Why am I never enough??

part 72

throwback 💀

we stayed for about 2 hours then the girls left out and i stayed for another hour then i got up trying to leave but dejuane yanked me back begging me to stay

Y: i'll see you in 3 days dejuane
Dejuane: stay please
Y: dejuane
Dejuane: y/n
Y: boy i'm not about to play with you, let go
Dejuane: but i love you
Y: omg i love you too dejuane
Dejuane: then stay
Y: andre come get your friend

andre came over and pulled dejuane hand off of mine then i jogged to the door and opened it

Y: i love you, see you in 3 days
Dejuane: i love you too

he says looking away from me obviously upset which kinda made me feel bad and guilty so then my sensitive ass started crying and i wanted to stop but i just felt guilty and like a bad person for leaving so the whole time i was walking back i just had a face full of tears and once i walked thru the door all the girls looked at me confused

Cherry: what's wrong babe
Ansley: did dejuane do something
Hailey: talk to us girlie

i didn't speak i just went in my room and locked the door while they tried to talk to me to get me out of the room

Cynthia: y/n come on
Ayaina: speak to us we can help
Cherry: are you hungry??
Hailey: tired??
Ansley: stressed??

i didn't say anything i just stayed with my head in a pillow silently crying, after about 20 minutes some how i was still crying and the knocking stopped about 10 minutes in but then it continued just now and by this point i'm annoyed and just want to cry in peace

Y: OMG GO AWAY
Dejuane: why are you crying

when i heard dejuanes voice i slowly got up and answered the door and he looked at me and his facial expression drop from a smile to a frown

Dejuane: aww baby what's wrong
Y: you made me feel bad
Dejuane: wait how
Y: because you turned away and you made me feel like a bad person for having to leave
Dejuane: i'm sorry
Y: k
Dejuane: are you ok??
Y: i'm fine
Dejuane: what if i stay with you for the night then leave tomorrow will that make you feel better
Y: hmmmm yes
Ansley: SIMP
Y: FUCK OFF

we laughed then sat on the bed and watched movies and talked then we sat on the side and look out the window at the view which may i add was a 10/10 then dejuane got behind me and spread his legs so i could lay in between them so once i leaned back my head was on his chest and he bent over so his chin was on my head and he wrapped his arms around my neck and we sat like that for about an hour then i got on my phone and his nosey ass was all in my screen and since i follow kobe's spam and he always posting thirst traps one pops up so i just do the most logical thing in this type of situation and i threw my phone across the room

Dejuane: why'd you do that
Y: oh you know just for fun
Dejuane: i saw the thirst trap 😐
Y: i don't watch them i usually just stroll past them
Dejuane: sure
Y: i do but can you give me my phone please
Dejuane: no
Y: wow bet imma leave you by yourself standing at the alter
Dejuane: wow still a no tho
Y: bitch

i go and pick up my phone then unlock it and stroll past the thirst trap then i go back to my spot with dejuane and continue what i was doing then i get a message

                           curlyheadedbitch💔
curlyheadedbitch: hey
y/n.baby: what do you want diego
curlyheadedbitch: just wanted to say congratulations
y/n.baby: thanks i guess
curlyheadedbitch: we haven't talked in a while
y/n.baby: ik
curlyheadedbitch: might surprise you and pop up to the wedding
y/n.baby: no ❤️

then i put my phone on dnd and pushed dejuane down then laid on him until i went to sleep, but once i woke up dejuane was gone but it didn't matter because i think i can go 2 days not counting today without talking to or seeing dejuane so i go out the room and all the girls are sitting down talking and i join in

Ayaina: let's go somewhere
Hailey: OH let's go to a club
Y: girl we're all taken
Hailey: and we can go as a bachelorette party
Y: can't we do that after the wedding
Hailey: no let's do it now
Y: but then we can go out of town
Hailey: ok ok but we're still going to the club
Y: omg ok
Cynthia: i didn't bring a party dress
Hailey: i might have a few for you
Ansley: y'all are gonna get us in trouble
Y: fr
Cherry: but what happens if we all get drunk??
Hailey: then whosever the least drunk can call us a taxi, they can't kidnap 5 girls at once
Ayaina: i guess
Y: so when are we going??
Hailey: tonight at 10
Y: oh shit ok
Cherry: what until then??
Hailey: let's just chill until then
Y: i have a feeling this isn't gonna go well

oh shit 🏃🏾‍♀️💨