Broken Vow

51: Giving Up

Pakiramdam ni Jiselle ay malapit na malapit na syang matanggal sa trabaho nya dahil sa nadadalas na yung pag-absent nya. Lately, she feel so lazy dragging herself to her workplace. She's been working damn hard since she graduated College for the welfare of her family. Di naman sya pamilyadong babae kaya naiisip nya lately na huminto na muna sa paghahanap buhay to give herself a break. Baka seryosohin na nya ang gusto ng ate at papa nya. They were right. At her age, she needed to find a suitable man that'll give her a new life.

"To my dearest employer,
Thank you... for the years of experience... that you have allowed to me... as an employee to your company.  After ages of staying at your company... I think this is the right time... to relieve from my position... because..."

Kada tipa ni Jiselle sa keyboard ng kanyang laptop ay binabanggit nya ang mga salitang inilalagay sa resignation letter. She stopped at the second sentence nang hindi pa ito natatapos. Ano nga ba ang isusulat nyang dahilan? Maghahanap ng boyfriend ganon? Or magkukunyare  na hahanap ng bagong trabaho? Kasi kung tutuusin she don't have reason to left. She's got a high position, she's got a good relation to other workers, good salary, good employee and environment. Should she be honest to her letter?

Making an actual resignation letter is harder than I thought. Sabi nya sa isip nya. Noong high school at college sya, sobrang bilis lang nya makatapos ng resignation letter kapag pinagagawa sila. Now that she needed that ability of her to write, bigla namang nawala.

Nadistract sa pagiisip si Jiselle when her phone vibrated na nasa mesa lang din, katabi ng kanyang laptop.

Sis Cherry.

Yon ang ID caller which means, tumatawag si Clark. Thanks to him, nabasag ang screen ng cellphone ni Jiselle nang maibato nya ito the morning they woke up from nightmare. Jiselle rolled her eyes at hinayaan ang tawag na sadyang maputol.

Hinarap nya ulit ang laptop ay akmang ipahpapatuloy ang pagsusulat nang magvi-brate for the second time ang cell nya.

"Bwiset. Ano bang kailangan mong bakla ka?"

She pick up her phone then rejected the call.

"Okay. Now, let's write--"

Her phone beep.

Annoyed, she open the message na galing kay Clark.

[ You must be enjoying to ignore my calls ]

Ibababa na sana nya ang cell but may pumasok na isa pang message.

[ Alam mo, cyst, ayaw ko ding pagusapan yung gabi ng lagim na yon but we have too. ]

Iritadong binura ni Jiselle ang numero ni Clark sa contacts nya.

Dahil hindi nya mahanap yung "will" to finish her letter, she save the document na nasimulan na nya and she shutdown the laptop. She left her phone in her room at sya ng bahay.

It's Saturday, wala syang pasok pati si Marco. Her ate Elena went to Eve's school to support her daughter in her kiddie pageant. Sasama sana silang buong pamilya kaso nang malaman ni Jiselle na kasama pala ni Elena si Adam, sya na mismo ang pumigil sa papa nila at kay Marco na sumama. She was left in their house kasama ang bunsong kapatid at ang ama.

Pumunta ng kusina si Jiselle. She cooked pancake for herself. May mixture na natira kaya tinabi nya yon sa ref para kung gustuhin nya ulit, magluluto na lang sya.

Nasa salas sya, nanunuod ng comedy show habang nakasalampak sa sofa at kumakain. She's laughing at every funny scene.

"Ate! Ang baboy mo naman! Yung mga ginamit mo sa pagluto nakatambak sa lababo." Biglang pagpuna ni Marco. She glare at him. Galing syang kusina base from the mug of coffee in his hand.