Why am I never enough??

part 155

i manage to stay up long enough to the point where i wasn't even tired anymore so i went downstairs with everyone else and i saw kobe and the kids sleep on the couch along with everyone else so i rolled my eyes and went in the kitchen grabbing blueberries and tossing them in my mouth then there was a knock on the door so i go and open it but when i do i see dejuane standing in front of me but this time he's completely sober

Y: i told you not to come back
Dejuane: i want you back
Y: that's the dumbest shit i've ever heard no dejuane i'm not taking you back
Dejuane: come on y/n one more chance
Y: no now leave i told you to never come back to my house anyway so go now
Dejuane: just let me try to convince you
Y: NO dejuane no you had multiple chances so no there is no convincing me because my answer will always be no so now please go i don't want to have to call the cops
Dejuane: can i do one more thing before i leave
Y: no you can't do shit now leave me the fuck alone

i turn around about to walk to my room but dejuane grabs me and spins me around and kisses me while i try to push myself off of him and he tightens his grip on my back so i can't move

Kobe: wow y/n really

i finally pull away from dejuane and slap him then i turn to kobe with watery eyes

Y: i didn't kiss him he kissed me i promise
Kobe: didn't seem like you put up much of a fight
Y: he's 6'2 and a fucking football player do you really think i wasn't trying
Kobe: save the lies y/n i trusted you
Y: AS YOU SHOULD BECAUSE I DIDNT FUCKING KISS HIM
Kobe: i hope you're happy with her dejuane just treat her right this time
Y: i didn't kiss him why the fuck won't you believe me
Kobe: how can i y/n he's your first everything so i wouldn't be surprised if you went back to him
Y: after all the shit he did you really think i would take him back when just a few hours ago he was calling me out of my name
Kobe: you took him back during worse
Y: this is exactly the shit i talk about everyone manages to point out what i used to do and somehow it's supposed to affect me as a person now if you don't believe me then don't but stop bringing my past into everything that shit gets tiring after a while like damn i've changed and if i said i didn't kiss him then i didn't if i fucking kissed him back then why would i slap him that makes literally no fucking sense i don't care what trust issues tatyana gave you but i'm not her so if i say some shit i'm not just saying that shit to get in your head and you should know this by fucking now since we've known each other since we were 4 it's like you are letting everyone else's toxic traits rub off on you but that's fine if you believe dejuane so much then fuck you and him

i storm past them while kobe tries to grab my hand to apologize but i snatch it back and walk off with a few tears then i jog upstairs and lock and shut my door sitting on the bed with my face in my knees

Dejuane pov:
when y/n slapped me i held my cheek and watched as she argued with kobe then she walked off and he started blaming me and walking up to me trying to fight and when we were about to fight the girls get in between us and push me out the house then they lock the door and i kick it as hard as i can then i walk off getting in my car and driving home the whole time pissed at kobe and wanting y/n back

Kobe pov:
once dejuane left i went upstairs knocking on y/ns door trying to get her to open it but she refused and wouldn't talk to me unless she was cussing me out so i just walked back downstairs and threw my head back on the couch stressed while the girls played with the kids and mattia and the boys were trying to get y/n to open her door then once i hear it open i start jogging upstairs but once i get up there she closes it in my face and locks it while i twist the knob

Kobe: come on y/n i'm sorry
Y: i really don't care go away
Kobe: i won't believe anyone else i'm sorry
Y: you shouldn't have believed anyone in the first fucking place especially not dejuane now like i said leave me alone
Kobe: i'm not giving up that easily y/n just let me in so i can explain
Y: FUCK KOBE NO
Kobe: well i got all day
Y: oh my fucking gosh

i hear footsteps towards the door then y/n opens it pissed off and i explain myself and she forgives me and gives me a kiss then she slams the door in my face again and locks it

Kobe: wait i thought you forgave me
Y: i do but for your mistake you are sleeping downstairs
Kobe: where are the kids sleeping
Y: with you since you didn't believe me then you can sleep with them and deal with all that yelling and playing
Kobe: y/n come on bruh
Y: no now go downstairs and make sure they bathe bye now i'm done talking

i keep trying to talk to y/n but she stops answering so i roll my eyes and walk downstairs staying with the kids all day until they fell asleep around 2:30am and i plopped on the couch exhausted asf and as soon as my head hit that pillow i was out cold

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