"what the hell happened to you?"
Jared asked walking up to me i went to rub my cast but realized I couldn't with my crutches
"I uh fell again" I mumbled. Jared didn't have a mocking smile or a consenting smirk for once he looked actually concerned. "How the fuck do you fall again when you already broke a damn arm?" I remained slient and just looked at my school locker.
"Acorn aren't you gonna give me some answers?"
Jared asked clearly irritated. He stood there waiting and thinking.
"Oh shit"
He finally said I glance up at him confused.
"Connor fucking Murphy did this to you, didn't he?"
I shake my head furiously "n-no I really did fall" I agure back Jared runs a hand in his hair anger building up inside of him. Jared suddenly looks around the hallway searching until his eyes finally landed on his target.
"Murphy get your fucking ass over here!"
I look up to see Connor moving slowly and kinda clumsy when he's next to Jared I realized his eyes are pink.
He's high
Jared grabs his shirt and slams him against the locker I gasp "Jared let him go!" I say painc clear in my voice Jared turns his head to me and gives a death glare "shut up Evan stay out of this!"
"B-but"
I stutter
"not another fuCking word!" Jared hisses at me, my plams get sweaty. Jared turns towards Connor who looks out of it.
"What the hell did you do to Evan?!"
Connor smile lazy "Took care of him"
Jared slams him against the locker which surprised me making me gasp again. "By beating him up?!"
"H-he didn't beat me up"
I defend him Jared ignores me "Fuck your so damn high you don't even realize what's going on" Jared said letting go of Connor. Jared got back into Connor face for a moment "Stay the hell away from Evan you freak!"
"T-thats not nice" I mutter shifting uncomfortable why doesn't anyone do anything? Are we really that unimportant, we're... we're so invisible it feels like no one cares or not even is interested enough to glance in our way.
"Come on Evan" Jared says I shake my head "Cant I hang out with Connor?" I asked Jared looked at me like I'm stupid
I'm not stupid. "Evan he's just messing with you. He literally has no reasos to be friends with you"
Ouch
Jared sees the hurt expression on my face "shit" Jared mumbles "look that's not what I meant, I mean that he doesn't gain anything from being friends with you. He's just playing with you man"
Do I have to have something people want so they would be friends with me? Am I not good enough as me?
"Jared your stupid" Connor says Jared literally growls at him. "Get out of here you don't even know what we're talking about you smoke too much drugs" Jared says while he push Connor down the hall leaving me by myself,
Alone like always.
*Lovely time skip*
After school I'm sitting in my empty bathtub fully clothed when my phone suddenly rings. It's Jared. I ignore it and lay my head back down enjoying the quiet. The bathroom is a peaceful place even if your not using it it's a private place and a relaxing one too...well until my phone started buzzing with texts.
Printerboy: hey
Printerboy: you busy?
Printerboy: what happened today at school??"
Should I even text back? I'm causing Connor trouble. I feel like I'm a burden and because of me Jared pushed Connor if it wasn't for me it wouldn't have happened. Connor probably feels sorry for me which is why he's acting like a friend.
The_lorax: I'm sorry it's my fault.
I texted back then put my phone on the side of me. I go back to closing my eyes and just breath in and out trying to avoid thinking about everything.
Buzz-buzzz
I feel my phone go off again. I ignore it. I let my mind dift off to anything and everything, living hurts. Everyday is a battle, sometimes I win sometimes I loose;maybe I suffer damages or just a scrape.
I don't like being like this.
I'm awkward
Weird
A loser
Nothing
I'm nothing, I don't feel like I matter or like I'm worth anything. The only way I'll be worth anything is when I die and donate my organs at least then I'll be of use to someone.
Then, just maybe someone will like me then.
Author note
What Connor meant by "took care of him" Connor meant that he took care of him by taking him to the hospital then getting him ice cream and then finally making sure he ate dinner. So he did take care of him he was just too high to understand what Jared was asking.
