Why am I never enough??

part 67

i could feel dejuane picking me up off the ground but i was half sleep so i just stayed still then we made it to the room and he laid me on the bed then came and laid on top of me then he fell asleep with, when i woke up dejuane was surprisingly already awake

Dejuane: morning baby
Y: morning why you up so early
Dejuane: couldn't really sleep
Y: everything alright
Dejuane: yea
Y: babe i'm fr what's wrong
Dejuane: i had a dream that you realized i wasn't good enough for you then you left and took the kids with you
Y: dejuane first off you're perfect for me and i love you and second even if i did think that, which i don't i would never take the kids from you
Dejuane: what if i mess up again
Y: then you mess up and that will be something between me and you but i would never think about taking them from you
Dejuane: you promise
Y: ofc i swear
Dejuane: i love you
Y: i love you too
Dejuane: i really love you
Y: i know dejuane i really love you too
Dejuane: i'm serious y/n
Y: so am i
Dejuane: i'm just making sure because sometimes i feel like i don't say it enough
Y: you tell me everyday even when we weren't together
Dejuane: i know and i don't want it to be a day where i don't tell you and then something happens and i just sit and think maybe if i told her i loved her enough i could've changed that, and i know most times that's not the case but i don't want you to ever think i don't care about you because even when i wasn't with you i admired your every move, the way you looked at others, the kindness you had when meeting new people, the way your confidence shined no matter what, i admired you even when you were sad like when i broke your heart multiple times, when you cried when your mom took azlynn, i always admire you no matter what and no matter when if you ask me to be somewhere for you for now no on i will always do what i can to make you happy because i love you and no one can change that and i mean no one
Y: shut up

i say because now i have tears streaming down my face uncontrollably and effortless

Dejuane: aww come here

i walk over to dejuane hella slow trying to calm my tears down but they only flow harder then i sit on dejuanes lap facing him with my head down causing my tears to now just drop down then he lifts my chin so now he's looking me directly in my eyes and he wipes my tears

Dejuane: i meant what i said, and i hope you know that
Y: *nods*
Dejuane: i love you
Y: i love you too *voice cracks*
Dejuane: aww my little baby

dejuane got up and spinned us around which made me laugh a little then he put me down and started play fighting with me but we stopped once we heard the front doorbell ring so we looked at the cameras and it was nique, king and kaiser so we went and opened the door

Nique: hey y'all
Y: hey guys come in

me and dejuane move aside as they step inside then the kids come running out of their room and kaiser runs to them to play with them then we sat down talking about random things and watching tv then nique pulled me aside and told me that we'll do the prank when the kids are sleep so then we walk back to king and dejuane and i go to dejuane and put my head on his lap looking at the ceiling then leans over and keeps giving me pecks on my lips until azlynn came around the corner

Azlynn: mommy can you come tuck us in
Y: here i come
Dejuane: i'm coming with you
Y: ok

i sit up and grab dejuanes hand and we head to their room once we get in kaiser says he wants to sleep in the same room so we pull out one of the kids old beds and put it in the middle of the room then we tuck him in then we go and tuck in azlynn, kj, blessing and dj and give them a kiss on the forehead but we didn't give kaiser one because he's not our kid and that may be a little weird then we turn the tv on disney jr and give the remote to azlynn then we turn off the lights, turn on the leds, and the night lights then we walk out and when we step back in the living room nique nods at me indicating she's about to start so i'm looking around but i can't see it the camera so i sit down next to dejuane but he pulls me on his lap so i'm facing him then he keeps giving me pecks over and over with his arms wrapped around my back then he starts kissing my neck

King: we're still here
Nique: fr idk why dejuane doing that to y/n when he can be doing it to me

then dejuane lifts his head up and looks at me then nique

Dejuane: wait what?!?!
Nique: you heard me cutie....

let's see what happens next 🏃🏾‍♀️💨