I love you so so much!" I felt myself getting teary eyed too so I pulled her back into a hug and we were both crying.
"WE LOVE YOU ANNA! YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!" a group of girls shouted from the audience and both of us laughed. We pulled away from the hug and Anna went of stage waving to everyone.
"Sorry, we kind of had a moment there," I said while giggling a bit and wiping my eyes. "I'll see you guys at meet and greet," I said before exiting the stage.
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I'm about halfway through meet and greet. This is one of my favorite parts of this job. It's so much fun meeting all of my Lovatics. I'm saying goodbye to the one who was in with me now when I hear yelling from the other side of the curtain thing that separates me from all of my Lovatics. Max wont let me go see what's going on. I waited for what seems like forever before the screaming stopped and the next girl came in. Her eyes were red and puffy like she'd been crying but she wore a huge smile on her face. Wait, I know her! It's that girl from starbucks! We took our picture together and before she left I stopped her. "Hey, it's Isabella right?" I asked.
"Y-yeah, you remember me?"
"Of course I remember you! Look, I really wish you could stay and we could talk, but I have about another hundred Lovatics waiting to meet me. If I give you a pass do you think you could come back to my dressing room after the show? I really want to talk to you," I asked. I need to figure out what's going on. I know I have a ton of other Lovatics going through stuff too, but something seems different about this. I don't know what it is, but for some reason I can't stand seeing her like this. It kind of feels like how I feel about Anna, but different. I don't know, I can't explain it.
"Uh yeah, sure. It's not like I have anywhere else to go," she answer, but she said the last part under her breath hoping I wouldn't hear it, but I did. I grabbed a pass from Max.
"Okay, here. Don't let anyone but the guards see this and come back to my dressing room after the concerts over. If you need help finding it ask one of the guards. There pretty much everywhere. Make sure you don't tell anyone about it," I said.
"Okay, thank you," she said before she left.
A/N
I know it's crappy, but I haven't updated in forever and I wanted to update so yeah... It's kind of a filler foreshadowing some things that are gonna be happening soon...