YOHAN
She cried.
She freaking cried.
I heard the MC saying something but my thoughts are not into their cheers.
I'm staring at Dessirie hanggang sa nakita kong umalis siya.
Nakaramdam ako ng sakit at agad na bumaba sa stage para hanapin siya.
I can't lose her this time. No way!
I'm still looking for her. Baka nasa Crowd lang siya.
Until i heard the MC saying her name at the stage.
Napako ang tingin ko sa kanya.
Kumabog nang mabilis ang puso ko.
Until she spoke the words that I want to hear for a long time.
DESSIRIE
Sa sobrang gulat ko sa Paghalik sa akin ni Yohan. Hindi ko namalayan na Inuwi niya nalang pala ako. Buti nalang kasi If I'll be going to the Bakeshop I might make mistakes.
I didn't utter any words. Kasi hanggang ngayon nag Loloading parin ako. Hanggang sa ginagamot niya na pala 'yong mga natamo kong sugat. Hindi ko naman naramdaman. Namanhid ata dahil sa nangyari kanina.
Nang matapos siya, Agad naman ako pumunta sa Kuwarto at agad na nagkulong. Thinking about anything.
Like how will i approach him? Paano ko siya haharapin. Oo nga Crush-na-mahal ko siya pero 'di naman given yung kapag hahalikan niya nalang ako bigla! It was my First kiss okay!
And I'm glad na sa kanya na punta pero... it's just for those girls to believe. Still hindi parin makatotohanan.
So, Tomorrow is the day.
I hope it will be okay.
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As i woke up. Sinadya ko talagang magising ng maaga. Para hindi ko siya makasabay and to prepare for that audition.
Napansin rin siguro ni Tita na tahimik ako and I'm not talking like i used to every morning.
Nagpaalam na ako sa kanya at pumasok sa school.
Habang nag-aantay sa Music Room, kahit na alam ko na nag-uumpisa na.
Pinapalabas na nga ako ni Ace eh. Kasi nga si Yohan na daw yung nakanta.
So ayun Pumunta ako sa Crowd. Nakipagsiksikan. Makita at marinig lang siya.
Nakita kong pumikit siya as he sing.
It was My Escape by Ravenscode.
'Yon yung Kinakanta niya sa akin.
5 years ago. It is his Favorite. 'Yon daw kasi 'yong kanta niya kay Rie. Which is me. Thanking ME for everything. For being by his side whenever he feels alone.
As he sing, I cry.
Kasi narealize ko nalang na He was singing because he wants to fulfill my dream that became our dream.
Naalala ko lahat lahat.
Until he Opened his eyes and roaming his eyes to the crowd. Until our eyes met.
As he finished the song. He's still staring at me as we stare at each other.
Until i heard the MC na it's time for the next person na magpeperform- which is me.
So nagmadali na akong umalis sa crowd at pinahid ang luha. As i go to the backstage and saw Ace. He's cheering me up. Nginitian ko lang siya at as i hear my Name. Lumabas na ako.
Nakita kong maraming nagulat at nagtataka kung bakit ako nandon. May naririnig pa nga akong nang-aasar do'n o kung lait man na kung marunong ba daw ako kumanta.
Silly, kaya nga ako nag audition.
Lumapit ako sa Mic na nakalagay sa isang stand.
As i stare to the crowd I uttered an Awkward "H-Hi! I'm Dessirie Gonzalez" to them.
"I'm about to sing Crush by David Archulleta. I dedicate it to him.
After this sana huwag kang magalit.'Coz you know" I said and smiled.
Kahit na nakita ko siyang shocked at nalilito. Hindi ko muna siya titignan.
As the music play i started to sing with my heart.
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush
What a rush
This time nakatingin na ako sa kanya
As his jaw dropped at the moment.
I smiled.
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much
Just too much
I wish he felt it too. The feeling that i bear for a very long time.
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know
He got me with just a snap. He's so cool. I wish this is true. Everything is true. Hindi ko siya maalis sa isip ko kahit ilang beses ko ng sinabing I'll give up. But instead I'm still taking the risk.
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be?
Where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
I smiled at him. I really am Inlove to you, Yohan Mendez and I'm crazy to be your stalker.
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you?
Are you holding back
Like the way you do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away
Going away
Nitong nakaraang araw nararamdaman ko na siya. I just wish that we feel the same. Sana naman talaga.
Kahit na nagtry akong magpaalam sa kanya, in a way na hindi niya na ako makikita. Pinigilan niya ako and He just said na he will try. Pinanghahawakan ko pa rin 'yon.
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, boy, are we just friends?
Is there more? Is there more? (Is there more)
Nakita kong may tumawa dahil pinalitan ko yung 'girl' sa lyrics into 'boy' kasi i dedicate this song to him naman eh.
Sana itong pinaparamdam niya sa akin hindi 'yong katulad sa Rie noon na bestfriend niya lang. I want more than friends. Tss.
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make
This into something that'll last
Last forever, forever
Nalungkot ako sa part na 'to. Kasi I won't last forever. But my feelings for him, will.
I cried.
Do you catch a breath,
When I look at you,
Are you holding back,
Like the way I do,
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't going away ya ya ya yaaa
(this crush ain't) going away ya ya ya yaaa
(goin' away) going away ya ya ya yaaa
(when you're all alone
All that we could be,
Where this thing could go)
Going away ya ya ya yaaa
Nang matapos akong kumanta. I saw him leaving. Leaving me sad.
Pumunta nalang ako ng Backstage and saw Ace. He just smiled at me and pat my Head. Susunod na kasi siya.
Nang nakababa na ako sa Backstage.
I'm still looking at the ground. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta ngayon. Until i saw a pair of shoes standing in front of me.
I thought my Heart stopped beating because I know it was him. Natense ako na ewan!
"Hey, Look at me..." he said with a husky voice.
What the!
Nagmatigas lang ako at nagpaka estatwa sa harap niya.
Until he lift my chin up. Facing him.
I saw relief and longing in his eyes.
"Bakit hindi mo sinabi na ikaw si... Rie?" He said hanggang sa nakita kong may luhang tumakas sa mga mata niya.
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11/20/16
SUNDAY (MAY PASOK BUKAS 💔)