Why am I never enough??

part 31

~1 day later~
today was the day we leave so we went to Mac house and thanked him for having us over and we hugged everyone then left to the airport and got on our plane back home, once we land we get our stuff and put it in the car then head to my house once we arrive we get out and open the door everyone is in the living besides dejuane, they all hugged us and then i went upstairs to surprise dejuane but what i saw left me surprised it was dejuane and davine having sex
Y: o oh i'm sorry guess i'm interrupting something
De: y/n wait
i run downstairs and sit on the couch crying like i've never cried before it was hard to breathe but i still couldn't stop crying it was like everything came crashing down at once and i couldn't control it my head was spinning and i felt so betrayed and hurt
M: what's wrong y/n
all i did was point upstairs then everyone looks up and see dejuane and davine walking downstairs
M: you've got to be fucking kidding me
C: wtf bro not again
De: y/n i'm sorry
he says putting his hand on my shoulder, i was so hurt bro so i got up and slapped tf out of him making his head turn sideways
Y: and i'm not sorry for that
K: damn
A: she slapped ts out of you
i turned to davine and punched her right in the eye, and she fell down holding it then i kicked her in the face and walked upstairs taking all my clothes and taking them to a different room no where near dejuanes
De: let me explain
Y: ok explain
De: well you weren't doing anything with me and you left for a whole weekend and left me by myself
Y: oh ok
when he said that i slapped tf out of him again
J: maybe you should just stop talking dejuane
De: no i'm trying to apologize
Y: well if you keep talking to me i'll slap you again
De: plea-
before he could finish i slap him again and walk off
K: you fucked up
M: big time
while i'm setting up my room and putting my lights in, i see davine sitting on dejuane lap with ice on his face so i get my keys and go to a pawn shop and once i get what i wanted i go back to the house and walk in
V: where'd you go
Y: oh just to a pawn shop
K: to get what
Y: a present for davine if she doesn't get the fuck off dejuane
M: i don't know if i wanna know the surprise
Y: oh i can show you, but first i wanna show davine
i walk up to davine and pull out the surprise
Kai: omg y/n put down the gun
Y: you know i would but i could also shoot davine because technically you trespassed cause no one knew you were here besides dejuane so i could kill you and you'd just be a regular intruder
i say squatting down in front of her
Y: and if the bullet goes thru your head and hits dejuane then so be it
Da: p p put the gun down
Y: i could but damn the power feels nice
Ma: y/n calm down
Y: no mattia because she knew about us but still she did what she did so imma need one good reason why i shouldn't have you and dejuane buried together
De: baby please
Y: DONT FUCKING CALL ME THAT
i say now pointing it at dejuane
Y: you have no fucking right to ever call me that again
Art: ok y/n why don't you just go back to your room
Y: davine just know you won't be my first body
Da: wait you've killed someone before
Y: bitch did you really think i was all talk
i put the gun down but i still yank that bitch off dejuane then kick her in the face again and go back to my room slamming the door and hiding the gun then laying down crying once again i didn't want anyone talking to me i just wanted to be alone, at this point i didn't even wanna be alive anymore so i did something i knew was gonna affect me forever, TW ⚠️ i go in the bathroom and swallow a handful of pills i sat there for about 30 minutes then everything went black

Kairi POV
after y/n left i decided to give her space but i knew something was off when i didn't hear anything so i go in her room and she's not there so then i go to her bathroom and see her barely breathing with a bottle of pills next to her
Kai: SOMEONE HELP PLEASE HELP
i say crying my eyes out holding y/n in my arms while calling the cops i'm shaking like crazy praying she's ok and begging her to not leave me alone
K: WTH WHAT HAPPENED
Kai: I CAME IN AND S S SHE WAS PASSED OUT
M: SHE TRIED TO KILL HERSELF??!
he says while picking up the pill bottle then kobe goes out panicking and punches dejuane in the face and he's just punching and punching then davine try's to stop him but he pushes her to the ground so artis and andre pull him off
K: you dumb bitch imma kill you!!!!!!
C: what's going on
K: y/n OD because of this dumb bitch!!!
M: what
mike ran in the bathroom with me seeing me holding her and he picks her up and goes into the living room with her limp body then the ambulance comes and puts her on a stretcher, so i get in with her just begging her not to leave me, once we get to the hospital they make us sit in the waiting room while they try and stabilize her, i'm a crying mess and dejuane stayed his big bitch ass at the house with davine while everyone else is broken inside crying then the doctor comes out
Kai: what happened is she ok!!!
Doc: she's fine only one person can come in tho
Kai: me i'm coming
she takes me to y/n and seeing her like this made me cry even more then she wakes up
Y: kairi
she say barely in a whisper
Kai: y/n!!! your ok but why why'd you try to leave me
Y: i'm sorry i just didn't want to deal with no more pain
Kai: but you could've talked to me i would've listened and you know this if you really needed me i would've came no question asked so why try and kill yourself instead of just telling me you were in so much pain that you thought that was the only way out
Y: i don't know i just didn't want to make it seem like i needed anyone but i know i could've came to you and i'm sorry that i almost left you and i promise i'll never do it again i'm sorry kai
Kai: you promise
Y: yes i promise
i just held her hand while she fell asleep and at that moment i knew i would die for her she's my best friend and i will never let her get hurt ever again
end of kairi POV

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