Troye's POV
"What?" Tyler questioned, looking confused. I didn't care to answer him. He should know why I'm ignoring him. He can't keep a simple fucking promise? God damn it.
"What Troye? What's wrong?" Tyler said looking over at me. I still refused to even turn my head or make a sound. Tyler never gave up either... Almost every single stop light we ever came across too, "Troye stop ignoring me!" or "What's wrong god damn it!" It was very complicated to ignore him and it was difficult to not let out my anger at him for asking me more then once and ignoring me.
Then finally Tyler some how managed to get the truth out of me.
"You promised me they would apologize! You even told me they said sorry entering the hospital! You fucking liar! Drop me off at a god damn hotel I'm not staying at your house anymore," I aggressively yelled.
"Wait a minute but Troye-" Tyler stopped.
"No nothing! You lied and broke a fucking promise, twice, I could go without my stuff. I brought my phone, drop me off at a hotel god damn it!" I yelled once more.
"Fine..." Tyler agreed. He looked like he didn't want to do it, that's his fault.. Wait a minute... What am I saying... God damn it this is the worst idea I've ever made... Shit. Tyler probably won't ever forgive me..
"Ty-"
"Get out..." Tyler said aggressively
"But wai-"
"You're mad, that's fine, this is your decision, get out," Tyler said without making eye contact with me. I decided to do as he wanted and got out the car... It wasn't soon before Tyler went zooming out of the Hotel parking lot. I just stood there for a couple of minutes thinking of what I did. It was the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life... Besides those nightmares... I can't be in a hotel by myself with those nightmares.. What do I do.. You stupid asshole Troye...
Well it was getting dark.. I should go inside and find a room to sleep in...
Finally... I found a room. After having to argue with the front desk person because I was "loitering''.. I felt extremely lonely.. and regretting ever single bit I did... Yes.. To make me feel better. I paced towards the bathroom and luckily I found one.. a razor.
One cut...
2 Cuts 3.....
More and more, the blood gushing from my arm...
I slide down the wall crying softly to myself... I think about the biggest mistake I've made in my entire lifetime... Maybe I should check twitter.... Maybe I might have some fans who start to love me.
I quickly got up from my position and cleaned ever single drop of blood in this bathroom. I paced over towards the bed where my phone was. I typed in the password and opened up Twitter... This isn't what I expected...
Tylerslay
@Troyesivan about the hospital incident, you should've not have survived....
That's all I had to see.. No more... I lost all of my fans... My friends. Tyler... I lost Tyler... Tyler hates me now. I'm such a fucking bastard.. I'm alone, empty, nobody is here... Not a single person.. Everybody left me because of my stupid god damn choices I make. I lost Zoe... Alfie, Casper, Connor.. and Tyler... I should've thought before I did.. You stupid asshole Troye. You dumb shi-.
"You fucked up piece of shit!"
"You don't have friends now dumb fuck!"
"You good piece of nothing, shit bag, now no wonder you don't have any friends!"
"Useless peice of shit..."
Stop it please.... I pleaded. I squeezed my ears to try and make the voices disappear.... they didn't.. They won't... I wish I had somebody by my side right now. Tyler... He doesn't want me anymore.
Sure damn right bitch!
Sure doesn't want a useless bastard like you!
Don't listen to them Troye.. Ignore them.. Stop it... Don't let them get in...
Listen to us! You have no confident! Cut yourself, make more!!!"
Yes Troye...
I walked over to the bathroom.. No... Just I can't do this to myself again.. Imagine Ty- That's right... Tyler doesn't like me anymore... I have nobody to care for me anymore... I just sat there crying... I felt completely alone..... lost.. and empty, no friends....no nothing, I felt...
Depressed...
A'N
For those who read this might have been the lucky ones and like "where is the author note" Sorry, I forgot, plz forgive me. Anyways, sorry for not uploading in decades! and 5 MORE DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!! HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVES <3!!!!! I hope you like the story because this is THE LAST CHAPTER. Lol just kidding, there will be way more then this so, ya, ily guys sm <3!
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Dark (A troyler fanfiction)
Random19 year old Troye Sivan suffers from the hate from his former fans and the constant loosing of friendship. The only way to fix it, and make him happy.. Is self harm. On the other hand 25 year old Tyler is the only person left to help the broken boy...
