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I sat in my office, shuffling through my papers before the song I knew all too well began playing through my earphones. Putting the papers down I looked up at the ceiling, absorbing every word like it was the first time I had ever heard the song even though it wasn't. As my throat closed up, my eyes burnt and my breathing hardened I got up, throwing the door open and walking down the stairs where I was met with the cold winter air.
Shoving my pockets into my doctors coat I began my way down the road of my office building. Feeling my surrounding melt away as the only thing I heard was my heels clicking against the gravel of the side walk. The air felt much heavier but I refused to stop and breath as my lungs kept fighting for air.
My thoughts and my music was so loud I hadn't realised someone was behind me til I felt a hand grasp my bicep, making me spin around in fright. I exhaled when I was met with the sight of one of my blue hair patients, Edwin. He and I had become very fond of each other outside of the doctor and patient relationship.
I watched as his lips moved but I couldn't hear a word he was saying making me mouth a "What" as to signal my confusion. He signaled for me to remove my earphone. I was so into my head I hadn't even noticed they were in
"Y/N, you cannot be walking outside all alone" he scolded "especially with these on" he said motioning to my earphones
"Yeah, I'm sorry I'll be more careful"I said blandly before turning to walk back
"I'm serious Y/N, this is Brooklyn you can't keep walking around at night alone. There are murderers, drunk men and violent people around I don't want you to get caught up" he said
"I grew up here Edwin, it's not dangerous" I answered
"People get killed here every other day and you're saying it's not safe?" Edwin asked in disbelief "you must be kidding me"
"Whatever I'm going back to my office" I said pushing past him only to be stopped again by his past action
"Let me walk you" he said
"Edwin I'm a big girl I can find my way back" I sighed
"Okay but I want to make sure you get back safely" he replied "please"
I sighed before walking, he took it as a yes and began trailing next to me. Edwin and I met because he was a kid with a troubled past and instead of running from it he wanted to confront it. I too had a past but I somehow felt as though I was confronting it by helping Edwin with he's but little did I know I was falling for him and before I knew it, it was too late to stop.
"Where you crying?" Edwin asked snapping me out of my mindless thoughts
"What. No" I replied wiping my already dry cheeks with the back of my hand
"Y/N" Edwin said sternly swatting my hand away. He cupped my face, bringing it up to him
"Look at me" he said
I couldn't find it in myself to look him in the eye. Those soft brown eyes for his would only bring more heaviness to the guilt that already weighed on my heart. I simply pulled away, marching at a fast pace toward the office building, feeling the cold air hit my fresh tears that now had began streaming down my face.
I walked up the stairs, through the empty building into my office, ignoring Edwin's pleas and cry's of my name. Once I reached my office I began frantically shoving papers into my bag, sniffing as I went along. The hand on my wrist halted my actions as Edwin brought me into his imbrace.
"Stop!" I said pulling away
"Y/N-
"No, stop it. Stop saying my name and caring for me and- just stop all of it I don't deserve it!" I yelled. Edwin looked confused
"Y/N, just let me help you like you helped me" Edwin said desperately
"I'm supposed to help you deal with your issues. There is no two way street about this!" I sighed
Once the silence had settled I sat on my desk, looking down at the picture frame of me and my boyfriend, James. Who had died 3 years ago from some random shot that went through our windows
"We had our lives planned, we were gonna he married have kids, all of that- but when I found him lying in a pool of his own blood- I just couldn't do it anymore" I confessed "when I went to go collect his things in his apartment, I found a ring. Still new in its box and- and now here I am 3 years later falling in love with another man- moving on like nothing happened and I'm sore disgusted in myself!"
"Y/N it wasn't your fault-
"Oh but it was! Had I come home earlier I may have been able to save him" I said cutting Edwin off mid sentence
I got up and walked around my desk.
"Look Edwin there is no cure for me, no way to fix me so leave while you still can"
"I've been left all my life by people who I care about the most I wouldn't dare leave someone I care about behind to struggle on their own? Never" Edwin said sternly
"Edwin-
"No Y/N! I don't leave those who I love" he said, realisation hitting at what he just confessed
"You what?" I asked slowly
"I love you Y/N" Edwin said this time with w bit more confidence
I looked at him in utter shock. Nothing came out of my mouth. I wanted to scream back that I loved him too but ever fibre in my being was yelling that I was doing wrong by James. Edwin's eyes had a glimmer of hope as I opened my mouth to reply
"I'm sorry Edwin, but I don't love you"
The glimmer quickly dimmed, as Edwin grabbed his jacket mumbling something along the lines of him being dumb and regretting saying anything before he quickly exited my office. I felt my heart shatter, yet again I had pushed away someone who genuinely loved me.
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