Why am I never enough??

part 28

we go inside and it's like a normal party dancing fun and what not but after a while of dancing with everyone i go outside with alvaro because i can't find dejuane and i'm bored

Varo: so are you happy??
Y: yesss....
Varo: why you pause
Y: just scared he'll play me again
Varo: that's the thing with love you gotta take chances
Y: i guess thank you alvaro
Varo: no problem y/n
Y: can you stay out here with me i don't feel like dancing anymore
Varo: sure i don't feel like dancing either
me and alvaro sit outside and talk for hours literally about random crap it was so fun just talking and occasionally venting to him and him venting to me then the rest of the group comes out but dejuane doesn't
Y: hey kobe where's dejuane
K: idk
Y: imma go lo-
as soon as i was about to go look for him he walks out the house smelling a little weird but i brushed it off and got in the car once we got home me and kairi went inside his house because he lived across the street and i waited for him to change then we went back to my house and i changed then we went outside and dipped our feet in the pool while playing among us i was white and kai was red so everyone automatically thought it was him
Kai: BRUH IM NOT SUS IT WASNT ME
Y: YESSIR
me and another imposter won
Y: TAKE THAT L BOY
Kai: THIS IS BULL THEY ALWAYS KICK ME OFF WHEN IM INNOCENT
Y: ALL I HEAR IS FAT LS
kairi got up walking inside so i followed him crying laughing
M: what's so funny
Y: kairi is mad because he got kicked out even tho he wasn't an imposter on among us
M: oh
Y: BUT I TOOK THAT FUCKING DUB
Kai: BRUH YOU GOT THEM TO BELIEVE YOU
Y: MOTHER FUCKING DUBS BABY
K: stop yelling
Y: MOTHER FUCKING DUB
Ales: she got that MOTHER FUCKING DUB
Y: YESSIR
we all start laughing and playing and then chicago freestyle by drake came on so i start playfully singing to kairi acting like a fuck boy on tiktok
Kai: i'm simping
we all laugh then we decided to all play among us, after about 3 hours dejuane finally comes out
Y: ANOTHER FUCKING DUB
De: why are you yelling
J: because WE GOT
A: A MOTHER FUCKING DUB
De: anyways i have a friend coming
Y: k
we continue playing then dejuanes friend comes over no one knew who it was because all of our face was glued to our phones then once we were done we looked up and it was some new girl
Y: who's that
??: i'm Davine who are you
Y: oh nice to meet you i'm y/n dejuanes girlfriend
Da: oh he's never mentioned you
Y: how long have y'all known each other
Da: we just met at the party
Y: then that's why
after a couple of hours of just playing and hanging the boys go home so before they leave i give them all hugs including hailey and ayaina but davine stays, which doesn't bother me because i trust dejuane or at least i hoped i could, i went upstairs by myself and showered once i got out i put on my onesie that me and dejuane had then he walks in the room and i get a little happy since he barely talked to me today and it was the first day in the new house
De: baby??
Y: huh
De: do we have any blankets
Y: why??
De: for davine, she's spending the night
Y: oh ok there should be some in the closet
De: ok thank you
he grabs them but i stop him before he walks out
Y: wait where are you sleeping
De: me and her are sleeping in the living room together but on different couches
Y: bruh come on you barely talked to me today and now you're not even sleeping with me
De: i'll be right downstairs
Y: whatever
he walks out and closes the door and me being me i start overthinking then i call kairi
Kai: hello?
Y: can you come over
Kai: why
Y: because dejuane isn't paying attention to me and i'm bored ash
Kai: ok here i come
two minutes later there's a knock on the door downstairs i gotta be quite because everyone but dejuane and davine were sleep they were laughing and talking, anyways i open the door and hug kairi then we go to my room
Y: did you see them
Kai: yea maybe they're just friends
Y: that's what i think too but idek
Kai: do you trust him
Y: ofc
Kai: then she's just a friend
Y: ok ok you're right
Kai: i know
Y: smart ass
we start laughing and watching movies i make kairi sleep at the foot of the bed while i'm at the top and then i just watch some tiktoks and tiktokrooms post until i get a little hungry so i go downstairs and see dejuane and davine cuddling i push it down because i cuddle with the boys from time to time so i go to the refrigerator and open it as i'm opening it i have a glass in my hand then my clumsy ass dropped the glass causing them to wake up
Da: bruh wth
Y: i'm sorry to back to sleep
De: what you doing
Y: i was thirsty then my glass broke
De: you loud ash
Y: sorry bae
kairi came running downstairs with just his shorts
Kai: what's wrong
Y: i dropped a glass
Kai: i can help you
Y: thank you so much kai
De: where is his shirt
Y: he took it off before he went to sleep at the foot of the bed
De: oh
kairi continued helping me pick up the glass i gave him a hug and thanked him once again then we went back upstairs and he went back to the foot of the bed while i turned on youtube and watched funnymike because it's a dream of mine to end up on his yt channel i was dying laughing then there was a knock on the door i run and open it thinking it was dejuane but it was Davine
Y: oh um hi
Da: um hi i just came because dejuane said i could borrow one of his shirts to sleep in
Y: oh no it's fine you can sleep in some of mine
Da: oh ok
i give her a pair of my pajamas then she leaves out
Y: tf she thought, she not gone get anything of his
i decided i wanted to be bold so i text funnymike on instagram

funnymike
y/n.baby: you should let me pull up to Louisiana to be in a video

i knew he wasn't gonna respond even tho i had 3000000 on tiktok and 1000000 on insta so i just turned off my phone, turned off the tv, put on my led lights, put my phone on dnd and went to sleep