Why am I never enough??

part 173

once everyone woke up y/n and the boys went downstairs and y/n sat on the counter talking to kairi he was in front of her with his elbow on her thigh and talking to her about the situation with gabby which he was saying everything was going good as of right now so y/n gave him some advice on what helps in certain situations but once mattia came over joining in on the conversation they were talking about something completely different so he just joined in while they watched the others come out of their rooms still tired along with some of them that just looked grumpy but y/n got off the counter and made everyone breakfast while they ate she took one of her pancakes upstairs getting ready for the day and once she finished she walked back downstairs seeing everyone else finishing so she sat at the table by herself eating while everyone else dumped their plates out but vallyk and mike sat with her while the others went and got ready they were just talking to her about whatever came to mind then there was a knock on the door so y/n got up answering

Y: what do you want
Lucianna: to talk to you
Y: about what
Lucianna: you and dejuane
Y: i'm good
Lucianna: no we're talking about this right here and right now
Y: i don't want dejuane so there's nothing to talk about
Lucianna: well why did you kiss him if you didn't want him see y/n you talk about me playing him but first you know he's talking to me yet you go and kiss him anyway and two don't kiss him if you don't want him because then you're playing him
Y: why would i play dejuane please explain
Lucianna: you just said you didn't want him but last night was kissing him which you shouldn't have been doing in the first place
Y: i don't see why you care
Lucianna: because dejuane is getting with me and you know that but you kissed him do you not see how wrong of you that is
Y: ok it's wrong but i'm not apologizing if he kissed back then shouldn't you be talking to him
Lucianna: whatever y/n i'm not even surprised that you would stoop that low

lucianna walked off going back to her car and y/n closed the door and went back to the table putting her head down while mike and vallyk kept talking to her then after their conversation was over y/n got up going upstairs and sitting on her bed watching attack on titan and eating while across town lucianna was just now getting back to dejuanes house and she went in and went to his room seeing him sleep so she actually slaps him as he jumps awake holding his cheek

Dejuane: what the fuck was that for
Lucianna: for kissing y/n yesterday you pig
Dejuane: i made a mistake what's such a big deal about it
Lucianna: what's such a big deal are you serious you basically cheated on me
Dejuane: we aren't even together yet
Lucianna: do you really think if you'd cheat on me in the talking stage then you wouldn't cheat on me while we're dating
Dejuane: it was a kiss nothing more nothing less
Lucianna: i see why y/n left you dejuane you can't be loyal
Dejuane: i've done worse to y/n that's why she left me so don't speak on situations you know nothing about
Lucianna: this is your very last chance right here right now pick it's either me or y/n
Dejuane: i'm not picking
Lucianna: yes you are because you aren't about to keep playing with both of us so pick now

dejuane thought to himself thinking y/n wouldn't take him back even if he wanted her to so he chose lucianna and she showed him a big smile and kissed him while he sat there with a million thoughts in his head and when she left out he put his face in his hands then threw his head back while lucianna went back to y/ns house knocking on the door and kobe answered and let her in so she walked up to y/ns room just walking in without knocking

Y: what do you want and why are you in my room
Lucianna: he picked
Y: who picked what
Lucianna: i told dejuane to pick me or you
Y: ok
Lucianna: and he picked me
Y: are you serious
Lucianna: as a heart attack sweetie but anyways bye now

y/n sat on the bed feeling her eyes start to water at the fact that after everything she did for dejuane he still picked someone else over here she just looked with a blank expression on her face and she was completely zoned out not even thinking anymore she just mindlessly had tears streaming down her face while she sat there after a while kairi walked in trying to mess with her until he saw her sitting there so he shook her concerned and she looked at him and hugged him tight while he rubbed her back

Kairi: what's wrong my poor baby
Y: he picked her kairi after everything i did for him he picked her
Kairi: dejuane??
Y: yes he picked lucianna i gave him 4 years of my life kairi and those 4 years i loved him unconditionally and he played with my heart just so he could go and pick another girl over me
Kairi: i'm so sorry y/n but you can't let him get to you maybe it's time you officially move on
Y: kairi i've tried that every time he played me i tried but it's not working kai every relationship i try and get in i'm always being cheated on and replaced nothing works out for me and maybe i'm the problem in the relationships maybe i've spent so much blaming everyone else when it's me
Kairi: come on y/n don't say that it's not you
Y: then why am i getting played and cheated on in every relationship kai maybe it's time for me to stop trying
Kairi: you can't let other relationships stop you from trying
Y: that's easier said then done maybe i'm just not as strong as i used to be and it's ok love isn't for everyone and i know that now
Kairi: y/n stop don't you remember what i told you in the car from the hotel that day
Y: i don't think i can do that this time kai

kairi hugged y/n tighter than she was hugging him and his eyes started watering as he felt a tear falling down his face and hitting y/ns shoulder and once she felt his tear it caused her to cry harder the whole time she didn't let go of kairi

sorry yesterday i was having painful ✨cramps✨