Why am I never enough??

part 86

after we got done playing around they left out and i went to sleep and once i woke up i realized today was now saturday meaning the kids were coming so before dejuane came with them i got up out of bed and showered and when i was done i got out in just my towel and dripping curls and closed the door to my room then sat down on my bed listening to music and sitting at my new vanity putting in my hair products while singing the lyrics to my favorite mistake by giveon after i was done with my hair i got my bra and panties and put them on then i got a white crop top and some navy blue shorts and put them on along with some white and blue jordan 1s then i changed my belly button piercing to the letter of my first name then i brushed my teeth and put on deodorant and perfume and walked out the room going into the living room waiting for dejuane to text me that he's here

Tatyanah: ok girlie you look nice
Y: as i should
Kobe: don't lie to her
Y: do i hear a hater
Jared: dang i think i hear one also
Y: jared being nice this is new
Jared: don't get use to it
Larray: don't worry y/n i'll be your official hype man
Y: YAY i finally have a hype man
Josh: i want a hype woman
Y: ask nia
Nia: i'll kindly pass you to monroe
Monroe: i'll kindly pass him to lexi
Lexi: i'm good tatyanah can have him
Tatyanah: no devyn get him
Devyn: fuck no lol avani that's all you
Avani: nah that's dixie
Dixie: nah g that's haihai
Haihai: shit i don't mind
Josh: yessir
Y: after every other girl in the house rejected you hahaha ugly bitch
Josh: i fight hoe
Y: and so do i the fuck
Josh: chile um anyways when is your baby daddy supposed to be coming with these lil bad ass kids
Y: bitch my kids ain't bad and he gone come whenever the fuck he gets here hoe
Josh: imma suffocate you with a pillow
Y: try it hoe
Josh: just wait till you go to sleep
Y: bitch i sleep with one eye opened
Manolo: is that why you cockeyed
Y: bitch i could never and don't make me drag you on your second day here
Jaden: tea

we continue playfully arguing until dejuane text me letting my know he's outside so i go out and the kids run up to me then the group comes out the house

Azlynn: mommy you smell good
Blessing: as she should
Jared: oh yea you've definitely raised these kids
Y: and did
Monroe: ohh shit who's that
Y: azlynn tell your daddy to come here
Monroe: wait that's your baby daddy?!!
Y: yes and trust me he's a fucking hoe
Kobe: she's telling the truth
Monroe: i'm still tryna find out
Y: go for it but just know i warned you

dejuane walks up the driveway with azlynn and now he reaches us monroe starts acting different and trying to check all the girls in front of him so i just look at her with a facial expression like "bitch what the fuck you doing" then they let him come inside for whatever reason in hell then he sits on the couch and i sit across from him while monroe and a few of the others sit next to dejuane

Nia: so we heard all about you
Dejuane: what do you mean all
Dixie: all the times you cheated
Dejuane: really bruh
Y: yea i did that and you would do it too for a check i was employee and i was gonna get employee of the month and that's on period
Jared: bitch you play too much
Y: jared sweetie i will fucking drag you
Jaden: nah you ain't gone drag my nigga like that
Y: jaden sit your wanna be light skin ass down before i drag the both of you with my eyes closed
Blessing: period
Josh: them kids are bad ass fuck
Dj: your breath stinks
Y: LMAO honey don't say that be nice
Manolo: imagine getting checked by a 2 year old
Devyn: that had to hurt
Josh: my breath stink for real
Y: no josh now shut up anyways when are you leaving???
Monroe: he can stay
Y: monroe please shut up
Dejuane: uh ill leave now i guess
Y: bye

dejuane walks towards the door then he goes out and monroe gives me a death stare and i start to laugh because who tf she think she scaring then while the kids to get know everyone dejuane text me asking me to come outside so i get up and let the group know i'll be right back then i head out the door and see dejuane sitting on the hood of his car waiting for me so i walk up to him

Y: what do you want
Dejuane: just wanted to say i'm proud of you
Y: thanks is that it
Dejuane: i also wanted to say i never meant to hurt you
Y: alright
Dejuane: and i wanted to know if you'll throw davine a gender reveal party whenever we find out the gender
Y: um no
Dejuane: please
Y: no
Dejuane: but you've been through all this before and you know how much it means to have someone to celebrate you and make you feel like you did something right even when you felt like it was wrong
Y: you won't even know the gender for 16 weeks
Dejuane: y/n please bro
Y: fine but just know if you're trying to do this as a redemption of all the times you fucked up with me it won't work the only thing that'll make you feel better is the fact that maybe this time you won't cheat on davine as many times as you did with me then go get another girl pregnant while you're married but who knows you are the one and only dejuane mccoy

after that i walk off leaving dejuane in his thoughts and i walk back into the house plopping on the couch not really talking to anybody then kj and azlynn came up to me and started talking to me about how they liked the group and blessing was talking to devyn and dj was just sitting down playing with his fingers and he reminded me of myself when i was sheltered and had social anxiety so i go pick him and put him on my lap once i sit back down and i talk to him then smitty joins in our conversation and we started fake talking about sora

Sora: sum said
Y: idk was there
Sora: i'm guessing because i heard my name
Y: nah you must be on drugs we didn't say anything
Sora: it's the lying for me
Smitty: y/n said jared smells like balls
Y: wait what no i didn't he's lying
Jared: oop not you talking shit oh yea for sure we boxing stand up g
Y: i didn't say that tho
Jared: nah too late stand up
Y: aight bet momma ain't raise no hoe

i get up then before jared does anything i take off running around the couch as the group bust out laughing then jared takes off chasing me and i continue running around the whole house i even ran outside then i went back in running towards the stairs then as i ran up the stairs i tripped on the carpet at the top so i fell down laughing then jared hovered me and started ticking me

Y: bruh i didn't say that
Jared: i don't care apologize
Y: omg no
Jared: then i won't stop
Y: ok ok i'm sorry
Jared: ok then

jared stops tickling me then i pull his shirt trying to make him fall but instead he falls on top of me and he looks me in my eyes and puts one of his hands on my waist but then i laugh and push him off of me then we walk back downstairs laughing and talking like nothing happened

bruh it's 4:00am where i live but i'm not tired because i took a nap this morning FUCK