Imperfectly Perfect

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Family is all we have at the end of the day.
If we have lost family, we have nothing,
but our miserable lives.

~THABS. [PS: That's me!🤗]

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T R A C K: Flower of the universe ~Sade

Third Person's Perspective

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"They've come to see, a fire burning in your heart. They want to witness. . . .this love from the start. They hear you when you cry, this love is far and wide. When you smile the stars align, flower of the Universe. . . . child of mine."

She sang gently as her hold tightened around her grandmother's. She fought back a lump struggling up her throat as a stubborn tear rolled down her cheek.

"Yeah....I used to sing it that song to you, remember?" She asked weakly as a cough escaped her. Zahra nodded as she hardly bit her bottom lip, trying her hardest to fight back the pain and sorrow threatening to pull her back into the abyss. She didn't want to go back there, not now.

"Yeah grandma, I remember. You sang it to my mother too, every time dad would beat her up and she'd run to your house. You'd cradle her like she was a little baby, holding with such tenderness and love whilst she cried her eyes out. You'd stroke her hair gently, as you sang that song. So....melodically into her hair. The way you do to me every time I had a bad dream or got hurt or just...just couldn't sleep." She recalled as she could physically imagine it before her, her heart clenching in despair and the saddening memories.

"You were so young then. All I wanted to do was keep you in my arms and hide you away from men like your father. I wanted you to feel loved and cared for, something your mother was too weak to do." She said meekly as she pictured how lifeless her daughter had been the last week post her suicide attempt.

Zahra glances up to her grandmother, her eyes were tired too, eye bags encircling them as her usually grinning lips laid flatly in a frown. Her wrinkles evident now as the color of her skin dulled. Her veins more evident on her weak shaky hands. Zahra wasn't sure how much time she had, how much time her grandma had.

"When you sleep, softly the angels come. Like diamonds, like my love. They want to know it's true, there's someone in the world lovely as you. They hear when you cry, this love is far and wide. When you smile the stars align, flower of the Universe. . . child of mine." They sang together as a sad smile etched its way onto Zahra lips.

The song had never sounded better.

"Grandma I need you to hold on. Please, I still need you to hold me in your arms and protect me from the evil of the world. I still need you to sing me this song every time I'm in pain or can't sleep or just to hear your beautiful voice. Please grandma, I still need your love." She plead with her grandmother, her tone trembling as her heart ached. She held her grand mother's right hand up to her shaking lips where she kissed the hand for a long minute whilst trying to suppress a sob.

A sob that choked her.

The tears ran down her cheeks, but she muffled the sound. She didn't want her grandmother to see her so weak, when she needed to be strong for the both of them.

"Honey, I raised you well enough to know that if I ever left, you'll be okay. You're a smart girl Zara, beautiful and smart and dedicated. The world won't have you, you'll have it. But I'll be right next to you every step of the way babygirl, just how your grandfather and your mother are right beside us day in and day out. Watching over us. It's my time to go join them too baby girl."

"GRANDMA NO! No, please grandma! I still need you so badly grandma! I still need your guidance and love and patience and...and...I just still really need you right here beside me! Okay! I can't afford to lose you too. I just can't." Zahra exclaimed as her tone cracked and her sobs escaped to the surface. Her grandmother looked at her with sorrowful eyes and saw how much hurt Zahra had bottled down deep inside her.

"What's wrong baby? Why are you in so much pain?" Her grandma asked softly as she held back her hand tightly in reassurance. Zahra shrugged as she avoided her eyes, her all seeing eyes. "Nothing grandma, it's just that you're leaving me just like my mother left me. You aren't giving me a choice here, just telling me to accept it and suck it up! But I can't! I couldn't with mom, I couldn't with grandpa and I DEFINITELY can't with you! Okay grandma? I need you so bad here in this world." Zahra's gaze plead, but her grandma saw the pain in her eyes so raw and evident, she worried for her little baby.

She nodded, caressing her hand as she nodded again. " it's okay baby, I'm still here for you and for as long as the Lord decides I should be here for."

"No grandma it's going to be okay. I'm going to get more money so they can continue the treatment. I'm going to get it and you are going to be okay, I just need a little more time okay? Just a little bit more time." Zahra explained with needy desperate eyes begging her grandmother.

She nodded unwillingly to please her.

It was obvious Zahra couldn't and wouldn't accept her grandmother's fate, and in some sense it was understandable. She had been a mother to Zahra when her mother gave up and left. She had built and molded her into the strong intelligent woman she is today, but Zahra couldn't have possibly believed things would've remained this way? Could she?

"Where did you get the money for them to keep me here?" Her grandmother asked, her tone fragile as Zahra laid her head down her grandmother's lower abdomen whilst she stroked her curls gently. "Dominic gave it to me. But I promised I'd pay it back." Zahra whispered softly as her grandmother sighed heavily. "You know how I hate it when you ask stuff from him, right? Now your in debt to a loss screw junkie!"

"Grandma! It's okay, I'll handle it, okay? Everything will go back to normal and we'll be together again, okay?" Zahra asked softly as she turned to look up into her grandmother's dark coco brown eyes. Her grandmother felt sad at how desperate her babygirl was to keep a dying woman alive. She had accepted her fate, why couldn't she?

"I love you Zaza, so very much." She said instead of lying to her.

Zahra smiled. "I love you too grandma."

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