Chapter 36: The Hardest Thing
Andrew's POV...
I really can't believe that this chaos is really happening to us. I never anticipated for things to turn out this way.
Pretty babe and I were doing great and seems to have a good future on raising our own family. But it all crashed down when Cheska came into the scene.
Fuck it! Every time I would remember that bitch's face and annoying shits on getting me back, I want to throw anything in front of me.
Gusto kong magwala sa galit. Gusto kong manakit ng tao. Lalong lalo na kung si Cheska ang kaharap ko.
I want to throttle her neck and squeeze it till she cries for mercy. I want her to feel the pain she's causing to us, especially to my pretty babe.
Alex doesn't deserve any of this bullshit. Wala naman siyang ginawa para magdusa siya sa mga ganitong sitwasyon.
If only I could do something to take away the pain that she feels right now, I would. Kahit na ano gagawin ko para lang bumalik yung dating sigla at kaligayahan sa buhay niya.
She walked out on me today. She walked out of my life for good, with all her things. Wala na siya.
I tried to stop her but she resisted. I understand her anger and outrage. Kahit sino ay hindi matutuwa sa mga nangyayari.
Worst, she's pregnant, with my babe. Bakit ngayon pa nangyar itong mga kaguluhan na ito kung kelan okay na ang buhay namin?
Kung kelan magkaka-baby na kami? Kung kelan magpapakasal na kami dito si Pilipinas in a few week's time?
Shit. Fuck. I am so fucked up.
Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam nang ganitong sakit. Sakit nang mawalan ng taong napakaimportante saken.
Alex is my life now. My reason for living and waking up each morning. Siya na lahat.
Kung dati, nabubuhay lang ako dahil sa pansariling dahilan para palaguin ang negosyo, ngayon siya na ang nasa top priority ko.
Kagaguhan nga naman ng buhay oh. Kung kelan nakilala ko na yung taong mamahalin ko habang buhay e bakit dun pa nawala bigla?
Kailangan kong ayusin ito. Hindi lang naman basta pwede na hahayaan ko siyang mawala ng ganun-ganun lang. Kailangan ko siyang suyuin at ipaglaban.
She's worth the trouble and worth the effort. No one compares to her.
I retreated to my room to get a nice shower again to cool myself down. Pagkatapos kong maligo doon ako mag-uumpisang maghanap sa asawa ko.
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Pagkalabas ko galing sa shower, sakto ko na sanang kukunin yung shirt at jeans na susuotin ko nang biglang mahagip ng mga mata ko ang picture frame sa ibabaw ng cabinet.
It was me and Alex when we were in Hong Kong. Ito yung picture na nagkukulitan kami.
Isn't it funny how a single photograph can bring so many memories? Memories that cannot be forgotten and be forever embedded in the heart.
Shit. I'm being gay again. Umiiyak na naman ako. Bigla na lang kasing tumulo ang mga luhang to nang maalala ko ang mga masasayang moments na magkasama kami ni pretty babe.
Kung iisipin kong mabuti, wala naman akong ginawang masama para humantong kami sa ganito. Aaminin ko, siguro nga nung una may pag-aalinlangan pa ako sa kanya kaya gumawa ako ng kontrata.
But god, I never planned this whole thing! I never intended on getting any chance on divorce and be with somebody else.
I only want her. She's the only one I need for my entire life.
Siguro karma ko na ito sa mga masasamang naiisip ko noon nang nag-uumpisa pa lang kami pero wala naman talaga akong balak ituloy.
At lahat naman ng effort na ginawa ko, totoo lahat yun. Sincere ako sa mga salitang binitawan ko sa kanya.
Never akong nagbitaw ng kasinungalingan sa kanya, maliban na lang sa incident na nagkita kami ni Cheska noon sa Amerika.
Tinago ko yun dahil alam kong magdududa siya o kaya naman ay masasaktan siya. Knowing her, she gets jealous easily.
Sana pala I took Cheska's threats seriously. Tinotoo nga niyang sisirain niya kami.
Shit. That damn woman must be crazy! I never thought she would go this far. To the extent of spreading bullshits nationwide.
She'll pay for this. I will make sure that she will not get away easily on this.
But first thing, I have to search for my wife. She needs me right now. She's in pain and not on her right frame of mind.
She's driving alone, crying and upset, and..pregnant! Shit! Baka mapano pa siya, sila nung baby namin.
And with that I turned on my heel and geared up for a speedy and long-day of searching for my runaway wife.
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Shit. She's not here. Tsk. Why am I not thinking? Of course, she wouldn't be here. Because she knew I would search for her.
But where will I look for her? I don't even know where the hell she would be right now. I guess, I have to call Lawrence, Alex's older brother.
After a few minutes, I was still out of information of her whereabouts. Wala din daw kasi siya sa kanila.
Kahit si Lawrence ay nabigla din sa pagtawag ko. Buti na lang at hindi siya masyadong nagtaka kung bakit ko hinahanap si Alex.
I continued on searching for my wife. Lahat na yata ng hotel ay na-contact ko na para masiguro na nag-check in siya.
Pero wala pa rin. Pretty babe, where could you be at this moment?
Shit. I think I'm going to lose my mind. I have no idea where I could start searching again for her. Dammit!
Cheska, if something dangerous happen to my wife and soon to be baby, I will make sure to put your life in hell.
I cursed loudly at this time and kicked my car in frustration. Shit. I'm wrecked and hopeless already.
Inabot na ako ng alas dyes nang gabi pero hindi ko pa rin siya makita, kahit anino niya hindi ko mahagilap.
"Fuck!" I cursed again and pummeled the steering wheel.
Maybe, a bourbon could ease the tensions. Just a few will do.
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Hindi naman ako nagpakalasing masyado, dahil nakapagdrive pa ako ng safe pauwi ng bahay. Pagkarating ko doon ay naka-green linght ang mailbox.
Strange. Sino naman ang nagpadala ng sulat sa akin? Lahat ng transactions ko ay through e-mail.
I took it and came inside. Sa study na muna ako. Baka lalo pa akong mamatay sa sakit ng puso kapag sa kwarto ako nagtungo.
Alex's memories crash me to death. Hindi ako makahinga ng maayos sa tuwing naaalala ko yung pag-alis niya. Lalo na yung mga sinabi niya.
"There's nothing to discuss Andrew. I already know the truth. Bakit hindi mo agad sinabi sa akin na ikaw pala yung estrangherong minalas kong makaniig noon? Why? Are you afraid to make any claims for this child? Bakit di mo agad sinabi? At bakit kailangang ako pa mismo ang makaalam? Kung hindi ko siguro nakita yung brooch ko sa desk mo, malamang ay hindi mo sasabihin. How could you. And then there comes the fucking divorce. Really Andrew I thought you're different, but it just turned out you're just like the rest. I gave you my all, I trusted you, cared for you, treated you fairly and loved you more than life itself. But what have you done? You fooled me. How dare you to toy with my feelings..."
"Para ano pa? Tsk. You're insane Andrew Yoshinori. Hindi ako masochista para mag-stay pa sa bahay na ito. At lalong ayokong ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko sa taong ang tanging gusto lang pala ay divorce at wala ng iba pa. Wag mo nang ikaila pa. I heard all of it. And you know what, by knowing the truth it never helped us. Akala ko ngayong alam na natin ang totoo ay magiging okay na lahat, kaso lalo lang lumalala. Lalo pang gumulo. Nasaktan pa ako. Bye, for good. I won't see you in court. Never. Remember that Yoshinori. You and Cheska won't be happy.."
Her words pierced my heart like thousands of needles.
And then I was startled by the sudden creak of the door's study room. It was Lawrence who came in.
Maybe he knows where Alex could be. I think he'll help me finding her and bringing her back.
"Lawrence.." I greeted.
But he punched me straight in the face. I fell on the ground, my lips swollen and bleeding from the contact.
He bent down and took my collar and lifted me off the ground. His eyes were blazing anger. if only his stares could set me on fire, maybe I have been toasted a while ago.
"You jerk! How could you do that to my sister? Ano bang ginawa sayo ni Alex para parusahan mo siya ng ganoon ha? Gaguhan na lang ba, Andrew? Pinagkatiwalaan kita, I even gave my blessings on both of you, on your marriage, tapos gaguhan lang?" He spit out, his hold tightens.
"What are you talking about?" I said.
Ano naman kasing pinagsasabi niya? Bigla siyang susugod dito at manununtok nang hindi ko alam ang ikinagagalit niya?
"Cut the crap, Andrew. You know well enough what I'm talking about. Stop pretending and playing the innocent because I already saw and read it with my own two eyes. Fuck you, Yoshinori! If you planned this all along, then you succeeded!"
"Hindi ko alam ang pinagsasabi mo! Tsaka pwede ba, alisin mo yang pagkakahawak mo sa kwelyo ko. Nasa property kita, I can sue you.." He cut me off.
"I don't care if I'm in your fucking house or hell! All I want to do now is beat you till death! Alex doesn't deserve any of these bullshits! I already knew that both of you got married in Hong Kong. Tsk.. I should've prevented it, because I know your intentions on that matter. You want divorce, right? Alex never did anything to you. Did she forced you to marry her? No, for heaven's sake she never planned on tying you up on a marriage. If it's about the issue of the soon merging of our companies, you are fucking impossible! You're a selfish, manipulating and lying jerk! Well, I should congratulate you, you're free now.." He laughed bitterly.
Binitiwan niya din ako.
He tossed an envelope stacked of papers. I browsed through them and my face contorted with what it says.
Shit. This can't be. This fucking can't be!
"What's with the face, Yoshinori? Aren't you happy with what the paper tells you? You are free now. No need to file divorce. It's the Hong Kong's civil court who announced your marriage with my dear sister null and void... But you have to remember this; from now on I will never let you near her. You'll be off limits. I don't want to ever see your face in our house or even in our social gatherings. And..I'll make sure you'll never see her again." He said.
And with that, he walked away. I was still staring blankly in space to what I just learned.
Paanong nangyaring null and void ang kasal namin? Shit. I read through the whole thing again and realized my mistake.
Shit. I thought I covered that up. Shit.
Bigla akong kinutuban, I opened the envelope I just took minutes ago and saw the same shit thing.
The fuck!
I think, Cheska has got to do with this. I need to confront her now, before something outrageously threatening and chaotic will happen again.
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Nagsayang lang ako ng oras at panahon para kumprontahin siya dahil wala siya sa hotel na tinutuluyan niya.
Naubos ang buong araw ko para hanapin at patayin siya. Hindi rin naman niya sinasagot ang mga tawag ko.
Puro sa voicemail lang napupunta.
Umuwi na lang ako, magpapahinga muna ako. Pagkaparada ko ng kotse, nakita ko yung kotse ni Alex.
Is this true? Bumalik na ba talaga si Alex? Shit. Thank you Lord, at dininig niyo na din ang kahapon ko pa dinadasal.
Pagkapasok ko nang bahay, agad akong tumungo sa master's bedroom pero wala siya doon.
Baka nasa study siya at hinahanap ako. I went there, and I saw what I wanted to see for the rest of my life.
My oasis. My life. My wife.
"Alex..you're back." I whispered.
"Yes, I'm back and only to give you this." She said then stepped forward to slap me several times.
But when she was going to slap me again, I pulled her to me. I missed her so much. I missed this feeling of having her in my arms.
"Sorry, Alex. Hindi ko alam. Akala ko okay na lahat sa Hong Kong.
I never thought something like this could go wrong." I explained.
She broke into our embrace.
"Stop the drama, Andrew. I'm so fed up with all your stunts. Please, spare me. Sawang-sawa na ako, Andrew.
Tama na. And please, sana hayaan mo na ko. Lubayan mo na ako. If it's putting me in misery and shame is all you wanted,
you made it. Congratulations!" Then she laughed sarcastically.
"Mission acccomplished. Kaya sana wag na wag mo na akong lalapitan, kakausapin, tititigan o hahawakan man lang. Dahil sa bawat salita, titig, hawak at paglapit mo,
lalo mo lang akong nasasaktan. At sa tuwing nararamdaman ko yung sakit na ipinaparamdam mo hanggang ngayon, lalong tumitindi yung poot na nararamdaman
ko sayo at kay Cheska! Bye."
Then she walked away from me again. Nilampasan niya ako.
I was shocked, dumbfounded by her words. Hindi ako makagalaw. Gusto ko man siyang pigilan pero ayaw gumalaw ng mga paa ko.
"Aw. And by the way, don't expect to see your child. And for the custody perhaps." Tears streamed down her face.
I know, I know how much it hurts. I know what she feels right now. Because I also felt crying right now.
"No. I can't let it happen. Anak ko rin naman yan, Alex. Hindi lang ikaw ang magdedesisyun dyan.
Magkasama nating ginawa yan, pretty babe." I said, trying to lighten our mood.
Hoping she would eventually change her mind. But I know, deep inside, she never would have such changes of mind.
"Oh really. And what do you mean by that? Na dapat tayong dalawa?
What then? You'll make another contract to compromise?
I won't let you, Andrew. Tama nang ako na lang ang namanipula mo. Wag mo nang idamay pa ang anak ko.
Tsaka, bakit kasama ka pang magdedesisyon? Sana naisip mo yan noong napagdesisyunan mong gawin yung p*tanginang kontrata na
iyon at ang p*tanginang kasal sa Hong Kong!" She said, her back facing me.
She's trying to hold back her sobs.
"Pretty babe. No. Hindi ko rin hahayaan iyon. Kailangan niya ng ama. Isang ama na kikilalanin niya.
I'll do everything to have the rights to see him or her, whatever it takes." I begged.
"Too late to beg, Andrew. And remember, hindi na tayo kasal. From the moment you planned to deceive me, our marriage was null and
void to begin with!" She said angrily.
"Alex, pretty babe.." I whispered.
I thought I was that strong, strong at taking emotional situations. But I guess I was wrong when she dropped her final words.
"I'm not your pretty babe anymore. Alex. Alexandria Olchondra. Call me on my first name or my surname.
You have to remember that. Oh, and by the way, see you in court, maybe for the next two years.."
She mounted on her car and drove fast.
It was like a replay of yesterday's events.
I thought yesterday was the worst day of my life, yet I have to add one more day on the list, the 25th.
Merry Christmas to me. Fuck this life.
I don't get to see my wife, and our baby.
Damn. What a good way to celebrate Christmas.
A/N: I guess, Andrew needs to have a POV. Tao din naman sya, este character sa story. Hindi lang lagi si madramang Alex ang nasa spotlight. Anyway, flashbacks yan on the two days na nangyari ne? Wag po maguluhan. Next chapter will be Alex's POV again. Abangan dahil may malaking event na magaganap. I know you will all hate me for that. Hehe. Sya nga pala, pasupport naman ng upcoming new story ko dito. Title niya is FILTHY PRINCESS. Rated R yan ne? Pa-check na lang ng description para malaman niyo kung bakit FILTHY PRINCESS ang title at bakit RATED R ito. Paclick ng external link para makita niyo. Thanks! VOTE AND COMMENT na din. Alam ko demanding na ko pero wala naman kasing pumapansin sa mga demands ko. Pag ako nainis aalis na talaga ako sa WATTPAD! SWEAR. Nakakainis kasi yung mag-eefort akong mag-update tapos may magbabasa nga pero wala nmng votes o comment man lang. Wlang interaction. Hindi po ako snob. Nag-eentertain po ako ng comments. Ge, stop na ang drama. CiaoxD
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