January 13, 2019
At this point in life she realized she had people who cared for her. She knew deep down her parents cared for her no matter how harsh they were towards her. She still had 2 brothers by her side. Her older brother was rude to her but when it came to their parents they stuck by each other and loved each other. Her and her brother didn't want her little brother to go through anything from what they did. she went to her grandparents house to talk to her Grandpa who was her other best friend.
After the discussion she needed to let it out one final time.
" i'm currently crying because I just had a talk with my grandpa and I realized that i'm taking my life for granted, I know I am a sad and depressed person but I know that if i'd wish I was gone i'd be selfish, i'd leave my grandparents and my parents and everyone that loves me, I can't do that. I need to understand that this is going to be my life and I have to accept it, I'll admit I hold grudges, I do Harry I really do, why? because I rather hold a grudge than accept it and break even more, I had a dream that we met and you read some of these but not all, I worked in a cafe and you visited me one day and made me happy and took me to go see my cousin in texas, we became friends and we actually got along I didn't trust you to get in the truck with you but you told me that I could I hesitated but agreed and thats when you flew me to her, you had gone on live and that was a first but I didn't want to show my face so people wouldn't talk bad about you. My cousin fainted and was amazed
which made me laugh in my dream and you smiled sweetly at me and I couldn't help but cry, We started dancing and you were still on live and my cousin played my song and I was angry but you were confused because you didn't know who that was and I started singing and you were amazing and you loved it... we soon left and you took me to England for the weekend and I was so scared and you read the rest of my "letters" to you and I cried but then we flew back and spent christmas with my family and I told you to spend it with your family but you disagreed so we all had a good time and did karaoke. and everyone was in awe because you sang use somebody by kings of leon and I cried, we then went to spend new years with your family and my parents allowed it so we went and we had the time of our lives. you had to go back on tour so I understood but you refused to leave me so asked me to go with you so we did, later on you told me to sing on stage and it was empty well I thought
So I sang stone cold and you just watched me sing and i was crying while I finished and the lights turned on and everyone was cheering for me but I was shocked and couldn't believe you did that to me so I ran towards the back and I was angry and furious and you told me that i'd thought you'd be happy and I slapped you( I was shocked myself Harry I know) and you looked at me and just told me to come back on stage and I kept crying because it was so overwhelming to me and you hugged me, I went on stage again and apologized and sang with you and I was happy, I was truly happy because you made me happier than I ever had been in my entire life, your tour was ending and we had to say our goodbyes but you also had a person and I was crushed, so crushed and you pushed me away and I was torn apart once again. once your tour finally ended you didnt even say goodbye to me you walked away and left me in the airport to be all alone because your person didn't want you too and you listened.
I flew back and cried and cried for months. I wrote a book and became famous and you followed me on instagram and my heart dropped. I of course followed you back and people started freaking out. It was the red carpet and I was invited and went and I saw you wearing a all red Tuxedo and I wore a gold dress we made eye contact and looked away but you came after me and kissed me and I woke up.. I know you kissed me... funny huh? anyways I know it was long but in my dream it felt like a life time but in reality it lasted for hours and was not even real. But that dream made me realize a lot and that I need to move on and let you go, even though I never had you. Maybe i'll text you in a year or maybe not at all. you've changed my life for the best. Once again thank you for being you and an amazing incredible man who lives his life to the fullest. be you and always be kind and find love and don't care what others have to say Harry. I can't say I love you because I don't know you like I said.
I love who you are in general. So thank you Harry for making me see that there is people out there like you, I sincerely hope your life is filled with hope and everything god wishes you. Thank you Harry, Till maybe next time Harry, goodbye love <3
Sincerely,XxOo"
