Unexpectedly Married with a Gangster

Chapter 40

Kate's Point of View

"Jonas!!" agad kaming nataranta nang si Jonas ang tamaan ng bala na dapat ay para saakin!

no, no, no, not Jonas, please. I can't bear to loose him.

My tears started to fall while my lips are still parted, My knees started trembling as I fall down into my knees, I held Jonas and instantly hugged him.

"d-don't talk, don't close your e-eyes, d-don't die on me, please..." I started begging, he held my cheek and shook his head.

no, no, no. I don't want him to die, no.

"I-I'm s-sorry." I bit my lip when he smiled weakly and cupped my face. "let's fix us in another lifetime, Kate. I'll win you next time but for now, bitaw na, Kate. Bitaw na." 

he kissed me. "I love you, always you. Kung hindi ikaw, huwag na lang. L-Let go of me, Baby." 

I burst into tears when he suddenly closed his eyes. "Jonas, wake up! Wake up, please! D-don't die."

Hindi na maawat ang mga luha ko habang hawak hawak ko siya. "J-Jonas!" I shouted in pain when he started panting.

I can't afford to loose Jonas, I don't want to loose him. I want him to stay with me.

Naramdaman kong lumapit sila saakin, I started breathing heavily when we entered the private hospital we own. I can't contain my tears, my hands are cold and my knees are getting weaker.

Nanginginig na umupo ako sa upuan at niyakap ang sarili ko.

This is my karma, what have I done? Why is it always my fault? I clearly deserves this but he doesn't.

Haha I should have been the one struggling living, not Jonas. I can die for him, I can die willing to pay for all my mistakes and brutality. I can die for him but I can't see him die in front of me.

I looked at the doctor while holding my chest, he nodded and entered the OR.

Jonas can't die, I still have to catch things with him,  kailangan kong bumawi, kailangan kong humingi ng tawad sakanya. I need him, I need him beside me.

I roamed my gaze and instantly smiled when I saw Keith, I ran towards him and hugged him. I cried on his chest and he started caressing my back.

"K-Keith, are you o-okay?" I cupped his face and kissed him. "I-I'm so sorry, this is all my fault--"

"it's not your fault." He smiled at me and wiped my tears. "It's no one's fault so hush, I'm okay." He kissed the tip of my nose and hugged me again.

Hindi ko kakayanin kung pati siya ay masasaktan uli ng dahil saakin. I think, I would die once I hurt him again.

I am such a bad wife.

"I am so sorry for being a b-bad w-wife." I felt him froze and instantly shook his head.

"I love you."

I bit my lower lip and sighed heavily. "I love you too."

he held my chin. "take some rest, first." he giggled and opened the door of a room, I nodded at him and entered the room.

I scoffed when I saw a familiar room, tsk. This is my room whenever I'm here at this hospital. I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes.

it's all my fault, its clearly my fault. If it wasn't for me, Mark's parents shouldn't have died and he will never avenge them, if it weren't for me, then I wouldn't hurt Jonas.