Powerfully powerless (season 3 of tplp)

Chapter 21: 'I love you'

I feel Aaron's arms wrap around my waist as he cuddles me, I turn and cuddle into his chest taking in his scent. "What was the guy talking about, your fling?" Aaron asks, I don't wanna talk about it so I stay silent. "Sky?" he asks I look up at him, "I had a fling with a vampire, it was his hickeys and bites you saw..." I mumble he stares at me. "I'm sorry" I say he rolls his eyes and gets up, "how many guys are you fucking right now?!" He yells I bring my knees up staring at him. "You know what, you are a slut!" He yells. My breathing quickens, he thinks I'm a slut... Two of the guys were raping me and the other didn't give a shit about me. I start having a panic attack. "Y-you think th-that I-I'm a slut..." I mumble he stares at me, I stare down "I didn't want them to touch me..." I whisper as tears run down my cheek. "Sky... I'm sorry... I didn't know" He mumbles hugging me, I stay still "I'm a slut..." I whisper he sighs knowing that I believe everything people say bad about me. He lifts me up and lays me on the bed climbing on me, he sucks on my neck leaving a hickey. "stop... or you'll think I'm a  slut..." I mumble, he sighs "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to plant the idea in your head" he says I stare at him. He cuddles me with my stomach to his back and his arms around me. I close my eyes then feel his hand travel down my pants, he starts touching me. I moan arching my head back on his shoulder. He kisses my temple while I moan digging my nails into his arm.

We cuddle for hours chatting and I don't feel worthless. I feel happy, for the first time in awhile. "I'm sorry I wasn't there... when you lost Ellie" he says I stare at him wishing he didn't mention her. "It's fine" I say abruptly not wanting to hear her name. "Do you want kids?" he asks, I shrug "I did... I don't know anymore" I say he nods and gets on top of me. "Can I say something crazy?" he asks, I nod, "let's make a baby" he says I roll my eyes. "We aren't even together, plus neither of us are ready to be parents, not to mention I'm only 17" I say he stares at me, "And you stop ageing at 18, we were ready when we found out about Ellie and we have been engaged before, we can easily get back together" he says I slightly giggle, it's cute that he wants a baby. "I dunno.." I say feeling unsure but his cute smile is hard to say no to. "I-if I get pregnant... I won't know who's baby it is..." I mumble feeling like a slut. "Then we wait two weeks, if you aren't pregnant then we can start trying... plus we'd have 2 two weeks to get back together and figure things out" Aaron says, I smile and nod kinda excited. Then I think about Dawn... she'd hate me, she's only just broken up with Aaron and he's already planning to have kids. I feel like I don't deserve this happiness. Aaron rests his head on my stomach and cuddles me, "think about it" he says falling asleep. I spent hours after that over thinking everything, Aaron will probably change his mind, or he's joking, maybe he just wants to make Dawn jealous or he is just trying to make me happy even though it's not what he wants. I play with his hair staring at him, I sigh "do you want a kid?..." I mumble to him knowing he can't hear. 

I watch him sleep for hours. He opens his eyes and looks at me half asleep. "Why aren't you sleeping?" he says yawning, I shrug, "I couldn't sleep.." I mumble he rubs his eyes an nods. I giggle looking at his messy hair, I run my hands through his hair lightly tugging the knots out fixing it. He stares at me biting his lip, "your hair was messy" I say. he nods but i know he wasn't listening. He climbs to my face sucking on my neck, I bite my lip as he leaves a heap of hickeys. He runs his teeth along my neck, I feel a painful pinching pain making me whimper, but then it turns into a loud moan. He sits up staring at my neck "shit... I'm sorry!" He says running his hand along my neck, it's sensitive. I moan, he leans down sucking on my neck, I moan digging my nails into his back. I quickly realise... he has accidentally marked me. I push him away "Aaron!" I yell he bites his lip "I didn't mean to" he says, I run my hand through my hair "fuck" I mumble. 

"Well it's not that bad" he says I glare at him, he puts his hands up in defence. I sigh, "Is it sensitive?" he asks, I nod half annoyed. He runs his cold hands over it, I quietly moan closing my eyes. He chuckles and I glare at him "Jerk!" I yell he just grins. I flip him and climb on top of him sitting on him. I rock my hips knowing this turns him on. I feel him get hard, I grin as he stares at me. I lean down and run my tongue up his jaw, he grabs my hips rocking them and quietly moaning. I whisper in his ear "payback for using the marking against me", I get off him and cuddle his blanket. I can feel him glaring at me, "that's unfair" he says I shrug. I turn and look at him, he's staring at me "You know how I get when you tease me then leave me hanging" he says. I roll my eyes "yeah, you get all bad mooded and frustrated" I whine he just nods. "Fuck you" I hiss he smirks, "gladly" I glare at him "your such a perv" I say he just chuckles. I climb under the blanket and pull his pants down sucking his dick. 

I sleep in his arms. I actually sleep. I wake up to his loud snoring, I never thought I'd miss. I look at my phone, 'get home right now or I'll fucking kill you' reads the message, it's from Eric. I roll my eyes, I lay back down and Aaron pulls me into his chest. I close my eyes but my mind keeps reminding me of the cold gazes he gave me just a few weeks ago, I stare at him "you really hurt me..." I mumble. To my surprise he opens his eyes and frowns "I'm sorry" he mumbles, I kiss his nose. My eyes travel around the room but stop on the empty part of the wall, all the photos of me and him are gone apart from a few ripped parts that probably wouldn't of come off when he was ripping them down, the few frames sit smashed and empty and it really hurts. He did this to photos of us.

"Lila..." he says pulling my face to his "I'm sorry" he says but my eyes stay on the wall, I look around and see another wall with is filled with photos of him and Dawn, all neatly and carefully placed. I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt. "Sky..." he says I stare at him, "You mean a lot to me, don't second guess yourself" he says I just nod. If I meant a lot to him he wouldn't have left when I needed him. He grabs my waist and pulls me into his arms. "I love you" He whispers in my ear.