Honey (BxB)

~49~

Jesse

"J-Jesse?" He called me, his voice barely above a whisper for me to hear.

I felt my vision blur. Shit! I can't cry now. Not in front of him.

So I ran. I ran as fast as I could. I heard him call my name. He was chasing me but I didn't look back.

I heard heavy footsteps behind me. Damn! Fuck his long legs.

It wasn't long after when I felt my hand being grabbed by him. He stopped so suddenly and his grip made me fly back into his arms.

"NOO!!" I thrashed around in his arms. "Let me go!!!" I cried as I struggled to free myself. He didn't listen, of course.

"P-Please, listen to me. Please...give me a chance....P-Please," Tristan's voice broke as he whispered the words into my ear. He was hugging me from behind. I felt something wet on my shoulder.

Wait, is he crying?

I thought for a moment before taking a deep breath and relaxing in his arms.

"Okay..." I nodded, looking down. I felt him lift his head from my shoulder. "Let's talk," I said, removing his, now loose, hands from my waist.

"Thank you," I heard him say but I didn't respond. I walked to the nearest bench I saw and sat down.

He sat down next to me but kept a fair distance from me. I stared straight ahead, not bothering to look at him. I had to talk to him sooner or later so why not now.

"I'm sorry. God, I'm so sorry. I swear I didn't mean to hurt you. I would never want to hurt you intentionally. It was all just a mistake. I-I... It's all my fault. I should've told you. I'm sorry..." He frantically apologized.

I looked down with a pained smile. "It's not your fault,"

"W-What? " Tristan questioned in confusion.

"I should've known this would happen. How can I stupidly think someone like would like me... I never learn... " I said and took a deep breath before leaning back to look at the sky.

"Jesse, what are you sayi-"

"There was this kid named Jacob," I cut him off. "He was my classmate in middle school. He was a cool kid. Everybody liked him. So I was really surprised when he said he wants to be friends with me. I was the silent kid in my class so nobody really made an effort to hang out with me," I scoffed.

"Jacob was really nice. We hung out, played video games, and did all the school projects together. But one day he suddenly stopped talking to me. He completely ignored my existence like we were playing video games in my room the other day. I was confused. I tried to talk to him but h-he never even looked at me.

One day he got so annoyed and told me to leave him alone. He told me that he didn't want to be friends with me. It was all just an act so he could get high marks on the project. Teaming up with me was the best option because I was the nerd in the class... An easy target, right? " A humorless chuckle left my lips as I wiped my tears.

Tristan wanted to say something but he chose against it and decided to stare at the ground.

"Dylan is my best friend. We grew up together. He moved to my school when we started high school. It was nice having him with me. I finally had a friend to talk to at school.

Then Paul came. We met when we were cleaning the library. He was a popular guy at school. Had the looks and all. He hung out with us most of the time. He was a funny guy and really liked books. He complimented me daily for almost everything about me. He... " I trailed off thinking about those days and how stupid I was then.

"He was my first crush. A-And I told him that. I told him I liked him but h-he laughed at my face and called me names that I don't want to say out loud. Apparently, the reason he hung out with us was because of a bet. A bet to prove that I was gay.... and he proved it to the whole school. They bullied me, called me names, and trashed my locker to make my school life hell,"

I looked down. It was some memories that I wanted to forget. "But this is different...I-I was really happy. I thought you were the one. I was finally confident for once in my life. We were so close. B-But then-then..." I broke down sobbing into my hands. "I-it's all m-my fault. I s-should've known..."

"Jesse-"

"Y-You did the worst. You like Lisa t-then why did you do that-"

I was cut off by him kneeling in front of me and taking my hands. He was crying. He looked exhausted.

"I'm sorry..." He looked down. "I admit I'm a douche.... I-I had a crush on your sister for a long time. But she never even looked at me. So Jake came up with this plan to get her attention and-and that was to be friends with you. Only friends. But whenever I spend time with you, I... I couldn't help but feel these things about you...

I was attracted to you in ways that made me lose my sleep. You are so cute and gorgeous I just couldn't stop myself..." He looked at me and caressed my cheeks.

"The day when I kissed you, I vowed to never go after your sister. It was just you and me from thereon. You turned my world upside down. I just wanted to be with you all the time. I-I admit that I was scared. It was all new for me," The rain finally poured. Tiny raindrops flowed down his face mixed with his tears. We were both getting wet but neither of us cared.

"All my life I thought I was straight and then you came and made me forget everything. I didn't tell Jake about what happened between us. I was scared. I wanted to be sure about what I'm feeling. That's why you heard us talking about those things. But now I'm sure. Four days without seeing you and hearing your voice, knowing that you probably hate me right now was hell, " Tristan's face showed everything he was feeling. The guilt, sadness, fear, and love... everything was visible.

"It gave me the time to come to terms with my feelings....a-and Jesse, I-I like you. I like you so much that it hurts. P-Please, believe me. Please....." He cried, clutching my hands tightly.

I stared down at him. Tristan practically was begging for me to give him a chance. I've never thought I'd see him do something like this. I've never thought a guy like me would ever put aside his pride to go this far.

He did this for me.

He likes me.

I just heard him confess.

"T-Tristan..." I called, causing him to look up, his eyes wide and waiting for my words. "I like you too... "

He was frozen for a moment before a wide grin formed on his lips.

"Oh god, " He let out a sigh of relief as he looked up at the sky. His hands soon wrapped around my waist and pulled me in for a passionate kiss.

He pulled away from me for a moment. "You don't know how much I missed kissing you, " He whispered out breathlessly before going back to kissing me.

I couldn't help but smile into the kiss.

I'm glad I came out for a walk.

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Tadaaa ╮(╯▽╰)╭