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Screaming and kicking I fought to get out of the dark room I was placed in. Baby blue is somewhere on the over side of this door.

The lady told me to go to sleep then locked me in here.

"I want my Mama!" crying I pulled on the door knob "Tatum? Find me!"

"Go to sleep kid!" the lady shouts hitting the door scaring me

"Turn light on, peas!"

Mama always leaves the light on

"I want my brudda!" kicking the door I fell back holding my foot. "I hurt!"

Baby blue whined and babbled loudly like he usually does when he wants Mama to cuddle him.

"Gimmie my brudda! Him need his Dee Dee!" screaming at the top of my lungs I choked on my tears. "Peas, gimme him!"

"Give her that fucking baby so she can shut the fuck up!" the man yells followed by a loud slapping sound.

Mumbling was heard before the door opens and the lady shoves baby blue into my chest.

He cried louder in pain squeezing my shirt tightly in his hands.

"You hurt him!" kicking her leg I jumped at her, holding baby blue like Mama showed me. "Mama gone beat you"

"Girl fuck yo mama, if she was any good you wouldn't be here with us" the lady spat slamming the door

"Mama is good" kissing baby blue's head I glanced at the window over the ugly bed in the corner of the room. "Mama is good"

Putting him on the bed I climb on it beside him, standing up I pushed on the window making it fall out.

I was just trying to make it go up.

"Dee Dee is going to make it better, okay baby blue?" I ask rubbing his face, sniffling he chewed his hand staring at me quietly

Throwing the pillows out first I picked baby blue up and threw out all the covers that he was laying on.

Babbling he grabbed my hair chewing on it, taking it out his mouth I held him out the window and dropped him onto the pillows and covers.

"Sowwy" I whisper jumping out the window, landing beside him I picked him up kissing all over his face. "I sowwy"

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It's a one story house, for a average heigh person they could just step out the window but their kids so it's somewhat a far fall.
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Throwing everything back into the room except a purple blanket, I carried baby blue around the side of the house.

"I don't know where mama is" I mutter looking for someone with a phone, I know Mama's number.

Whimpering Baby blue shook in my arms.

"You cold?" I hum sitting him on the ground I wrapped the blanket around myself then picked him back up, covering the both of us. "I got you brudda, I promise"

"Delilah?"

Looking around I saw a big truck, like Dada's.

"Dada?" I gasp

"No it's Matt, come here" getting out his truck he waved me over. "how'd you get outside?"

"They didn't want us" shrugging I went over to him, stopping in front him I held up baby blue. "Him want mama, we wan go home"

"I-"

"Phone peas? Call Mama"

"Bossy just like her" Matt mumbles pulling out his phone, taping on it he held it to his ear. "Hel—yes but she's with me now. . . I'm taking her to the police station. . . .if I bring her to you, they'll think you kidnapped her. Think about it, it's the middle of the night. . . .you can meet us at the Walmart a few streets from there but you can't take them. . .yeah she wants to talk to you"

Handing me the phone he picked me up putting me in the backseat with baby blue still in my arms.

"Yellow?" I ask watching Matt buckle us in

"Hey baby, are you okay?" Mama sniffles, two buttons pop up on the screen. A red one and a green one. "Press the green one, Dee"

"Okay" holding the phone up I tapped the button, wiping my tears away.

Mamas face came into the screen, she looked so sad.

"Why you cry?" I ask letting baby blue see her. "we cry too"

"I'm crying because I miss you and Squirt. Did those people hurt you? What happened why were y'all crying?"

"Lady gave me whoopin, and I didn't eat. Baby blue wan his Dee Dee but lady said no"

"She didn't feed you?" Mama frowns getting in her car. "They must want to me be under the jail. . . .okay Dee Ima bring you something to eat okay? Tell me what else that happened"

"Lady made me go night night with no lights, I so scared I pee pee on the bed. She gave me a whoopin two times. Baby blue no eat, he hurt. Him bleed on his mouth. I didn't do it"

Showing mama his lip I pulled it down so she could see.

"Ima bust a cap—they hurt my fucking baby? Lord, why must you try my gangsta like I won't shoot that lady fucking house up?" rambling to her she honked her horn angrily. "Delilah?"

"Yes mama?"

"How did you get out the house?"

". . . I don't know"

"Don't lie to me, Dee I'm not mad at you but I need you to tell me"

Sighing I told her lowly knowing I wasn't supposed to do that.

"I wan go home" I admit

"I know baby but you can't yet, I'm trying to see if Pops or uncle Alik can take y'all okay? It won't be that long until you can come home. I'm trying my best"

"Okay and Dada?"

"Y—yes him too"

"I miss Dada, I wan my Dada" whimpering I sat the phone on Baby blues legs.

"I know and he misses you too, he told me to let you know that he loves you so much and he can't wait to watch princess movies with you and that he has a surprise for when you come home"

"Really? Him miss his Dee Dee?" gasping excitedly I picked the phone up again, smiling I stared at mama happily. "Him miss me, really?"

"Of course he does! When you get back he'll be here waiting for you okay? I need you to be a good girl and look out for your brother"

"Okay Mama! I be good, promise!"

"Matt" Mama calls out

"Yes?" Matt answers from the front seat turning somewhere

"Send me the address you picked them up from, and don't debate me on my decisions I'm about to make. Them mother fuckas busted my baby lip and beat my toddler for nothing"

"You can do whatever you want but you'll have to find out the address from someone else, I'm not helping you fuck up. Child services are already on your case—"

"No biggy, I'll get it out of Remo" huffing she looked at me through the phone. "I'll see you in a few minutes Dee, I love you"

"Love you" waving I pushed the red button handing Matt his phone back, shaking Baby blue awake I kissed his check. "Mama coming"

Babbling he kicked his feet smiling, nodding in agreement I smiled back hugging him.

"Mama is good"

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