I Can't
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What is she talking about? Is this even true? Are those words really coming out of her mouth?
Is her mind awake?
Is she lying?
But for all I know, drunk people don't lie.
A thousand questions are racing through my mind right now. And those are just a few of them.
I can't seem to explain everything that's happening.
She loves you.
I don't know if I'll be happy with that news...
I have Claudia. The girl I really love right now. And I'm already happy with her.
And I'm gonna lie if I say that I don't feel anything for Jen.
Break up with Claudia. You loved Jen first, didn't you?
All I can do is sigh at the thought.
I sit beside Jen and wipe her tears away.
"Me too." That's all I can say.
She doesn't answer this time. But a little part of me hope she did.
I don't know who to pick.
Jen or Claud.
Jen or Claud.
Who?
In answer, I hold Jen's hand and mutter the word "Sorry."
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I felt a person shaking me and telling me to get up. I open my eyes, still half-asleep.
"Josh." she says, "Wake up."
I groan and prop my body with my elbows.
"What?" I ask, irritated, for all I know I don't have to wake up this early.
"You were having a nightmare." Claudia says with a worried look on her face. "You kept saying Jennifer's name."
I was having a nightmare? Oh, that explains the sweat beads on my face and my constant shaking. I didn't even notice it before.
"What?" I said once again, that's all I can say.
Why would I shout Jen's name in my sleep?
"Yeah, you kept repeating her name." then Claudia looked down, probably shocked that I would say another girl's name in my sleep. "I can't say that I didn't fell jealous."
"Claud.." I say, holding her hand. "You know I love you."
"But you love Jen." she says, her voice a little shaky, that means she's probably holding back her tears.
"Yes, in a very different way." I say, a little bead of tear trickled down her face. And I wipe it with my hands. "You don't have to be jealous."
"I can.." she says, drifting off, "But you have to do something."
"What?" I say, holding her hand. "I'll do anything Claud, just ask me."
"Anything?" she asks. And I nod, assuring her.
"Anything."
"Stay away from her." she says, and I stare at her in shock. I don't know what to say. I don't even know what to think.
"Claud..." I say, still staring at her, she looks at me with a stern look on her face. "I can't."
"Then I think it's better if we break up." she says, looking away. i can feel the world crashing down on me.
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Better Off Friends | Joshifer
Fanfiction"We're all weird. Life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with us, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness - and call it love - true love" -Dr. Seuss