Chapter 26
Feelings
Brett Lawrence's POV:
I've been busy for the past few days. Last week hindi ko na nga nagawang makapagpaalam kay Arianne na aalis ako kasi I was so preoccupied with her. k
Kaya nawala sa isip ko ang schedule ko. Not that I am putting the blame on her.
Anyway, may naka schedule pala kaming two day concert sa Las Vegas Nevada, USA. We needed to three days ahead before the said event kasi may rehearsals pa kami. It was an all star cast with all my fellow artists under the same label. If Anya, my manager didn't remind me a day before our flight nasabi ko na sana kay Arianne agad. Kaso I was running out of time, gahol na ako and Anya is constantly nagging at me.
The flight was long and we had rehearsals immediately when we got there. I was busy practicing my production number and doing meet and greet with the fans. Also I met a bunch of sponsors. My week was fully booked! Maswerte na nga ko at nakakatulog ako nun ng 4 hours.
So, dahil nga alam kong may kasalanan ako kay Arianne I made sure na after ng event ay makabalik ulit ako ng bansa. After ng gig na yun I immediately booked the earliest flight possible. I need to make it up to her. I promised her that I'll catch her when she falls but how can she fall for me if I'm neglecting her?
So I came in prepared and bought a bouquet of pink roses so that I can have a peace offering for her. Dumiretso agad ako sa bahay nila kasi I know by this time pauwi na siya. So ayun nagabang ako sa labas ng bahay nila and I was standing and leaning on the side of my car.
I was so excited to see her. This may sound weird and funny, but I've never been excited to see a woman before. I was looking forward to seeing her that I didn't realize that I missed her. I even couldn't believe in myself that I missed that woman. Somehow I grew fond of her. Na gusto ko siya nakakausap at nakikita sa bawat araw araw. I was longing for her. I don't know what's with that woman that makes me drawn to her. She was like a magnet pulling me towards her. And also, I don't know what's with me for feeling this way.
Somehow, I am feeling guilty. There are a lot of things that she doesn't know and there is no way I will let her know that. A part of me says that what I am doing is wrong. But why does it seems to be so right? It may sound absurd but I can't back out now. I guess, I've already started this game.
I sighed. I know I have to stood in my ground. I just think to myself that this is for the better. This is for the peace of all. Whenever I think of Arianne's smiling face my heart stings. But it also warms my heart to see her smile. It's like I'll pay a whole lot of money to see that view.
I was out of my reverie when I saw an unfamiliar vehicle stopped in front of the Dominguez's residence. Agad akong napa ayos ng tayo and suspiciously looked at the car. I know Arianne's car. And was also familiar with her brother's and her grandfather's automobile. Agad napakunot ang noo ko.
Lalo naman napakunot ang noo ko when I saw a man emerged from the driver's seat and jog his way to the other side and it seems like he has company. Pinagbukas niya pa ng pinto.
And I unconsciously formed my fists into balls when I saw the familiar woman getting out of the passenger side. I don't know pero bigla na lang uminit ang ulo ko. I was trying to calm myself. I don't want to cause any scene. Nakita ko pa nagusap pa sila and it hurt my heart a little when I saw her smile and animatedly talk with guy I do not know of.
What are they talking about? Why is this dude ain't leaving yet? How long have been together? Who is that scumbag? A lot of questions keeps popping on my head. I really really want to punch that guys face. Naiirita ko sa kanya. He is nothing but an eye sore. Bakit ba hindi pa siya umuwi kung saang lupalop siya nakatira at lubayan niya na si Arianne?
I really want to barge in in their little bubble. But I was hesitating I don't want to cause a scene outside Arianne's house. I'm sure she'll be fuming mad at me. At para na kong bombang sasabog lalo na nung makita ko na hinalikan ng hinayupak na yun si Arianne sa pisngi!
What the hell?! That is foul! Does he even know that the woman he is with right now is my wife? I want to break that @sshole's face. I clenched my jaw. I tried calming myself.
Brett you are here because you need to make up with Arianne. I keep reminding myself why I'm here. But it doesn't seem to work. Nalingat lang ako meron na agad iba? Ano yun? Wow! Magic? I don't know but it just hurt.
I am seeing red that I didn't realize that the asungot's car already left. Nakita ko kung paano rumehistro ang gulat sa magandang mukha ni Arianne. Caught in the act? I saw it in her eyes na pupuntahan niya ko kaya naman agad akong pumasok sa kotse ko at agad pinasibad iyon.
Ayaw ko munang maka usap siya ngayon. Because I am mad and I am so confused why my heart hurts.
I didn't know that I reached Hervin Seth's place. He is my best bud after all. Dire diretso lang akong pumasok sa bahay niya. i didn't know that I brought the flowers I bought for Arianne. Napatawa na lang ako ng pagak at nailing. Hinagis ko naman ang bulaklak sa couch ni Hervin at nagulat naman ang kaibigan ko.
"Brett! Hayop ka nagulat ako sa'yo!" Asik nito sakin. Hindi ko siya pinansin ang diretso ko nagpunta sa ref niya para kumuha ng beer.
Agad naman ako bumalik sa pwesto niya. At umupo sa lazy boy katabi lang ng sofang inuupuan niya.
"Wow! Dire diretso ka lang at dinaanan mo lang ako na parang hangin? Bahay mo 'to?" Asar na sabi sakin ni Brett at binaba ang cellphone niya na hawak niya sa coffee table.
"Ang ingay mo. Parang di ka dire diretso sa bahay kong ungas ka." Sabi ko at binuksan ang beer at lumagok agad.
"Ang sweet mo ha. May pa bulaklak ka pa sa akin ngayon. Bro di tayo talo alam mong ikakasal na kami ni Mimi. Di ko naman alam na type mo ko." Pangbubuska niya matapos niya tingnan ang bouquet tapos hinampas ako sa likod. Inirapan ko lang siya at uminom na lang ulit.
"Bakit ka ba andito? Na basted ka ba?" Biglang pagseseryoso niya.
"Hindi." Tipid na sagot ko at sinamaan siya ng tingin.
"E ano? Kanino ba to?" Pangungulit niya. Edi ayun wala din naman akong magagawa kung hindi magkwento. Dahil kakasama ni Hervin Seth sa fiance niya nahawa na ata siya ng pagka chismoso. Pero mas okay na din yun para mawala na yung inis ko.
"You already have feelings for her, don't you?" Nangiinis na tanong ni Brett. Inirapan ko na lang ulit siya saka umiling.
"That's impossible. Alam mo naman di ba?" I told him.
"Brett, you seriously don't understand what you got yourself into?" Sabi ni Hervin Seth sakin and he was serious because he was his face says it all.
"I know what I got myself into. You don't need to remind me." I brushed off what he is feeding in my mind dahil sa mga pinagsasabi niya.
"There is nothing impossible, Brett. Especially in your situation. Why don't you just enjoy it? After all, sa ginagawa mo pareho lang naman kayo ni AriSha magbe benefit. Don't hold back yourself. Tutal naman pinasok mo na 'yan then engage yourself into it also. Loosen up and let go. Wala naman mawawala sayo." Mahabang lintanya ni Hervin.
"I feel guilty." I confessed. Napahilamos ko na lang ang kamay ko sa mukha ko.
"Alam mo Brett malala ka na. You are starting to have feelings for Arianne your just to naive to accept it." Natatawa naman si Hervin sakin.
Binato ko na lang si Seth ng unan at tawa naman ng tawa ito.
Am I really developing feelings for that woman? I am confused. Because my brain says no but my heart is already saying yes.