Why am I never enough??

part 47

(idk what reminded of this song but yea)

i woke up with Azlynn smiling and shaking me awake so i get up and tickled her causing her to smile more which made me laugh then we showered and got dressed then i walked out with Azlynn and sat her in her baby chair and went and made her some macaroni then while she ate i went and sat down on the couch watching tv while everyone else finally started walking out

Y: morning
K: good morning
Y: well at least i know kobe hasn't switched up
M: i didn't either
V&D: us neither
Y: yessir my boys
K&M&V&D: yessir
Azlynn: mama

she says raising her arms up indicating she wants to get out
Y: coming baby
i go to Azlynn picking her up then i got my keys and walked out putting Azlynn in her booster seat and taking us to a counselor office, once we make it and go in i get us signed up and i pay for our first month then the lady tells us to come back tomorrow for our first session so i grab Azlynn and we walk out and i decide to take her shopping again because for being so strong she deserves it, once we get there i let her buy what she wants which was a few american girl dolls, some ugg's, a few cute shirts, some matching outfits for me and her and some more shoes and hair accessories even some little bathing suits then i get my cartilage pierced then we go eat at benihana then we go schedule an appointment for a spa day after our counseling then we finally go home around 9:30pm and when we walk in i have a hand full of bags

M: really y/n
Y: what
M: you took her shopping again?!?
Y: umm no

i say hiding the bags behind my back then Azlynn pulls her dolls out of one of the bags

C: you bought her American girl dolls those are $100 each and you bought here 4
De: you spent $400 on dolls?!?
Y: nooooooooooooooooo
Art: you're obviously lying
Ans: what else did you buy

i pulled the stuff out giving them a haul or whatever

D: girl how much did you spend
Y: ummmm
D: how much!!
Y: $4000 i mumble
D: what speak up
Y: $4000!!!
Ma: how so much in a day??
Y: i wanted to spoil her for doing so well with everything going on
Kai: she's spoiled rotten
Y: ok but she doesn't act like it so what's the problem
Ans: wait did you get a new piercing
Y: yea it's so cute
M: anyways i'm hungry, where y'all wanna eat
Y: oh me and Azlynn are full
M: oh where y'all eat at
Y: benihana's
V: someone needs to take your money
Y: what why
V: you took a baby to benihana she probably won't even remember
Y: then i'll just take her again
V: oh lord

they continue to lecture me about how she has enough stuff then i look at dejuane hand and realize his ring is off

Y: where's your ring
De: well i think it's best if we postpone everything and you take time to focus on yourself
Y: oh ok let me translate it, "you killed someone so imma go fuck other bitches" ok got it
De: that's not what i said
Y: but it's what you meant
De: it's not what i meant or said
Y: whatever dejuane i'm not about to argue with you

i grab Azlynn stuff and her and head to her old room then i grab her carriage and put it in my room along with her dresser full of clothes and all her toys then once i finish i head to walmart and get a new tv and more ps4 games and a different bed set then i go home and set everything up then i feed and change Azlynn and lay her down to sleep and once she is i play the story time on mortal kombat and i lose i fight
Y: BRUH FUCK
then Azlynn jumps up crying so i pick her up and lay her on my chest while i continue playing and she goes back to sleep then i lay her on the bed and walk into the kitchen and while i'm in the kitchen i see dejuane and you won't believe malu
Y: hey
Malu: um hi
Y: anyways goodnight guys

at this point i didn't even care anymore i just walked back into my room and took out my belly button piercing then laid down and went to sleep

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