I'm laying in bed again watching that Chanel on the hospital tv, you know the one of the beach? It's just the sounds and is supposed to be relaxing but it just seems like static to me but the nurses smiled at me when she noticed I was watching it, so I just left it on. I close my eyes for a moment focusing on my breathing feeling exhausted when I hear a couple taps. I sigh and slightly open my eyes, then grow confused at noticing the room was empty. I close my eyes again,
But
There goes the tapping again. I sighs and open my eyes all the way and looked around until I feel my eyes widen at the view of the window. My breath got caught in my throat.
There was Connor sitting or well clinging onto a tree limb outside of my hospital room. I stare at him wide eye unable to speak.
"Evan!" He yells and taps on the window. I bite my lip and look away not able to see him still having emotions everywhere.
Connor knocks more on the window "hey open it!? I'm sorry about the party please listen to me!" He begs and attempts to open the window but is unable too. I quickly shook my head "just l-leave!" I mange to get out. Connor keeps banging and attempting to lift the window making loads of noise
Til
It suddenly stopped, I didn't look over though I assumed he climbed back down. However a moment later I hear a loud thump. My heart stalled I make my way to the window as fast as I could. The color drains from my face.
"C-connor!?"
I yell and covered my mouth in shock at the scene below my window.
There was Connor on the ground his body twisted and laying unnaturally. My heart started beating quickly and wildly my breath getting caught in my throat as tears suddenly appeared in my eyes. I couldn't breath my sobs coming out choked,
This was my fault!
I cried to myself collapsing onto the ground my whole body aching and feeling like it was falling apart.
My body felt as if it was shutting down. However the world around me started shaking and fading, it was as if the world was disappearing. I hear a voice
"Evan!"
It made my heart hurt even more. As if finally noticing for the first time I realized my eyes were closed I quickly open them and gasp at the sight in front of me.
It was Connor
In my hospital room not outside but in my room. I started crying even harsher. I sobbed "c-Connor I-I'm so sorry! I-I s-should've l-l-let you in" I choke out. I felt like Connor was here to seek revenge.
I knew I deserved it, so I waited.
However, it never came instead I felt arms wrap around me tightly and pulled me close to someone. I knew it was Connor and I cried into his chest. I was still mad but I hadn't realized what it would actually feel like if Connor was gone.
"Shh Shh it's okay I'm here, I'm here. Let it out it's okay I ll Wait" Connor whispers softly and slowly rubbing my back with one hand as he allowed me to cry while attempting to give comfort.
