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Tafiya kawai nakeyi sam ban san inda nake jefa kafana ba bare na kula da hanya, hawaye kawai ke kwaranya daga cikin kurmin idona zuwa kan kumatu na.

Tsananin damuwan da nake ciki be sa na kula da kan hanya na jefa kaina ba seda naji wani wawan bugu yayinda students na arean suka saki salati wasu na ihu, runtse kyawawan idanuna kanana nayi cikin jin zafin bugun tun daga kafana har tsakiyar kwakwalwana amma ko kad'an zafin be kai na zuciyata ba.

A hankali na waiga na kurawa bakar meserati wadda gabad'ayanshi baki ne har glasses d'in ido don ganin ko ze fito ya bani hakuri amma ko motsi kofan motar be yi ba bare ayi alamun bud'ewa.

Mikewa nayi na d'ingisa kafana da nasan yayi mugun buguwa na koma gefe na zauna, wasu na min sannu wasu kuma cewa suke Allah ya kara dama yarinyan kullum tana tafiya kaman mahaukaciya sam bata da hankali a kanta me makon a kaita psychiatric amma an kawo ta nan makaranta ko me zata d'auka oho.

Kuma runtse ido na nayi ba su kad'ai ba duk inda zan gilma sau d'aya sau biyu zasu ce psycho ce ni ba wai dan wai yanayin shigar jikina ba, a'a tsantsar rashin natsuwa da damuwan dake d'auke a yanayina da fuskana ke sa su zaton haka duk da sanyi na a abubuwa dayawa.

Karan wucewar motar da speed shi ya dawo dani daga duniyar tunani na, kafana na riqe da zarazaran yatsotsin hannuna na dinga matsawa har naji dama dama amma na tabbatar akwai matsala jin irin azabar dake shigana.

Agogon dake d'aure a tsintsiyar hannuna na kalla 7:50 ajiyar zuciya na sauke kan na mike na ci gaba da tafiya a hankali Ina d'ingisa kafan na nufi auditorium sbd achan nake da lectures karfe takwas gashi yanzu 7:50.

Ban isa auditorium ba se takwas da kusan mintuna takwas hall d'in tsit kaman anyi ruwa an d'auke a hankali na tura kofan na shiga bakina d'auke da sallaman da iyakarshi pink lips d'ina a hankali na ci gaba da takawa da nufin karasawa ciki In samu wurin zama.

Seda nayi tsakiyar hall d'in kan naji an ce "who the heck did yhu think yhu are!!! Will you get out of my class jor" sam muryanshi bata da hayaniya dukda tsawa yayi ba don microphone da yake amfani da ita ba ko rabin ajin baza su ji tsawar nashi ba bare lectures d'inshi.

Juyawa nayi na mishi kallo d'aya yayinda shi kuwa idonshi ke kan damin lecture note d'in hannunshi.

'Fa tabarakallahu ahsanul khalki' na furta akan lips dina ban kara gangancin kallonshi ba na juya na fita a sanyaye still cikin d'ingishi kujeru irin na zaman d'alibai dake gaban hall d'in na samu na zauna Ina sauke ajiyar zuciya.

A rayuwana ban ta'ba ganin namiji me irin kyaunshi a fili ba sede a tv, tv d'inma se tashoshin larabawa ko indiyawa kwata kwata ban san yadda zan fasalta kyaun shi ba sede na san yana da bala'e'en kyau ga fari me d'aukan hankali.

Share tunaninshi nayi sbd damuwana ya fi karfin tunanin kyaun wani halitta, ya zanyi da rayuwana, wai laifin me na aikata da ake hukunta ni da abunda ban san hawanshi ba bare saukanshi? Why always me? A shekaruna na 23 a duniya nayi aure sau hud'u duk ba wadda na mishi kyakyawar wattanni biyar.

Yes inada kyau daidai misali amma kyauna ba me d'aukan hankali bane sbd fata me duhun haske ce dani wato 'chocolate' color ba kallo d'aya zakamin ka fahimci kyaun da surar da Allah ya bani ba shiyasa tun ina shekaru sha takwas a duniya samari suka min rutututu kowa so yake ya mallakeni.

Ashe ni kam maza sune kaddarana ganin kullum za'ayi sallama ace ana kiran Noor Iman yasa baba na yanke shawaran In fidda miji ya min aure.

Dukda bana so sbd Ina matukar son karatu kan aure amma ba yadda na iya kasancewata me tsananin biyayya yasa na fidda wani saurayina da ya nace min tun Ina jss class ba 'bata lokaci a randa na cika sha takwas cib a ranar aka d'aura min aure da bello sede abun takaici a ranar da aka kaini gidanshi a ranar Bello ya dankara min saki har uku ba tare da na san laifi na ba.

Cikin tsananin tashin hankali na dawo gida da safiyar ranan amma se babana da 'yan uwanshi suka rufu akaina da duka ba tare da sunji ta bakina ba, ba don mama ba 'yaddiko na, wato kishiyar mahaifiyata' da inaga ban yi rai ba a ranan.

Bakaken maganganun da na sha ko seda nayi dana sanin zuwa na duniya dayawa suna cewa rashin kai budurcina gidan mijina yasa ya min wannan wulakncin yayinda maganan yayi tasiri akayi ta yad'ata unguwa da 'yan uwa.

Amma abun takaici ko kallo ban ishi umma na ba, bare sannu ko kuma ta ajiye ni taji damuwa ta hakan yafi komai yimin ciwo a rayuwa ban san daad'in uwa ba, ban san abinda ake cewa uwa ba a kaina kam sede Ina ganin yadda take kula da kannena kaman zata maida su ciki.

Abun na min ciwo fiye da tunanin me tunani, mutuwar aurena na farko yayi sanadiyar tashinmu a rijiyar lemu, muka koma gadon kaya da zama sbd ban isa fita ba haka 'yan gidanmu, Babana na matukar sona kan faruwan mutuwar aurena na farko, wani irin so yake min da ban san iyakarshi ba.

Sbd tausayin da nake bashi, komai sede kishiyar uwata ta min, tun Ina karama umma ke banzantar da ni wai ita alkunyar 'yar fari a yadda baba ya fad'amin kenan amma har yau ban yarda ba sbd abun yayi yawa.

Ban san kula ba se a wurin mama, ban san yadda ake shagwa'ba a gaban uwa ba se a gabanta, ban da wadda zan kaiwa kuka na se mama, da farin cikina da bakin cikina duk tare muke rabawa se ince ta fini shiga damuwa akan mace macen aurena.

Hayaniyar d'alibai masu fitowa daga auditorium hall ya tabbatar min da an gama lectures d'in, d'ago idon da zanyi se ya fad'a cikin nashi ko second idonshi be yi a kaina ba ya manna bakin space akan sparkling brown eyes d'inshi tare da nufar motanshi cikin takun isa da kasaita, se a lokacin na gane ashe wadda ya kad'e ni a hanyar shigowata shine lecturer d'inmu na yau.

Kallonshi nake yadda farinshi ke d'aukan ido ga baki wuluk d'in gashin kanshi dake kwance lublub har kasan keyanshi se sheki yakeyi, irin gashinne cike da giranshi haka sune gargasan dake kwance a hannunshi zuwa saman kirjinshi da ya fito kad'an sbd V neck black shirt da ya saka.

Ina mamakin wannan bawan Allahn anya d'an nijeria ne? Bakaken kananan kayan dake sanye a jikinshi ya kara fitar da farin fatarshi, kananan maganganun da d'alibai suka fara akanshi ne yasa ni kauda kaina daga kallonshi na mayar kasa Ina me kokarin sake zundumawa duniyar tunani na naji an zauna gefe na.

A hankali na waiga se naga wata kyakyawar matashiyar yarinyar da tunda na fara zuwa makarantan take yawan ce min sannu bayan ita ban ta'ba magana da wani d'an ajinmu ba, alhalin Ina cikin sati na hud'u kenan da na fara zuwa makarantan ta BUK inda nake karantar B.sc Ed Biology.

"Sunana Zarah Ahmad Malabo and yhu?" Da kyar na iya yi mata yake don murmushi wahala yake min nace "Saudah Hafeez ana kirana Noor Iman".

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