Why am I never enough??

part 112

after a while i was still on the ground crying my eyes out as doctors ran in and out of y/ns room bringing in new IVs and new gauges and snitching equipment and as i watched it only made me cry harder but it also made me happy knowing she was a fighter then hours later a doctor covered in blood comes up to us and i look away because i can't stand to know that all of it is y/ns

Doctor: um is anyone here family
Dejuane: i'm her husband

i knew we weren't married anymore but i would see y/n if it's the last thing i do

Doctor: she's sleeping right now but we got here stabil-

before the doctor could finish i push out of everyone's arms and take off back to her room then i walk in and see her laying down sleep and while still crying i smile at her then get in bed with her and laying on her chest careful not to mess up anything and as i'm laying there i feel her start messing with my curls like she always does

y/n pov:

Dejuane: thank you
Y: for what
Dejuane: fighting for me and everyone else
Y: i just couldn't go knowing i'm leaving all of you behind
Dejuane: you wouldn't have left all of us
Y: what do you mean
Dejuane: because if you died i would've came with you
Y: don't say that
Dejuane: i'm serious
Y: dejuane i know you love me but there's people here that would still need you even if i was to die then you would have to step up for the kids and your and my family and our friends and be there for them
Dejuane: but how would i do that without you
Y: do it how you did when you didn't know me yet
Dejuane: but i can't do that i can't just act like you never existed
Y: well then at least just stay here no matter what happens to me promise you won't do anything to try and be with me
Dejuane: i can't promise that y/n and you know that
Y: well at least lie so i can put my mind to ease
Dejuane: sure if that's what'll help then yea i "promise"
Y: close enough
Dejuane: i hate you
Y: hmm if i'm correct you're still crying
Dejuane: and you're crying
Y: because of you ass
Dejuane: exactly so you love me
Y: um i guess you could say that
Dejuane: so you don't think you do
Y: mmm it's a 50/50
Dejuane: i can make it 100
Y: and how's that

dejuane then sits up and moves towards me then kisses me and i use one of my hands and put it on the back of his head moving us closer together while he has one arm supporting himself up and the other wrapped around my back so that our stomachs are touching then after a while he moves his arm so my back is now back on the bed and i move my hand from his head then we pull apart

Y: i still say 50/50
Dejuane: haha fuck you
Y: haha i miss this
Dejuane: what do you mean by "this"
Y: this i miss it i miss us
Dejuane: i miss us too
Y: but what do i do about derek
Derek: it's fine y/n you and dejuane are meant for each other and i should've known that before falling for you but i'm happy you're happy
Y: thank you derek and also thank you so much for making me feel so special these last few months
Derek: ofc y/n i'll be here whenever you need me and that's a promise
Dejuane: alright now leave
Derek: shut the fuck up
Dejuane: bi-
Y: ok bye derek i'll see you later
Derek: bye y/n

before derek walks out dejuane shot him a bird then i laughed and rolled my eyes

Y: stop being mean to him bully
Dejuane: he started it
Y: sure he did now shut up and come here

i pull dejuane by his shirt and he catches himself before he falls on me then while hovering over me he smirks then kisses me again this time more passionate than last then we stop because we see the doctor walking in

Doctor: well looks like he helped you a lot
Dejuane: what can i say i'm better than medicine
Y: boy bye i almost died and your ugly ass was in here and i was still dying
Doctor: ha she has a point
Dejuane: so i'm ugly
Doctor: oh no you're a very handsome young man
Y: ok not too much
Dejuane: sorry about her she's my over protective ex she's a fan at this point
Y: bitch then stop kissing me and get out of my bed because you look like shit from all that crying and screaming you were doing
Dejuane: you heard that
Y: yea i heard you yelling please don't leave me but now you talking shit hmmmm
Dejuane: *sucks teeth*
Y: he wanna minaj with the new body
Dejuane: you're so fucking ugly for that
Y: i'm hurt
Dejuane: as you should
Y: haha fuck you
Doctor: um i'm still here
Y: oh what did you need
Doctor: well you won't be able to wear a shirt for 30 days and you must keep your side wrapped at all times besides when you shower and when you do you might wanna get someone to wrap you side with ceramic (i think that's what it's called) wrap
Dejuane: i can do that haha
Y: um no i'll die before i let you do that
Dejuane: stop before you jinx yourself dumb ass
Y: um bitch at least i won't be seeing you
Dejuane: nah you remember what i told you so yes you would see me
Y: i'm not playing with dejuane you're not doing shit to yourself no matter what happens to me
Dejuane: i am but ok
Y: omg you're gonna be the death of me
Dejuane: nah but that knife was
Y: bitch get off me
Dejuane: i'm good
Y: nah you fake go back and cry on the chair
Dejuane: um we can jack
Y: bitch don't try and fight me when i can't fight back
Dejuane: but the bright side is were twins now
Y: oh i'm for sure killing myself
Dejuane: but now we can wrap each other sides
Y: oh yea someone please come rescue me
Dejuane: stop playing you love me
Y: um no that's a strong word and i don't do commitment
Dejuane: sweetie you said you loved me a few minutes ago dumb ass
Y: bitch i will kick you out this bed
Dejuane: and i'll pull them stitches out
Y: yea then you'll be crying again but not in the hospital in jail bitch
Dejuane: oh yea we jacking
Y: alright wait till i get better bitch you better keep that same energy
Doctor: um y'all are teens so i know what fighting means for y'all and i just wanna say she can't have sex for at least 2 months
Dejuane: wait huh?? that's too long
Y: um we meant play fighting weirdo and dejuane shut your nasty ass up boy i could never sleep with your ugly ass
Dejuane: then how'd you get pregnant with 2 of my kids
Y: um chile anyways i was forced
Dejuane: nah stop the cap bitch
Y: bitch you about 2 seconds away from me kicking you off this bed
Dejuane: please don't make me beat you up infront of the doctor
Doctor: y'all are cute but aren't you a little young to be a mom
Y: and aren't you a little old to be flirting with someone who's the same age as me and aren't you too old to be in my business and aren't you too old-
Dejuane: ALRIGHT y/n we get it
Y: just making sure
Doctor: i'll be back with some paper work for you to sign and some breakfast
Y: yea do that and get out of my business
Dejuane: stop being mean
Y: she started it
Dejuane: bitch you sound like a child
Y: un hoe why you still in my bed
Dejuane: because i'm not getting up the fuck and i'm gonna eat your food
Y: no you're not and neither am i the fuck i don't trust that bitch as far as i can see her
Dejuane: so we're supposed to starve
Y: you can but imma call cherry to bring me food
Dejuane: then ask for me too
Y: um it depends
Dejuane: you know what bitch

dejuane tries and get up but i grab his curls and make him sit back down um

Dejuane: bitch don't you ever
Y: sit your hoe ass down big baby damn i'll call for you too
Dejuane: that's what i thought

i hit him upside the head the he laughs and i talk to him for maybe 30 more minutes then i go to sleep

sorry i had practice and i have hella work and  a bitch gotta pass