3000 Nights

9

They glowed vibrantly in the dark cold night, reminding me he was always there...

His eyes pulled me in, encasing me in their icy depths.

I could hear him audibly sigh. It sounded like a big rush of air leaving his lungs.

He closed his eyes when he did this.

I breathed in big gulp of the brisk winter air.

His eyes and presence did unexplainable things to me.

Now I closed mine and kept them closed. I couldn't bear to watch him any longer.

We always watched eachother every night. The whole night. Until dawn. Or until I drifted to sleep uncontrollably.

But tonight, I couldn't keep my eyes on him.

Tonight they confused me and made me question my entire being. Tonight they made me weary and uncofortable.

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I woke to the sound of his mournful howl, right before dawn broke through the night sky.

I got up from my chair and looked at him one more time before I walked into my house.

His eyes held mine for a moment, making me go crazy with something dark and unspeakable, but something that has always been there, and always would.

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I woke her up with my howl in the early morning. I held her gaze for a while before I turned to go back into the thick woods.

I spent my day as far from my pack as I could manage.

I was still completly pìssed at them.

How dare they defy me like that yesterday.

I should banish all of them for that.

If we didn't need the extra pack members and fighters as bad as we did I would have, or maybe I would have killed them.

They were young and dumb, but we needed them, to train them to fight, protect and obey. So I couldn't get rid of them...

Yet.

I roamed the woods, trying to find somehing to eat. I walked quietly to the small stream running through the forest knowing I'd find something there.

To my luck there was no other pack memebers wandering around nearby. I must have scared them off yesterday.

I found a little plump rabbit nibbling on some frozen branches low to the ground.

The perfect prey. And the perfect meal on this cold morning.

After catching the scrumptious rabbit, I padded over to the stream to wash off and have a drink.

As a wolf the cold never bothers me. It's part of me and my genetic makeup.

As a human though, the freezing water would probaby just turn me right back into a wolf.

Once finished, I went back to the edges of the woods to get to the edge of her property.

I could hear yelling coming from the inside of the house. Although it seemed loud to my superhuman hearing, my mate was probably only forecfully speaking a little above a hushed whisper.

But she seemed really mad.

I listened closer.

"Are you guys stupid? How could you possibly think I would ever go for that piece of trash!?" She yelled. "UGH. You two both know how much I hate him. And how mean he's been to me; MY ENTIRE LIFE!" She screamed.

From what I could only hear from her end, I assumed she was talking to her friends. Yelling to them about the fiasco at that club last night.

"I seriously don't believe you thought I'd want a night out to fùck the biggest pervy player in town... What? Yes, of course I like guys! You know that! ....Well, because I'm not interested in any of these idiots that reside here. None of them peak my interest or tickly my fancy." She said sarcastically.

Good.

This made me happy.

I sang a little song in my head *clap along if you feel like a room without a roof*

"Ugh. I'm still so mad. I hate him, he's so gross and absolutely degrading to all women. I mean serisouly? I'd first swing the other way before actually going for that peice of scum. Ew. He said that? He actually said he like me? I don't believe you Mia. Nah, no thanks..." She scoffed. "...Yeah I know you're both just looking out for me, and want me to be happy but still... If I want a guy, I'm very capable of geting him for myself."

She started laughing at what was being said on the other end.

"Okay. Yeah I'll see you guys later. But stop playing the part of Cupid. I'm good. Yeah, I love you guys too. Bye."

She was quiet now. I wondered what she was thinking about now.

Damñ these dàmned winters.

If I could only just knock on her door and tell her she's mine and hold her and never let go.

Then it'd all be okay.

But I was stuck as a wolf until it got warm, and maybe I could finally tell her how I felt.

I decided this was the year to tell her. she was finally 18, and it seemed like the right time.

Plus I couldn't wait ANY longer!!

I was pacing pack and forth and must have been making a considerable amount of noise due to my grumbling and growling while contemplating our future, because her window opened and she popped her head out.

She laughed lightly. "What are you doing Wolf? You're not acting too happy."

Since I couldn't answer her with words my head dropped and I turned to walk back into the woods. Away from embarrassment.

Away from her. Her scent. Her beauty. Her luring eyes.

I needed space.

I heard her sigh sadly as I walked away.

"Wait. Wolf. Please! Don't leave. Come back!!"

It killed me, but I kept waking.

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